Summary; NHL hockey player Edward Masen met Bella Swan when she was seventeen years old and they instantly fell in love. But when things get too complicated for him he bails, little does he know she finds out she's pregnant. But that doesn't change anything for Edward who wants to focus on his career, wait did I mention that he doesn't know a thing?

Isabella Swan

January 12th 2006

I didn't know what to think about this anymore, when he broke up with me I honestly thought that he was kidding around, that he was lying to me when he told me that he didn't love me anymore, but he wasn't. I went a month without seeing him before things started to go a little crazy and started changing, and another two weeks after that, when I found out that I was two and a half months pregnant with his kid.

That's what brought me to today, as I sat in my living room, well Alice's living room since I had been living with her for the last year. Alice, Rose, Carlisle, and Esme were all sitting around me, they all knew about my baby, and we were trying to figure out what I was going to do. I sat on the floor with my legs to the side as my jeans got a little tight and my top showed my baby bump. "Maybe you should just tell him Bella, you never know he may understand." Esme said as I shrugged and looked out the window at the snow on the ground.

Winter in New Jersey was cold, but it was pretty, and it was even prettier when you crossed the bridge and went to Central Park and you took the time to walk around in the cold. "I don't know Esme, he broke my heart, he told me that he wanted nothing to do with me, and nothing to do with me mean's that he's going to want nothing to do with this kid." I said and they all looked at me.

"What about a letter Bella? I mean you can write him a letter, give it to him, and walk away let him decided what is going to happen." Rose suggested and I looked at her. "Bella, there really isn't anything that you can do anymore. If you don't tell Edward you might be missing out on something, this baby may or may not have a father, you have to do something."

I groaned and leaned my head against the couch as I felt my baby kick. I didn't know if this was a little boy or a little girl yet, and I didn't care, this baby was my everything and thought I was young I knew that I was going to be able to do this, I was going to be able to take care of my baby. "Just think about it Bella, you know that we will all be there no matter what happens, we're not going to abandon you."

I went up to my room after a snack and started thinking about Edward and what had happened between us. I turned the TV on to MSG and watched the hockey game, the devils were playing the penguins tonight, and seeing as Edward played for the penguins I could see him thought I hadn't in months. I had watched a couple of his games since we had broken up and he hadn't been playing the same since, he was more angry and got into more fights, more penalties, more game misconducts, but he was scoring more and I think he had focused everything on hockey.

I grabbed my notebook from next to the bed and started writing; it wasn't anything in general, until I started re-reading it and realized that it was a letter, a letter telling Edward about my pregnancy, and how much I missed him and everything else that I ever wanted in life. I knew this was the letter that I had to give to him, the letter that might change everything for my life and for this baby's.

I woke up early the next morning and went into the bathroom to start getting ready, I was going to take this letter to Edward and I was going to do it before anyone woke up. I dressed in a pair of stretchy skinny leg jeans and a black polka dot shirt that I hoped was slimming. I curled my hair and put some make-up on before I put a head band in my hair and grabbed my jacket, boots, and bag before I went down stairs and snuck out of the house. I made sure that the letter was in my bag and I pulled my shoes on before I started to the arena, and I hoped that he was there.

I arrived at the arena in Pittsburgh letter in the day seeing as it was a few hours drive from where I lived in New Jersey, but I did it. I was hoping to catch him at the end of his practice before he went to dinner but I wasn't sure what I was going to find. I walked into the entrance of the locker room and ran into Emmett who had always been one of my favorite guys. "Bella, what are you doing here?" he asked me not letting me go any farther from where I was standing.

"I have something for Edward; would I be able to see him real quick?" I asked him and he looked at me.

"He actually went home early, he wasn't feeling right after the game last night and traveling back today, so he went home early to his new apartment actually. But if you want I can give him what you have for him." He said looking down realizing my small rounded stomach. "Are you, um never mind but that thing I can give it to him." He said and I handed it over.

