Title: Lost in the haze
Author: Miss Gypsy Willow
Summary: 'He loves her company, she's so quirky and passionate and a little bit crazy and it's never boring with her around.' Blaine and Rachels future relationship in snippets.
Characters: Blaine, Rachel, Kurt, mentions of Finn and one mention of Quinn
Pairings: Blaine/Rachel, illusions of Rachel/Finn and mentions of Blaine/Kurt
Rating: M
Word count: 2,160
Timeline: Future!fic set about 5-8 years in the future.
Warnings/Spoilers: Scenes of a sexual nature, coarse language, mentions of slash and spoilers for 2x14
Disclaimer: I own nothing but the plot of this story.
Author's note: So I've been itching to get in to the Glee fandom for a while now and what better way to start than writing some Raine fic? I adore this ship so much and although on the show it's practically dead now, it can still live on in fandom. I love writing in this style and I think it works for them quite well. And although I adored Blame it on the alcohol, I thought the bi storyline was way too rushed and didn't actually seem convincingly resolved in the end, not that I like or believe in labels anyway so this fic is just about setting things straight in my head but with a twist. Oh and beware of the angst, I swear this started off a lot lighter but by the end became pretty angsty and bitter sweet in a way. Anyway I hope you enjoy and feedback is love.
They form a good friendship over the years and stay friends even after they both leave Ohio to go off to collage in different places and then become even closer after they move to the same city. There's something about each other that just draws them in, some natural form of chemistry that binds them. (They both learnt in the end that it wasn't such a good thing).
They become each others drinking partners. When they need to go out-or stay in, whichever-and blow off some steam it's Rachel that Blaine calls and vice versa. He loves her company, she's so quirky and passionate and a little bit crazy and it's never boring with her around. Ideal drinking partner. Ideal friend. (Ideal lover).
When they go out they hit karaoke bars and sing cheesy eighties numbers that relives the memory of their first duet together back in high school and either makes their audience groan or cheer. They get tipsy but never drunk when they go out because neither of them fancies ending up in a ditch somewhere. When they go to Rachel's apartment- never his seeing as how him and Kurt live together- they get really drunk, totally let go and just get lost in the haze. They also dance a lot and both their drunk dancing is not the best in the world but no one but them is there to see so it dosn't even matter. (Sometimes when they'd dance together and he'd dip her, the air would seem to get heavier around them.)
There's something about them and alcohol that makes them get weirdly hormonal, in the most lustful of ways. And it dosn't seem to matter any more that she's with Finn and he's with Kurt and most importantly that he's gay-or at least that's what he tells himself. The buzz takes them over and it feels so, so good to be inside her and hear those breathy, musical moans he likes to think only he can coax out of her and at the same time it's so deliciously wrong, but he can never find it in himself to regret it afterwards. He can't stop coming back for more. And that's the worst thing of all. (Rachel Berry was his addiction and those are hard to give up).
At least Rachel has an excuse of sorts. Her relationship with Finn is barely even there any more but neither of them can bring themselves to call it quits, desperate to hold on to that illusion of love, so they both screw around. Rachel's told Blaine that she knows Finn cheats on her with an endless list of girls and even a few guys which isn't really all too surprising and she tells him she just has to turn a blind eye because really she's practically doing the same thing and it'd be hypocritical of her to call him out on it. (He never told her once to break up with Finn because the man wasn't good enough for her. He wished he had though). Blaine on the other hand dosn't have any excuse. Because he loves Kurt, he really does and Kurt loves him and all is right in the world when they're together and all that but... he thinks he may be starting to love Rachel too, that thought he's had even before they're drinking sessions turned in to fucking ones. He dosn't think the confusion he's going through-again-is a good excuse at all. (Sometimes he'd wish he'd never met her and then the idea would unsettle him so much that he'd call her right away just to hear her voice).
He remembers the one date they went on all those years ago to see Love Story at the revival theatre, it was lovely, Rachel looked beautiful-as she always did-and they had fun like he'd began to think he'd never have again, it was refreshing...but it wasn't really that romantic. (He'd never been good with romance and he didn't know about her but she didn't seem to be any good at it either whilst around him. It was their one of many flaws).
It's whilst he's got her bent over her kitchen table in the middle of the afternoon, pounding in to her that someone knocks on her apartment door. She silences her loud moans immediately and he stills inside of her, both their breathing increasing even more at the new threat of being found out. Blaine wants to mutter harshly, "Ignore them." and keep going because he's so close but the more cautious side of him is screaming at him that it would be a very bad idea because, after all the walls in Rachel's building and doors for that matter aren't exactly thick or soundproof. The cautious side wins out because he's not really drunk at the moment, more buzzed.
"Rachel I know you're in there." None other than his boyfriends voice drifts through the wood of the door. His eyes and no doubt Rachel's go wide.
