PACK CHOICE
Chapter 1
Its been 6 months since E-E- he left me in the woods.
Flashback . . .
"Bella, we're leaving." I took a deep breath, too. This was an acceptable option. I thought I was prepared. But I still "Why now? Another year " "Bella, it's time. How much longer could we stay in Forks, after all? Carlisle can barely pass His answer confused me. I thought the point of leaving was to let his family live in peace. He stared back coldly
had to ask.
for thirty, and he's claiming thirty-three now. We'd have to start over soon regardless."
Why did we have to leave if they were going? I stared at him, trying to understand what he
meant.
With a roll of nausea, I realized I'd misunderstood. "When you say we ," I whispered. "I mean my family and myself." Each word separate and distinct. I shook my head back and forth mechanically, trying to clear it. He waited without any sign "Okay," I said. "I'll come with you." "You can't, Bella. Where we're going... It's not the right place for you." "Where you are is the right place for me." "I'm no good for you, Bella."
of impatience. It took a few minutes before I could speak.
"Don't be ridiculous." I wanted to sound angry, but it just sounded like I was begging. "My world is not for you," he said grimly. "What happened with Jasper that was nothing, Edward! Nothing!" "You're right," he agreed. "It was exactly what was to be expected." "You promised! In Phoenix, you promised that you would stay " "As long as that was best for you," he interrupted to correct me. "No! This is about my soul, isn't it?" I shouted, furious, the words exploding out of
"You're the very best part of my life."
me somehow it still sounded like a plea. "Carlisle told me about that, and I don't care,
Edward. I don't care! You can have my soul. I don't want it without you it's yours already!"
He took a deep breath and stared, unseeingly, at the ground for a long moment. His mouth "Bella, I don't want you to come with me." He spoke the words slowly and precisely, his cold There was a pause as I repeated the words in my head a few times, sifting through them for "You... don't... want me?" I tried out the words, confused by the way they sounded, placed "No."
twisted the tiniest bit. When he finally looked up, his eyes were different, harder like the
liquid gold had frozen solid.
eyes on my face, watching as I absorbed what he was really saying.
their real intent.
in that order.
I stared, uncomprehending, into his eyes. He stared back without apology. His eyes were like
topaz hard and clear and very deep. I felt like I could see into them for miles and miles, yet
nowhere in their bottomless depths could I see a contradiction to the word he'd spoken
"Well, that changes things." I was surprised by how calm and reasonable my voice sounded. He looked away into the trees as he spoke again. "Of course, I'll always love you... in a way. "Don't." My voice was just a whisper now; awareness was beginning to seep through me, He just stared at me, and I could see from his eyes that my words were far too late. He "You're not good for me, Bella." He turned his earlier words around, and so I had no I opened my mouth to say something, and then closed it again. He waited patiently, his face "If... that's what you want." He nodded once. My whole body went numb. I couldn't feel anything below the neck. "I would like to ask one favor, though, if that's not too much," he said. I wonder what he saw on my face, because something flickered across his own face in
It must be because I was so numb. I couldn't realize what he was telling me. It still didn't
make any sense.
But what happened the other night made me realize that it's time for a change. Because
I'm... tired of pretending to be something I'm not, Bella. I am not human." He looked back,
and the icy planes of his perfect face were not human. "I've let this go on much too long, and
I'm sorry for that."
trickling like acid through my veins. "Don't do this."
already had.
argument. How well I knew that I wasn't good enough for him.
wiped clean of all emotion. I tried again.
response. But, before I could identify it, he'd composed his features into the same serene
mask.
"Anything," I vowed, my voice faintly stronger. As I watched, his frozen eyes melted. The gold became liquid again, molten, burning down "Don't do anything reckless or stupid," he ordered, no longer detached. "Do you understand I nodded helplessly.
into mine with an intensity that was overwhelming.
what I'm saying?"
His eyes cooled, the distance returned. "I'm thinking of Charlie, of course. He needs you. I nodded again. "I will," I whispered. He seemed to relax just a little.
