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Prologue

It has been three days. Three days since I last felt his touch, his warmth. Three days since I heard the sweet sound of his voice. Three days since we shared a kiss, a hug, a moment. Seth and my brother are out there fighting vampires while I have to sit by and pretend its okay. I've done the opposite in the past three days I have never felt so much hurt in my life and I'm not shy in showing it. All the other imprints tell me it's okay they'll come home, they don't know anything. It's called putting on a brave face. Something I have never done. Not a word has been heard from the boys, we don't know where they are or if they are hurt, nothing. Seth and Quil both made a promise to me three days ago, that they will come back. I can only hope for the best and hope it comes true.

I haven't left Emily's since Saturday and I don't plan on leaving until they come home. Basically all the imprints just sit and wait. I have never had patience.

"Courtney, why don't you try eating, sweetie" Emily said placing brownies on the table. Emily has cooked so much in the past three days, I can't believe it. I guess she's trying to keep her mind off things, while Rachel cleans and Kim and I sit together in silence. With the entire pain and heart ache I am feeling eating is most definitely the last thing on my mind.

"I'm not hungry" It probably sounded rude, but I just didn't care, not right now.

Seth and I have been to together for six months and 4 days. The day before he left was our anniversary it was a day that will never leave my crowded mind. We spent the day together alone without any interruptions, it was peaceful and a pure bliss. To make the night even more magical we made love for the first, both of us, our very first time. But the morning after instead of sleeping in together, I was awaken early and told that an army of vampires had just entered Forks and with that he was gone. I begged and pleaded for him to stay with me, but he walked out the door and didn't turn back to comfort me.

"Courtney, its okay" Emily rubbed my back, I hadn't realised but I was crying again, a thing that I have done many, many times in the past three days. I was the youngest and I would have to be the weakest, all the other imprints knew what it was like to be away from their true love. But this was my first time away from Seth and my brother Quil. The two men I care for the most apart from my Dad. At times like this I wish I had my parents in arms reach, so I hug them and forget about all the hurt and hate in my life, the fights with my Aunty in getting custody of me, since I'm under the age of 18 years or the rumours going at school about how I'm a slut that's why I hang around with all the boys. It's just not what I need right now. I need Seth and Quil home, with me.

"It's just getting worst, the hole in my chest is growing bigger the longer I'm away from him" I sobbed putting my face in my hands. Seth knew how to make me laugh and smile, he knew how to keep the nightmares away he was my rock, my safe house.

"Courtney, we are all going through the same thing, its okay" Emily said taking a seat next to me. 'Its okay' I can't believe how simple it is to piss me off with those two words. Basically Emily wants me to shut up and stop crying, yet I can't help it. It's not okay and won't be until I can be in arms reach of those boys. We aren't all going through the same thing, they only have their imprints out there, and I have my brother, my last relative that I care about. Aunty Margret is a bitch, who needs to learn to deal with her own life before mine. Ever since my father passed away, she is edging in towards us. She believes I'm in an unsafe environment; I'm probably in the safest place around.

"We aren't going through the same thing; my brother is also out there my last blood relation and no it's not okay and it won't be until those boys are back safe and happy!" I yelled hot tears streaming down my face. Emily eyes were wide; I had taken her by surprise. I didn't really mean to yell but I had all these feelings bubbling up inside of me, I guess I let them out on Emily. I didn't really feel any better but I knew that I had clear the bubbled feelings.

"Sorry, to interrupt ladies" I turned my head and saw Brady. I looked to all of the other girls, their eyes wide in shock. Were they coming home? Brady frowned.

"They aren't coming home, they wanted me to come and tell you that all is good so far. The vampire's army has decreased by hundreds and they have started to move back. They wanted me to also tell you that they all love you and can't wait to see you girls again" Brady told us. I didn't know what to say, no one did. They were okay, they were wining. Even though they aren't back in my arms, this is good enough for now.

"I have to go, be safe" Brady turned and started to leave. I grabbed my jacket and followed him.

"I'll follow you out" I said as we walked out. Brady was worn out; you could tell by the bags that were under his eyes. His hair had grown longer and he had stubble forming. He looked like had aged ten years or so.

"You're not coping I can tell. I heard you snap at Emily that's something I didn't think you would do to her after everything she has done for you" Brady said standing in front of me. He was right I wasn't coping.

"Of course I'm not coping, Brady. This is the longest I had been away from Seth. My brother and the love of my life are out there risking their lives while I have to fucking sit back and wait. Wait for good news or bad news I don't know!" I broke down in front of him. He wrapped his arms around me and yet me cry. Cry for all of the pain and hurt I'm feeling right now, for the problems that surround me at the moment. I moved from his embrace, I wipe my eyes on my sleeve.

"Be safe, Courtney" Brady said as he turned and ran into the woods. I slowly made be way back to Emily's not really wanting to go inside. I did feel bad for snapping at Emily, I truly did.

"I'm going to go home and sleep" I announced from the front door. They all turned and looked at me.

"Okay, call us if you need anything" Emily simply replied. I grabbed my bag and walked home. Making sure not to go anywhere near the woods, just in case.

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