A/N : Hey guys !
This is my new story, I hope you will enjoy it and have fun reading.
Bisous Angélique :)
Chapter one.
Elena's POV.
I look at our photo, we were so young, so unaware for the future. I loved him so much and I still love him. It's been four years since I haven't see him or talk to him and I miss him like hell. Does he miss me ? Does he move on ? Forget about me ? I know I should have move on too but I can't. I still can smell the sent of his perfume or the way his lips on mine. His breath on my skin, the butterflies on my stomach when we were together and there was only us in the world.
"Mama.." Ella, my beautiful daughter just woke up for her nap. She has her hair in mess and her blanket around her.
"Hey baby girl, come here" I tell her and she sit next to me on the couch.
"You crying ?" she asks anxious. I did not feel the tears rolled down my cheeks. "No, mama I just a speck of dust in her eye sweetie." I kiss her hair and close my eyes to stop my tears.
"Auntie Care come tonight ?" Ella asks me when she turn on the TV.
"Of course like every Friday. She brings Emily with her too." I say to her. "Can we eat pizza tonight ?" she smiles.
"Ok but you have to get dress before Auntie Care and Emily are there and they come in 30 minutes. So hurry up !"
"Ok mama but.." she begins "I know you can put dress alone, right ?"
"I'm a big girl, I'm 3 !" she exclaims. "Of course, you are baby, now go and I make pizza".
I look at my daughter and I see her father. Her eyes are green forest just like her father, I feel the tears coming and I swallow them.
"Ella ! Come here, now ! Auntie Care is here" I told Ella and smile at Emily. "You should go, she must be in her room Em".
She runs the stairs as fast as she can. "Slow down Em, you will fall" Caroline told her.
"You want a glass of wine ?" I ask Care when we are going in the kitchen.
"Of course ! I am here for drink to forget my horrible day at work" Caroline told me.
"Good. I'm here to forgot my desperation. What happens at work ?"
"As usual, because you're never there on Friday so Liv pissed me of like always." she explains.
Liv is our boss, she asks us much but she is nice when you know her. Thanks to her to give me this job when I leave New-York to Los Angeles. Liv is a editor and I'm a writer, Caroline is my press officer. Care come with me when I left.
"I know but-" she cuts me off "No, but Elena, I know that she helps you when you need someone.." she says to me almost angrily.
I can feel tears in my eyes. "I know sorry Care" I tell her with lump in my throat.
"Don't cry ! I'm sorry and I know that you didn't have the choice to leave NY.." she runs towards me and hugs me. I begins to cry on her shoulder.
"Shhh Elena, it's Ok" she murmurs in my ears. "It's not Ok... It can't be Ok.. My daughter doesn't know her father because of me and she begins to ask question about him and I don't know how answer.." I sob even more when I think about him.
"You will answer her the best you can, I'm sure of that. He will understand that you did this for him too and you suffer a lot about this decision.."
"I can't Care, its hurt so much when I look at her I see him and I think that he doesn't even know her existence.."
"You will be Ok sweetie. You have to move on from him.." she told me truthfully.
"I know Care but I can't because I love him so much even if I'm not with him anymore.. Thank you for what you did to me. You leave your life in NY for me and I can not thank you enough for that.."
" Don't do that ! I will never regret my choice you know that. Klaus should come in LA anyways because of his gallery."
I look at her with puffy and red eyes and she wipe away my tears which continues to flow."I think the pizza is ready" I go out the pizza and wash my hands and face before calling the girls.
"Girls dinner is ready !" I told them from the stairs.
"Mommy, why Auntie Lena has puffy eyes ?" Emily asks her mother. Caroline runs her hands through her hair and smiles at her.
"She is a little sad that's all, sweetie. Wash your hands ans sit next to Ella" Her phone rings and she answers it.
"Hey love ! You're at Elena ?" Klaus asks her. "Of course, you coming ?" she asks him "Mommy, can I have Daddy ?"
"No, I go home love. I hear Em, told her that I love her. Maybe when you go home we can have a little fun together ?" he asks her seductively.
"Nik, everyone can hear my conversation. Bye I love you" Caroline told him and blushes.
"Bye my love, kiss Elena and the girls. Have a good night"
Ella and Emily eat pizza and runs toward the living room to watch and play with Ella's toy. I think that maybe I made the right choice by leaving NY to LA, maybe my daughter will go well without her father. And then I think of Stefan, my Stefan, the love of my life, the father of our beautiful daughter.