"Thanks Emmett, this means a lot to me, to us. Just please make sure he get's it." I said as I turned out the door and went back to my car, well New Jersey lets hope you bring me good news.

December 16th 2012

"Logan if you don't hurry your butt up you're going to be late for hockey practice, and if your late for hockey practice your late coming home and you won't see the face off of the game!" I called up the stairs to my five year old hockey obsessed son.

I was joined a minute later by my son with his hockey helmet on his head, his skates thrown over his shoulder a hockey stick in his hand and a missing hockey bag. "Where's your bag?" I asked and he looked at me.

"We left it in the car after practice last night, remember. Then I went skating this morning" he said and I nodded taking his stick and pointing to his shoes as I took his stick and his skates to the car before returning to see my son ready to go.

We arrived at the arena in Hoboken five minutes before practice was due to start and we ran into the arena and he then ran in the locker room as I told him I would be back at six thirty to pick him up and then we could get dinner and go back home to watch the Devils game. During Logan's practice Alice, Rose, and I agreed to meet for coffee to talk about out lives, and how horrible it was that we didn't get to see each other all the time. I arrived at the café in town before either of the girls and ordered our drinks and snacks. They got there just as I was sitting down and smiled as they saw that their warm drinks were waiting for them.

"Gods I hate winters in New Jersey" Alice complained for the millionth time since I've known her. I laughed and handed her the Chi tea and the double chocolate chip cookie I ordered her. "Thank you" she smiled as she plopped down in her chair.

"So how are you? You've been pretty busy lately with the shop and everything?" Rose asked me and I looked at her.

"Good, tired but good. Logan has hockey practice four nights a week and on top of that he has homework to do, I have a pastry shop to run, workers to schedule, bills to pay, it's crazy but I manage. What about you guys, I've only talked to each of you for a few minutes on the phone in the last couple days." I said

"Good, can't wait for June to come so I can graduate and get my freaking degree I'm getting so sick of living in dorm rooms." Rose said and I laughed.

"Well shops been going good we've been getting a lot of new costumers and I had someone from Manhattan come in yesterday, she heard about me through the grape vine and wanted to see my designs; she really liked them and she wants me to send in some samples. If everything goes well I might be able to start opening my shops in different cities, franchising everything you know." Alice said and that brought a whole new round of conversation.

"So Christmas is right around the corner, what does the little man either want or need?" Alice asked and I looked at them and groaned. I was so thankful for everything Alice and Rose had done for me over the years, they had helped me with Logan when he was a baby, they had bought things for him when I couldn't afford it, and Alice's parents were even helping me pay for my townhouse while I was paying off student loans and making money off of my restaurant.

"Okay, I'm only telling you this because there is no way I can get him this and this doesn't mean that you have to get him either of these things, but it's just what he wants. He clearly told me that he wants a Volchenkov jersey and if you can get it signed by him even better. Then there was the ticket to the Devils Penguins game." I said and they looked at me.

"Bella, are you sure about that game? I mean there are hundreds of other ones, but why that game? Are you even ready to face Edward, to be that close to him again even if you aren't talking to him, I mean honey it's been five years and he's never shown any interest in you or Logan." Rose said and I looked at her.

"I'm sure he wouldn't be disappointed if it was another game but that's the one he's been talking about for the last two weeks. And it's not like Edward is going to pick just me out in the crowd, he won't know I'm there and I'll make sure of it. Hockey is hockey to Logan and as long as it's some Devils game I'm sure he'll be happy." I said and the nodded as I checked my watch. "Well I got to get going, Logan will be done with practice soon and I need to be there to pick him up. I'll give you a call sometime during the week, bye girls." I said climbing into my SUV and going to pick Logan up before hockey, it seemed that my entire life revolved around hockey.

Edward Cullen

Penguin's locker room

December 13th 2012

"Yo Edward will you grab my hockey tape out of my bag for me?" Emmett called across the locker room I nodded and walked toward his bag digging around for the tape.

