Too Late
Fic by - Kamiya Mountain
Disclaimer: Ok, I don't own Digimon *pouts*, or Matt *pouts
more*, or Tai, or taito, or anything else. :P So yeah, if you actually do decide to sue me, you won't get anything, considering I don't have anything other people would consider valuable Yeah, so don't sue me.
A/N: Hi! This is my first fic...thing...yeah ^_^ It's Taito (Tai x Matt)...so that means YAOI/SHOUNEN-AI/MALExMALE RELATIONSHIPS (lol...I like being stupid people friendly)Anywho...they're both 14 (Tai 'n Matt that is) so it's between 01 'n 02. R 'n R! I know it's ungood, I just want people to tell me! ^_^ BTW, it's really short, but it gets the point accross. Ooh! I forgot to mention! It's all depressive! Yay!
When I first met you, I didn't think much of the fact that my first thought when I saw you was 'Hot'. After all, it was normal to like someone of your own gender once in your life. Kind of like a phase. Only phases passed. Normally, more quickly than 3 years. In the beginning I tried to convince myself that it was just the stress of saving two worlds that was getting to me. But that wasn't true, and I knew it.
Ever since that time when they were trapped in Freeze Land together I could barely get my mind off you! The only problem was, I wasn't gay. Or so I had repeated to myself over and over probably a total of 500 times in the past 3 years. But I knew the truth. I was.
How are you supposed to tell your closest friend in the world, the one you tell everything, that you love them? That you have loved them for the past 3 years and denied it to yourself? Why did I have to love you anyway?
I knew the answer to that one. For my whole ilfe I had been the strong one. The one who never let anyone know what I was feeling. I had sworn not to let anyone see me cry, even though all I wanted to do was cry. (A/N: I'm a Yama fan! I couldn't not put Crest of Friendship quotes in this!) I couldn't remember trusting anyone nearly enough to be myself around them. Except you. I felt I didn't have to hide anything from you, you were the only person to ever see the true me deep inside.
And I wanted you to. I needed someone to comfort me too, tell me it was going to be okay. But how could they if they thought I was some insensitive jerk. I knew that most of the planet saw me as that, and that was fine. They could believe what they wanted to. I didn't want them to care. I wanted you to.
I couldn't tell you though. You'd think I was a freak, never speak to me again. I didn't think I could handle that. So I kept it bottled up inside, slowly eating away at me day after day. There were a few times when I almost told you. But I wanted so badly to at least be your friend, I couldn't muster up enough courage to. I wouldn't be able to stand being hated by the one I loved.
I couldn't live like that anymore, Tai. I know you'll be disgusted that you actually hung out with me, I just wanted you to know. You'll forget all about me, I know, but at least now you're aware.
Love,
Yamato
As Taichi read the letter he let the tears flow freely. He looked over at his best friends limp body,deep cuts accross his wrists and let out a strangled cry. Curling up in the bed next to Matt, where he'd found him, he drew him close, not caring about the blood. Through sobs, he managed to choke out, "I loved you too."
The End
A/N: Well, how was it? I finished it on Christmas...lol...very seasonal, ain't it? All happy and joyful! Hm...I thought it was pretty good actually (*gasp* I didn't put myself down!) Oh yeah, I'll fill up the plot hole: Matt invited Tai over to his house and when Tai got there the door was open. He went in, found Matt 'n the letter and...yeah. I just couldn't find anywhere to fit that in. So R & R evry1!
Fic by - Kamiya Mountain
Disclaimer: Ok, I don't own Digimon *pouts*, or Matt *pouts
more*, or Tai, or taito, or anything else. :P So yeah, if you actually do decide to sue me, you won't get anything, considering I don't have anything other people would consider valuable Yeah, so don't sue me.
A/N: Hi! This is my first fic...thing...yeah ^_^ It's Taito (Tai x Matt)...so that means YAOI/SHOUNEN-AI/MALExMALE RELATIONSHIPS (lol...I like being stupid people friendly)Anywho...they're both 14 (Tai 'n Matt that is) so it's between 01 'n 02. R 'n R! I know it's ungood, I just want people to tell me! ^_^ BTW, it's really short, but it gets the point accross. Ooh! I forgot to mention! It's all depressive! Yay!
When I first met you, I didn't think much of the fact that my first thought when I saw you was 'Hot'. After all, it was normal to like someone of your own gender once in your life. Kind of like a phase. Only phases passed. Normally, more quickly than 3 years. In the beginning I tried to convince myself that it was just the stress of saving two worlds that was getting to me. But that wasn't true, and I knew it.
Ever since that time when they were trapped in Freeze Land together I could barely get my mind off you! The only problem was, I wasn't gay. Or so I had repeated to myself over and over probably a total of 500 times in the past 3 years. But I knew the truth. I was.
How are you supposed to tell your closest friend in the world, the one you tell everything, that you love them? That you have loved them for the past 3 years and denied it to yourself? Why did I have to love you anyway?
I knew the answer to that one. For my whole ilfe I had been the strong one. The one who never let anyone know what I was feeling. I had sworn not to let anyone see me cry, even though all I wanted to do was cry. (A/N: I'm a Yama fan! I couldn't not put Crest of Friendship quotes in this!) I couldn't remember trusting anyone nearly enough to be myself around them. Except you. I felt I didn't have to hide anything from you, you were the only person to ever see the true me deep inside.
And I wanted you to. I needed someone to comfort me too, tell me it was going to be okay. But how could they if they thought I was some insensitive jerk. I knew that most of the planet saw me as that, and that was fine. They could believe what they wanted to. I didn't want them to care. I wanted you to.
I couldn't tell you though. You'd think I was a freak, never speak to me again. I didn't think I could handle that. So I kept it bottled up inside, slowly eating away at me day after day. There were a few times when I almost told you. But I wanted so badly to at least be your friend, I couldn't muster up enough courage to. I wouldn't be able to stand being hated by the one I loved.
I couldn't live like that anymore, Tai. I know you'll be disgusted that you actually hung out with me, I just wanted you to know. You'll forget all about me, I know, but at least now you're aware.
Love,
Yamato
As Taichi read the letter he let the tears flow freely. He looked over at his best friends limp body,deep cuts accross his wrists and let out a strangled cry. Curling up in the bed next to Matt, where he'd found him, he drew him close, not caring about the blood. Through sobs, he managed to choke out, "I loved you too."
The End
A/N: Well, how was it? I finished it on Christmas...lol...very seasonal, ain't it? All happy and joyful! Hm...I thought it was pretty good actually (*gasp* I didn't put myself down!) Oh yeah, I'll fill up the plot hole: Matt invited Tai over to his house and when Tai got there the door was open. He went in, found Matt 'n the letter and...yeah. I just couldn't find anywhere to fit that in. So R & R evry1!