As Long As You're Mine.
Bangel. Disclaimer below.
Kiss me too fiercely hold me too tight, I need help believing you're with me tonight.
This can't be real. I must be dreaming, this is my dream.
He's here and alive, and mine. I've dreamed of that for so long, I can't believe it's really happening. If this is a dream I don't want to wake up, I never want to leave this. It's better than heaven.
This isn't really happening. He just knocked on my door and when I answered he kissed me. He pulled me toward him and kissed me. I've missed this more than…well, I don't know. But I dream of him doing this every night. Of him just coming here and kissing me, of him being human and coming to take me home. Forever.
I really don't want this to be a dream. I don't know what I would do if I wake up and he's not here. I don't want to have live without him again. I don't know if I can.
These dreams I have are what keep me going. They are my salvation and my curse. For they let me be with him, but at the same time I know I'm going to wake and he won't stay. He'll be in LA with his ridiculous idea and plan, and I'll be here trying to replace him, again.
But if this is real, then he's here, and I'm in his arms again. It feels real; I feel safe and…home. He's my home I feel as if I've just walked in the front door after years away. I feel content, and I want it to last forever.
Say there's no future for us as a pair…and though I may know I don't care…
I will hold onto this for as long as I can, and I will keep dreaming of him for my whole life. However long that my be.
I've told him so many times that I don't care if we can't be forever. In my mind and in my heart, we can and we are. No one can change that, and nothing ever will. I will always be his girl, through all the others I see and use, I will never be truly there's.
It may take lifetimes but somehow we will be together. I've died twice and come back, to him. Even if he doesn't know that, it will always be true. I will do all in my power to come back to him every time.
The Powers can try and pull us apart, but they can't stop me from going back to him. I don't care how long I have to wait, or how much I have to do, I will be with him again. Somehow I will get him back, he will have to see it sometime.
We were born for each other. And I will hold onto that fact till the day he is mine again, even if that day is all we get.
Till then these dreams will have to be enough.
And if it turns out it's over to fast, I'll make ev'ry last moment last.
As long as you're mine…
The song used is "As Long As You're Mine" in the musical Wicked, the music was written by Stephen Schwartz. Joss owns Buffy and Angel. I own neither, but wish I could, then I could go see Wicked as many times as I wanted! I highly suggest that you all try to see it or at least get the CD. Beautiful music! Bye, Kat