"Shit, shit, shit." He hisses under his breath in a panic as he separates himself from the brunette and starts pulling his clothes on at the fastest pace ever, even faster than the time it took Rachel to get them off him... He shakes his head to clear it of thoughts about what had been going on just moments ago. Rachel mean while has hurriedly been getting dressed too and an unwanted thought for the moment wanders in to his head about just how appealing she looks flushed and panicked. Her brown eyes seem impossibly wide and her hair is an utter mess and her skin is glistening slightly with sweat and colored pink and dear god, he made her look such a mess and it's ridiculously hot... and he's staring at her whilst he should be figuring a way to escape getting caught cheating by his boyfriend. Crap. "Your creepy stalker neighbor from across the hall told me you haven't left the apartment in three hours. Actually now that I think about it, you may want to move. That guy should not be able to just observe you like that, it's beyond creepy." Kurt continues to babble on through the door as both he and Rachel frantically glance around for an idea of what to do. "Okay what gives Rach? Answer your door damn it before I break it down- or get stalker guy to break it down for me. He looked pretty tough." Blaine can tell Kurt's losing patience now and they really need to come up with a plan, right away.
"Quick, go hide under my bed! We don't have time for anything else." Rachel suddenly whispers before pushing him down the tiny hall to her bedroom forcefully.
"God, I feel like such a teenager again." He grumbles quietly as he shoots her once last glance.
"Well suck it up tough guy. We don't have another option." She hisses back before whirling around and darting for the door. He gets under her bed pretty quickly after that because she's right, it is their only option if they want to keep all this lies and cheating a dirty little secret between them. He can hear Rachel and Kurt's conversation from him position under her bed.
"Finally. What took you so- Oh. Did I interrupt something?" Blaine holds his breath and curses his boyfriends freaky intuition and sight for that matter as he realizes that Rachel hasn't exactly had time to sort her hair out.
"Um." Comes Rachel's reply.
"Oh Finn was here! Makes sense, the stalker guy did say a brunette man came in here with you." Kurt exclaims and Blaine lets out a silent breath of relief as he's sure Rachel does as well.
"Yes! Finn! He was here and we... and now he's gone... to work." Rachel babbles nervously. Thankfully it dosn't seem that Kurt picks up on the level of nervousness.
"To work? But how did he leave?" Kurt retorted with confusion heavy in his voice. Damn it.
"Well he climbed down the fire escape obviously. He was in a hurry." Rachel replies and Blaine wonders if she's been taking Quinn Fabray lessons on lying and hopes to god she hasn't. He's heard the stories of that girls lies and they never worked out well. But then again lying full stop never tends to work out well. "Now why exactly are you here? Not to be rude or anything." Rachel pushes on in a smart move of distraction. Maybe they have a chance yet. (But maybe it was just the beginning of the end.)
"I can't do this anymore Blaine." Her words come out loud and harsh sounding in the silence. "Kurt's my friend and he loves you and you love him and I really don't want to be responsible for breaking his heart." She continues and he sighs heavily. She dosn't bring Finn in to all of this. They're sitting on a park bench, both completely sober for once. The chilling autumn air stings his exposed skin. It's only been about a week since they almost got found out and obviously it has been a wake up call to Rachel. He wishes it hasn't though because the thought of losing her is just as bad as the thought of losing Kurt.
"I love you." He says quietly and with the silence that follows he wonders if she even heard him at all.
"No you don't." She speaks just as quietly and she has such a harsh edge to her words that it actually hurts him. He turns to look at her, hold her in his gaze. She looks so sad and so tired and it's all his fault really. "We're only even ever attracted to each other when we've consumed alcohol anyway. It wasn't ever going to work out and now it's over so it's best we just go our separate ways and-" He cuts her off, placing his hands on either side of her face.
"Are we sober now?" He asks, his heart cracking from her words. She looks up at him with wide eyes and nods slowly. He brings their lips together and it's exactly like all those times they've kissed whilst under the influence, just like he thought it would be, just like it was all those years ago in the coffee shop where he had been too afraid to admit it afterwards.
"Don't make this harder than it already is." She murmurs against his lips before drawing sharply away from him. He watches as she gets to her feet and flees the park without a backwards glance. (He didn't expect the end to come so soon.)
Him and Kurt don't work out in the end. He's both shocked and heartbroken over this and often wonders where it all went wrong and often comes to the conclusion that it stems from his affair with Rachel. Not that Kurt ever finds out about that. She had left town shortly after she'd broken things off with him and without her he feels himself falling in to a downward spiral. He starts depending on the alcohol more than what's probably healthy but it doesn't seem to matter under the circumstances. Kurt tries to help him all to no avail and in the end he gives up, gives up on him, gives up on their relationship. Blaine doesn't blame him really, everyone leaves him. But it's enough to give him his own wake up call at least. He cuts down on the drinking straight away. After all he isn't an alcoholic or anything, just indulges in drinking too much. But he's still lost everyone he loves and in the first time in a long time he misses his family. He travels back to Ohio and it's so strange to be back in his childhood home after all these years being apart from it. He spends all his time with his family, catching up and rekindling bonds and it's so easy and refreshing. Then one day when out picking up some groceries for his mother he catches sight of an all too familiar petite brunette across the street. She catches sight of him too and hesitates for only a moment before she smiles. (It was the beginning of a new chapter for them.)
The end.
It would be just lovely if you could hit the review button and tell me what you thought. I am toying with the idea of adding another chapter to this showing Rachel's side of things but it all depends on if anyone would be interested in seeing that.