Adrianna and Gia
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Author: Itinerant Poet
Title: Careful Distance (1/?)
Blurb: a delicate dance around the school as the two girls try and sort out their feelings
Rating:
Gia
She couldn't remember the last time that seeing the dark haired girl hadn't made her stomach flip and her face turn the colour of her own hair. She was meant to be the confident one, the one who didn't hide who she was for anyone. But right now, all she really wanted to do was wrap her royal blue cardigan around her body and lose herself in a daydream. And this was definitely not something that she did.
Instead, she decided to curl up on a wall in the courtyard and lose herself in her writing, this at least had no connections to the dark haired girl who only days ago had been her sidekick, the addition to all of the good moments that the last few weeks had offered her. That all changed when she'd got so sick of hearing his name that she blew it. Ruined everything, and lost her best friend. Feelings were just too complicated she decided; just too much hassle.
After an hour of solid writing she'd managed to calm her heartbeat down to a slow rhythmic pattern and she felt confident that her knees wouldn't just give in upon first contact with the floor. 'This', she thought, 'was definite progress.' Moving from her hideout she merged into the crowd destined for her next class. Subconsciously she sought out the deep brown eyes of her friend, however damaged their friendship was right now, those eyes would calm her down, and if she got close enough, maybe she could even ask that they forget the events of last week completely.
Adjusting her satchel so if didn't threaten to slip off her shoulder she looked up, and at this point her heart almost stopped, then began to beat dramatically fast. 'Ade.' She thought. Their eyes met and at that moment she poured every emotion she had been feeling for the passed few days into that one look. Trying to portray how sorry she was, and how much she missed her friend.
Adrianna
In the only second that she had torn her eyes away from the intricate tiling pattern on the corridor floor she found the one pair of eyes that she'd been avoiding. Framed by the burst of red hair she couldn't help but admire the porcelain skin and sparkling eyes of her friend. That was where the problem started. She was her friend. And she was a she.
She wasn't sure quite how long she had been starring at her, it was like a magnet, connecting their eyes across the hallway, it had felt like a lifetime but she knew from the hustle and bustle around her that it can't have been long. She could feel her heartbeat begin to dance in her chest and she knew that if she let herself stay there for any longer her heart might just combust and she would turn into this charred pile of ash on the floor. 'How does someone do this to me?' She thought.
As if pulling the heaviest weight in the entire world she managed to pull her eyes away, losing the full force of the magnet she was able to turn away and blend into the crowds that jostled and bustled around her. She allowed herself one last glance behind and saw the hurt dance across Gia's eyes. A hollow empty pain joined the thudding of her heartbeat as she saw the pain in her eyes, she wanted to reach out and make things better, but her feet carried her away, into the second left stall of the girl's bathroom where she tucked her feet up under herself and rested her chin on her hands. This was not going to be easy. Surely if she just walked the other way for a while they could both forget and she could just have her friend back.
'God I could do with a drink' She thought to herself.
"This is so not happening" She said out loud, hoping that by voicing it, the past few days thoughts and feelings would suddenly become a distant dream.
"Ade, that you?" Silver asked, she'd jumped a little as she'd heard her friend's voice coming out of the stall. The bathroom had seemed deserted as she'd snuck inside to catch her breath. She couldn't decide if she was stalking, or avoiding Teddy and she needed a little bit of space to gather her self.
"I could have sworn this place was empty" Silver continued, straightening her dress a little as she gained her composure, she was still a little unsure about just how much she should share with her friend, so instead she walked over to the stall door and gently knocked.
"Hey Silver, Hiding out too then?" Ade laughed nervously, even through the door she could feel Silver's eyes burning her skin, friendly concern, but still not a conversation she was ready to have.
"Yeah, just a little bit too much boy out there for me today" She laughed, realising just quite how strange that sounded.
Ade laughed, properly, for the first time in a few days.
"You never change do you Sil, always about the boy".
Silver curtsied, "I like to be the one solid in this ever changing world we live in, and look, I am definitely not as bad as Naomi, she's like a dog on heat, constantly!"
They both laughed, and Ade let the stall door swing gently open so she could see Silver, and she could see her, curled up on the toilet lid.
"Can I not tell you just yet, can I just sort my head out first Sil?" Ade quietly asked after the laughter has subsided.
"Of course, are you ok though, you can answer that one…?" Silvers face creased in concern for her friend.
Ade pulled her left leg closer into herself, wrapping her body into a tight little ball before looking up at her friend, her eyes glistening with possible tears and her arms tensed as they tried to curl up tighter.
"In the grand scheme of things, yeah, I'm fine, no drink, no drugs, just a lot going on, in here" Ade explained as she gently tapped her forehead.
Gia
As she saw Adrianna turn and walk in the opposite direction, she felt her whole body sink, her heart felt like it had suddenly decamped to her pelvis and the rest of her body felt hollow, though strangely heavy and leaden. Using her right arm to hold herself up against the lockers she took a few deep breathes and tried to let the focus return, she did after all have a class to get to.
The hour of English, usually such a high point in her day, passed with no notable events, the notes from the session had made it onto the page of her notebook, but she wasn't even sure what she'd written.
She shut her notebook and quickly shoved it into her satchel, carelessly letting the pens follow without their lids, she wanted to go and hide in the Blaze office, Ade couldn't follow her there, and there were enough distractions to keep her mind busy for the rest of the afternoon.
Once happily ensconced in the Blaze office, she drafted a sms message to Adrianna, writing, and re-writing the same sentence over and over until she took a big breath and just hit 'send'.
If I told you I take back everything, will you not turn and walk away next time… G x
Adrianna
It took her a few moments to find her phone in amongst her make up and books, she knew it wouldn't be important so she just aimlessly rummaged as the contents of her bag spilled out onto her lap and the couch. She'd found herself a small corner of the school to do some quiet work (and contemplation) so she knew the message was probably just Silver checking up on her.
Flicking open her phone she read the message Gia had sent, after reading it a number of times, her heart felt like it was being pulled in countless direction, and she found she couldn't quite breathe. 'Does this mean that she didn't mean it, can she really just take it back like that?' A thousand questioned blasted through her mind, each one more complicated to answer than the one before.
I miss you… A x
That was all she could manage to type before the tears and fear that had been threatening to engulf her, caught up with her and she was left, curled into the corner of the couch, letting each lonesome tear drip drop down her face.
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