I know that he moves on, he is with my ex-best friend and his ex-girlfriend. So technically, it's not his ex-girlfriend, she is his girlfriend, now. Klaus is his best friend and I know that he wants to know where I'm but he said that he says nothing about me. Maybe he still look after me ? He hates me and I understand why. I left with a little note :
"Mon Amour, I love you so much, that is hurts me. But I'm forced to leave you, alone, just like me when I'm not with you. Don't look for me and don't be mat at me. You're the one for me never forget that. I love you with all my heart and more than you never know. Bye Mon Amour..."
I'm so lost in my thoughts that I don't hear Ella call for me. I shake my head to clear my thoughts. "I'm coming sweetie"
"Mama ! Em, can sleep with me tonight ?" she asks hopefully.
"I don't think so baby girl, tomorrow she is going to see her grandmother Lizzie. You remember ?"
"But mama she always see Lizzie and me I don't see my grandmother ? And why I don't have a Dada just like Uncle Nik ?" she asks me with her green eyes.
I swallow hardly but I have a lump in my throat, she asks about Stefan again. I can't face it right now.
"I know sweetie but she is away with grandpa. Your father loves you so much even if you don't see him. We have already discussed about this and I tell you that you can ask me question whenever you want. Ok baby girl ?" I tell her with tears in my eyes.
"Ok Mama but I want to see him just like Em see Uncle Nik everyday.."
"I know but you can't baby. I miss him everyday just like you." I tell her and kiss her hair. "Auntie Care and Em leave in 5 minutes. It's already 10 : 30 PM and tomorrow we're going shopping, right ?"
"Right Mama but I'm tired can I-" she doesn't finish her sentence because she falls asleep in my arms. "Good night my baby"
I lie her in her bed. Luckily, she is already in her pajamas so I up the blanket over her shoulder. I kiss her forehead, turn on the pilot and turned of the lights.
Care is waiting in the corridor and has Emily in her arms because she is asleep too. "Are you sure you can drive safe ?"
"Of course. You can just pick up so I can open the door ?" she asks me. "Yeah. Of course, thank you to come tonight"
"Thanks to you Elena. See you on Monday"
I put Em in her car seat and kiss her hair. "Monday, I have a dedication in the morning. See you later, Care"
"Stop crying. You'll be Ok one day and I'm always here at any time" she caress my cheeks and wipe my tears, I haven't notice I crying before.
"I will. Come home safe to your husband. Kiss him for us, bye" she starts driving and I wave to her.
I turn off the light and climbs the stairs. I watch my daughter sleeping, she is so peaceful when she sleeps. I hear her breath slowly, I caress her cheek and kiss her hair before leaving her room. I'm tired so I climb in bed and I fall asleep immediately.
"Ella come on we are late !" I tell her from the stairs. "Yeah Mama I'm coming.."
I depose Ella to her school and go to my dedication in downtown of LA. I love writing but I love even more what people think about my book. People are so nice to me, it's been 2 hours since I begin and there is still a long queue outside.
"Hey ! What's your name ?" I ask smiling. "My name is Bonnie. It's a pleasure to meet you, Elena. I read your book several times and I cry every time I read the end when Emma leaves Max because she wants him to be happy even if it destroyed her to do that. And the dedication when you write about the love of your life.." she continues to talk but I don't hear her, I think about Stefan again when I write a dedication "I fell in love with the way he looks at me, I fell in love with the way his eyes reflect against mine. He doesn't know it but he is the love of my life and every time I look at her, I see him. When she laughs, she has her eyes that sparkle like those of his father. I love you so much".
"Thank you, Bonnie.." I smile widely to her and when she is about to leave, I can hear his voice behind Bonnie, Stefan's voice. "Bonnie, you finish ? I'm tired of waiting for a writer who don't know you"
"Elena ?" he asks me. He can't be here, in front of me. Not in LA. No, no, no, I'm dreaming I will wake up soon.
Stefan's POV.
I go with Bonnie to a dedication in LA because Katherine can't go with her. Bonnie is my sister-in-law. Katherine is my future wife, I ask her to marry me two weeks ago and she said yes. I think that I propose to her because Elena broke up with three years ago and I always have her in the skin. She was my drug, maybe she always is ? No, she can't, she broke my heart by leaving me.
"Bonnie, you finish ? I'm tired of waiting for a writer who don't know you" I say her playfully but when I look at her, I see Elena talking to Bonnie.
"Elena ?" I ask her coldly. She looks at me with hurt and tears in her eyes. Why she is crying ? She is the one who leave me but I hate when she cry. Bonnie stays quiet because she realized that it's my Elena.
"Umm, I … I have to go" she murmurs. "Emma, please told people that I have to go. I'm sorry.." she begins and I see tears rolls down her cheeks, my heart aches for her. "Ok sweetie, are you alright ?"
"No but I will" she says to Emma. "I warn Care to bring El-" Emma stops when she sees Elena's eyes.