Take care of yourself for him."
"And I'll make you a promise in return," he said. "I promise that this will be the last time My knees must have started to shake, because the trees were suddenly wobbling. I could hear He smiled gently. "Don't worry. You're human your memory is no more than a sieve. Time "And your memories?" I asked. It sounded like there was something stuck in my throat, like I "Well" he hesitated for a short second "I won't forget. But my kind... we're very easily He took a step away from me. "That's everything, I suppose. We won't bother you again."
you'll see me. I won't come back. I won't put you through anything like this again. You can
go on with your life without any more interference from me. It will be as if I'd never existed."
the blood pounding faster than normal behind my ears. His voice sounded farther away.
heals all wounds for your kind."
was choking.
distracted." He smiled; the smile was tranquil and it did not touch his eyes.
End of Flashback . . .
I was as Jake and the Pack put in a 'Zombie' mode but slowly Jake made me better the whole in my chest didnt feel so painful it wouldnt disappear completely but it was less noticeable.
Two weeks after Jake phased and some help I figured out what they was not happy about that and he confirmed my suspitions by phasing into a horse sized silver wolf infront of me when I had a go at Sam for changing him not realizing that he wasnt the blame Paul laughed when I said He wont tell me because hes scared of made me angry and I slapped him that pissed him of and he phased.
So ever since then I hang out with the is still my best friend,Embry is still that funny kid and is my friend unlike Paul who still dosnt like me and is ok around me cause of Sam and Jake, then theres Sam and Jared its weird we're friends but I feel this bond between us I havent mentioned it before but i'm positive they feel it says its like we balance each other the human side of them that is.
So here I am running the the crowed in Volturre, Italy hoping to stop him from exposing himself to humans wich shall lead him to be killed.
Oh God its 12 o'clock where is he?There he his."Edward!"I shout but he doesnt hear me.He takes his top off.I start to run towards.I got to him."Edward you dont have to kill yourself because you thought i was."I told him, before he could answer I turned around and started walking off.I didnt know what I was doing but I knew I didnt love Edward the same way I once I have to find some way of getting back home.
I exited the city and started walking along the side of the road to the next city where the Airport fall came and I found an old shed I got in there to sleep for the I got comfortable I started to think about the was going to kill himself because he thoughgt I was didnt care about me so why would he do that?I realised that the more I thought about it the more angrier I got, after a while I beacame so angry that I started to shake.
"Ahh!"An excruciating pain came through my whole body and heat came up my spine then it was gone.I sighed in reliefe but it sounded more like a animal huff.I looked down and where my hand are meant to be I saw paws!I mean freaking PAWS! I let out a whine of shock out started to freak out.
How could I be a werewolf I mean i'm not even I calmed down I remebered what Jake said to how they changed back you have to calm down clear your head and think of being human.I started to feel the heat again in my thing you know im lying on the floor naked.I look around for anything to wrap around me, I found some clothes hanging on the wall there clean so I put the on.I decided that when i get home I'll go to Sam and ask my dad if i have any Queluite blood in I went into a dreamless sleep for the first time in a long time.
I woke up the next morning cleaned myself up as best as I could, and started walking again.A car was coming so I stuck my thumb out and he stopped ."Hey excuse me but I dont suppose you could take me to the Airport if your heading that way, please?" I asked him."Um, dont you have the person that brought you here?"He asked me." you dont want to I can get someone else too."I answered but before I could turn around he said"Why don't you get in and ill take you hmm." I smiled at him as a thankyou.
Once we got to the Airport I thanked him and as I was getting out he handed me some money."Here take this it should get you home dont worry money is'nt a problem for me."He said.I got back in and hugged him saying."Thankyou so much".
Once I got in the Airport I got a flight to Seattle and still had enough money for a taxi to Forks to phone Dad and get something to eat.I phoned dad telling him I was fine and that I should be home tomorrow and that I was to a toilet and got cleaned as I finished buying something to eat and drink I had to board the Airplane.