I can't believe my life right now. It's moved so quickly.

I'm not saying that I regret my decisions but so many things have changed.

One thing, for sure, is that I am starting to gain feelings toward my best friend Jacob Black. Especially, since Edward had left me. Edward now seems like something, well, more like someone, of my past.

Charlie seems so much happier now that he is sure I have deep feelings for Jake.

Knock, knock, knock.

I leaped off of my bed and looked out my window. It was Jacob. He'd been around to my place a lot since the incident with Edward.

I felt as though I needed Jacob to get over Edward.

I bolted down the stairs and casually opened the door.

"Hey, Jake!" I squealed.

"Bella!" Jacob said as he wrapped his arms around me.

"What's up?" I asked.

"Um, nothing really. I was just wondering if you wanted to go see a movie, or go grab some lunch," he replied, curiously.

"Yeah, sure thing. I'll go grab my coat", I answered. Jacob nodded and then walked back to the Rabbit. I ran to my room, grabbed my coat and as I was coming downstairs I yelled, "Dad, I'm going to go hang with Jake for a while!" I didn't wait for an answer before I ran out the door.

Jacob was leaning against the car with the passenger side door open.

I smiled at him as I climbed in.

He drove at a speed that my truck would have broken down at.

"Um, where are we going, Jake?" I asked, suspiciously.

"Back to my place. I hope it's okay. We're going to go ride our bikes. I didn't want to say anything in front of Charlie," he retorted.

I smiled.

When we arrived at Jake's house, we walked to his garage.

I was stunned at what I saw.

"Oh my gosh! I can't believe you did this, Jake! Thank you so much!" I managed to squeak out.

"I knew you'd like the paint job. You don't mind metallic blue, right?" he asked, nervously.

"No, I love it! Oh, thank you, Jake, thank you!" I cried. I swear I saw him blush even though it was hard to tell against his tanned skin. Suddenly, I had the urge to hug him as tightly as I could, but I fought it back.

We stood in silence as we gazed into each others' eyes.

Jacob reached out and grabbed my arm gently.

I now had the urge to kiss him. What was with my urges?! I thought. Before, I could agree with this urge, Jake had his lips against mine. His lips were so warm and soft. I put one hand against his face, and the other against his neck. He put his warm hand on my back and the other on my shoulder. I was enjoying our kiss until I realised that we weren't supposed to be doing this.

I pushed him away. I hadn't realised but my eyes had produced tears during the kiss.

"Jake, I'm sorry. I'm so, so sorry. I'm still trying to get over Edward and I just-," I broke off into tears before I could finish. "I just needed some comfort. I took it too far. I'm really sorry," I sobbed.

"No, it's okay. I mean, I kissed you first. But, if you need comfort, I'm right here for you," he whispered as he opened his arms to hug me. I walked right into them. Jacob wiped the tears from my cheek with his warm finger tips.

I wished that I could freeze time to keep this moment perfect. I never wanted it to end.

But Jake pulled away too soon.

"Bella. I love you. No, I'm in love with you. I need to know if you feel the same way. Do you?" Jake pleaded.

I sighed. "I don't know, Jake. I honestly don't know. I think I'm in love with you. But I don't know if my feelings have changed for Edward. I think that I'm in love with him more than I'm in love with you. I'm so sorry, Jake. I really am. Please, forgive me," I pleaded in return.

Jake smiled his bright and childish smile that I absolutely adored.

"Well, then, I guess we should take things slowly. So, that neither of us end up being disappointed," he suggested.

I smiled and hugged him again.

"Let's get riding, then!" I exclaimed.