"Shit" I said as it fell off the bench and everything toppled over onto the floor. I started picking things up and putting it back in the bag when I saw it, it was old and the edges were a little yellowed and a little bent but it said my name in cursive on it. I threw everything back in the bag and grabbed the tape sitting town on the bench as I opened the letter.

Edward, January 12, 2006

Jeeze, it feels so strange to be writing your name now, to be thinking it out in my head as I write this out, or even to read it because you know I re-read everything. It's been almost two months sense we've last seen each other, two months since you broke my heart, and two weeks since I've found out some of the most amazing/most life changing news. Now I know you, you're already thinking of the many of hundreds of things that it could be, and if you hold your pants for only a moment I'll tell you. I was sitting down stairs in the big arm chair with a blanket wrapped around me today, watching Pride and Predjuce sipping a big mug of hot chocolate and I couldn't stop thinking about the day we met. I remember that Esme and Carlisle had agreed to let me, Alice, and Rose go to Pittsburgh to do some shopping, we were staying in a hotel and didn't want to pay room service or go out to a restaurant to eat, so we decided that we would make some dinner in the little kitchenette. I ran my shopping cart into yours as I turned a corner and our eyes connected, I remember they were the brightest green I had ever seen them, so surprised, so bright, and they had a twinkle, the same twinkle I saw every time I looked into them. I had no idea that you were an NHL hockey player and I think that was one of the reasons we connected so well, I didn't care who you were, you were just you Edward Masen the green eyed boy with the odd colored hair from Chicago who loved hockey and was so smart and that's all that mattered. Then there was the time when you took me to the arena, you put me in a pair of hockey skates and told me just to skate, then you chased me around the ice and picked me up throwing me over your shoulder. That was the day that I met Emmett and Sidney, they were the first two hockey players other than you that I had ever met and I think they accepted me the most. My favorite memory was the day you surprised me in the middle of the week on a Wednesday in the middle of school, you wouldn't take no from the secretary to sign me out of school because you weren't validated but we left anyway and went out to my favorite restaurant to get lunch. We talked for hours on end about the little things, the things we didn't know about each other yet, the things we wanted to know, and even the things that we wanted to do in the future. That was the same week that I went to my very first live NHL hockey game, it was against my favorite team, the Devils, and you were so angry that I loved them even though I grew up watching them, first with my dad and then with Carlisle. After that, things seemed to get better, and then there was that night, that night that changed everything, and I don't know weather to think that it was a good or bad thing. It seemed like that night changed everything, after that I was more emotionally attached to you than I should have been and you seemed to be drifting further and further away. A lot of the time I wondered if I had done something that you didn't like, something that made you change your mind about us, but I don't know. The day you broke up with me, you broke my heart, tore it in to a million pieces and it took me weeks before I was able to piece it back together even a little bit, and then as time went on more things started changing and I got the news. I know you're still wondering what the hell I'm talking about and I want you to know that what I'm about to tell you doesn't have to change anything that happened between us. We broke up, and we broke up because you didn't love me anymore, and I understand that, and I'm not writing this letter because I want you back, but because I have to tell you this somehow and I can't tell you this face to face. I'm pregnant Edward, just a little over two and a half months. I can't tell you whether it's a boy or a girl yet, it's still too early for us to tell, but I'm going to take care of it, I mean not it 'it' but through all nine months, until it's born. I think I might keep the baby as well, Carlisle and Esme have offered to help me take care of everything, and I think I may take them up on it. This letter doesn't have to change anything for you; this letter is to let me tell you everything that's going on and from there you can decide what you want to do. You can make your own decision on whether or not you want him to be involved with this baby, but if you don't then it's your decision and you have to live with it, but if you do, well you know where to find me.