She looks at me crying even more when she leaves. I want to run after her but I stuck here, I can't move. Bonnie talks to me but I don't hear her, I just hear Elena's voice when she ran away from me.
"Stefan we need to go.. I call Taylor, your jet is waiting for us" Bonnie says to me and I start walking without even thinking.
"Stefan, you need to talk" Bonnie told me when we travel to return to NY. "I can't Bon, she was in front of me and I didn't do anything to stop her.."
"I don't know her but Stefan when she looked at you, she was already crying when she just hears your voice.."
"Your right, you don't know her !" he screams at me "She left me three years ago with nothing but with my broken heart !"
"Calm down. I didn't want you to scream like that. Why it affects you so much ? She broke your heart and you still love her, don't you ?"
"I don't know, Bon. She left me when I needed her, I was going to ask her to marry me..
She sleeps next to me with her head on my chest. I run my hands through her hair and she stirs and open her eyes. "Hey beautiful" I say and running my hands on her spine.
"Morning" she smiles and kiss me on my lips. I depend the kiss and move on top of her. I kiss her over and over again. Our tongues met and dance together.
"Stef.. Stefan" she begs and I made love to her for the last time. She falls asleep because we don't stop until late in the afternoon. I put a pants on, kiss her hair and leaves the room. I have some work to do and go in my office.
When I see that it's already 10 PM, I go to our room and I don't see her. But I see a letter on my pillow with her writing. I take it and read it : "Mon Amour, I love you so much, that is hurts me. But I'm forced to leave you, alone, just like me when I'm not with you. Don't look for me and don't be mat at me. You're the one for me never forget that. I love you with all my heart and more than you never know. Bye Mon Amour..." When I read it I didn't believe that she leaves me. She can't, I can't live without her. I call her all the time during one year and nothing.
I shake my head, running my hands over my face and finally trying to kee up with whatever Bonnie is saying.
"Earth to Stefan ! You don't hear me, do you ?" Bonnie say to me. "Sorry, what did you say, Bon ?"
"I told you to talk to her, maybe return to LA to see her.." she says to me gently. "I can't, I'm with Katherine and I'm going to marry her" I tell her but it sounds wrong in my mouth.
"Stefan, you know that I don't really like her. She is selfish, spending your money no matter how ! I think she doesn't love you like she should love you and she doesn't deserve you.." Bonnie explain to me and I'm shocked by her revelation.
"How dare you to talk about her like that ?" I scream at her. "Because I know her too and you need to hear that because I can not watch you be sad all the time ! It's killing me just like Damon, he is worried about you ! You don't see her like she is because you want to love her to forget Elena.."
"I don't love Elena" I ask her with tears in my eyes.
"Stefan, you still love her because you're you and you will always love her" She told me truthfully.
"I love Katherine and I'm going to marry her, that you like it or not !" she shrugs and don't talk to me until we come to NY.
"Hey sweetheart, you feeling better ?" I tell Katherine when I come home, I joined her on the couch and kiss her hair.
"Hey baby, I'm fine" Katherine told me nervous. "What's going on sweetie ?"
"Nothing, I'm just tired" she told me. "How was LA ?"
"Good, Bonnie was very happy to see the writer she likes.." I told her, running my hands through her hair.
"I don't like her but l love you" she whispers and begins to kiss my chest. "No, Katherine I don't want to.."
"What Stefan ? I miss you all day" she told me before kissing my lips again.
"I'm tired Katherine, I go to sleep" I get up and go to our room, leaving Katherine on the couch.
I lay in bed since two hours and I can't sleep, I think of Elena. I always think of Elena when I'm in my room because once it was our room. She was crying in front of me and I didn't do anything to comfort her. I want to slap myself because of it but she is not mine anymore. So why I feel like it's my fault ? Like it's all my fault ? But she is the one who leave me with a pathetic letter. It's as if she were destroyed to seeing me.
I have to call Klaus tomorrow because he lied to me. He told me that Elena wasn't in LA or she is and I'm sure that Caroline know too but she didn't tell me. I feel Katherine enter in the room and I act as if I was sleeping.
She slide in bed next to me but doesn't me, I know she pissed off because of me but I can't touch her, not tonight. She doesn't know, that I saw Elena for the first time in three years. She approaches me but I turn around.
Elena's POV.
Ella falls asleep against me on the couch after after telling me how her day is spent and watching TV. I hear a knock on the door, I get up slowly not to wake Ella, I recover the blanket over her shoulder and kiss her hair.
I head towards the door and open it. I remain speechless at the person in front of me. "Hello Elena, it's been a while" he says to me before taking me in his arms.
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Until next time !
Bisous Angélique :)