Bella

I wasn't sure why this letter was in Emmett's bag, and I wasn't sure why it wasn't given to me five years ago. I had a kid out there, a kid with Bella, the person I lied to because I was told that I should be focusing on my career, not some silly little girl. But now I find out that she was pregnant, and that she had a baby, and that I was a father, I had a little boy or girl out there, a little baby who was five years old now.

But the thing that pissed me off most was that Emmett had hit, and he had it all these years. I walked into the work out room where he had started talking to Jasper Hale the newbie recently pulled up from the farm team, Ben Lovejoy, Sidney Crosby, and Marc Fleury. "Dude I was starting to think that you got lost in there." He laughed as I threw the tape as hard as I could at him. "What the fuck dude?" he asked and I pulled the letter out of my pocket and his eyes widened. "Where did you get that?"

"I was getting your tape like you asked, and well your bag fell on the floor. As I was putting everything back in I noticed this, but it had my name on it not yours. So I opened it, how could you keep this from me, for five years you knew that she had showed up here, given you this letter and I don't know if you ever planned on giving it to me, but you knew." He didn't say anything "own up to your mistakes Emmett, tell everyone how Bella showed up here, tell everyone how you kept this letter from me, did you even know what was in the letter?" I asked and noticed that everyone had stopped what they were doing to listen to us.

"Of course I knew, I knew the moment I saw her that she was pregnant, and I knew that she was seventeen years old and she was just going to get an abortion because she had no one. She was alone Edward and the moment the people who took care of her found out they were going to kick her out of the house. Having a baby with her was going to ruin your career, just like staying with her would have. I told you to leave her for a reason and you were naïve enough to listen, if I would have given you the letter there was no way you would have listened, you would have done the honorable thing and went to her, you would have married her and you would have stayed there and played house while you had nothing. I did you a favor by keeping this letter from you, look at you now a big time NHL player whose making millions of dollars a year, you should be thanking you right now." He said and I lunged at him as we started to fight.

Jasper, Ben, Sidney, and Marc stood back for a minute and let us fight but after a while Sidney and Jasper pulled me off while Ben and Marc took hold of Emmett. "You're right I would have gone and got Bella, I would have waiting until she graduated and then I would have asked her to marry me, I would have asked her to move into my apartment with me. I wouldn't have quit my job, she wouldn't have let me, she knew how much I loved playing hockey she knew it was my life. You're right about one thing, I was naïve enough to listen to you about breaking up with Bella, but I shouldn't have, she was my everything I saw a future with her and you ruined my life. I'm never going to thank you for what you did because I don't appreciate you keeping this letter from me for five years, because I have a family out there and I want to be with my fucking family." I yelled and he laughed.

"The stupid bitch probably got an abortion, seventeen year old girl pregnant in high school, people are going to make fun of her, she probably couldn't handle and got an abortion, do you really think she kept it?" he yelled at me and I heard some of the guys gasp.

"She wrote in this letter that she was going to keep the baby, she lost her parents when she was fifteen years old Emmett, she didn't have a family she wanted to take care of the baby and she was going to do that. God Emmett you were supposed to be my best friend, we've been friends since we were kids, we were drafted together, we were going to go to the same college, and you do this? I can't believe you Emmett" I said turning around and walking away before something that I regretted happened.

I didn't know what I was going to do, we had a game against the devils tonight and I couldn't exactly leave to go find them. I knew they would be watching from home, Bella had always been a fan of the Devils and I doubt that things had changed since I left. "Edward" I heard from behind me and I turned around to see Sidney.

"What's up?"

"Emmett had no right to do that, but I promise I'm going to help you track down Bella no matter what it takes. If you really do have a kid out there somewhere he deserves to have a father, and I know that you'll do anything to try and take care of him, don't make me regret it."

Authors note; so this is my new story. It actually originated from a dream I had but it was with a completely real hockey player and a completely different team, but were going to go with the penguins for now. Reviews make me review faster….happy reading :]

Oh and pictures of Bella's town house, Logan, and the Jersey Logan wants are going to be on my profile.

Lauren