Author notes: This is old but I decided since it's been written already I would publish it, of course I changed a lot of it and it's only the first chapter, it has only Daiken for now but that might change on chapter mmm... 3! this is all written from Ken's POV so that's why it's on first person, and it's rated M for language and future chapters. Please enjoy and if you have time review, reviews are very much loved 3

Disclaimer: Oh yes, almost forgot, Digimon does not belong to me.

It's my only day off... He knew that and yet...

"I'm sorry ken, I won't be able to make it today, there was... an emergency." Daisuke's voice comes from the auricular like a recording would, too cold and impersonal, too distant.

"Oh." I say almost surprised by the not-so-rare news "Well, don't worry," I say with a fake smile even though he can't see me, I try to sound cheerful and even though I fail miserably it's not like he'll even notice at all, he's probably too busy thinking about the stupid woman he'll see tonight to play attention to me, the same woman that I pretend not to know anything about, the same one that he is having an affair with "we'll see each other on the weekend after all." I say happy at the perspective of being with him even if he is just pretending after all, I play with the phone cord and twirl it on my hands while waiting for his response that never comes "We'll see each other on the weekend right?" I ask once more trying really hard for my voice not to break even if my hands are shaking involuntarily.

I want Daisuke to say we will but somehow i know he's not coming back anymore, not for a while at least, and i know it's all due to that woman but I don't care, really, I don't. I knew it would be like this from the very beginning but it's still a bit depressing, i wonder how being a 'genious' i didn't figure out sooner it would hurt this much, after all, just because i know how something will come out does not mean i have to like it.

"I am sorry," I hear the person at the other end of the line say and I come back to reality in a second, here we go again "I have a business trip on the weekend." Bullshit.

"Mmm..." This time there is no surprise, I suspected something like this would happen, i just didn't expect it to happen this soon "Okay, I'll see you next week hopefully." I slip in automatic mode, I don't need to sound cheery at all if he is not going to care. What would it do for me at this point anyhow? I rather just stay calm, cold and composed, as monotone as my life, he won't notice the subtle change, he never does.

"Okay then, I'll call you later." I hear him say in a more relaxed way, warmer, relieved perhaps... was he expecting me to make a scene or something? sometimes even I'm amazed at how little he knows me, but then again, he usually just comes here to sleep, eat and have sex so it's not like I'm important anymore. He can get those three from her as well, still...

"Daisuke..." I hear myself say with a tingle of sadness and a much more shaky voice than I would have expected to come out of my mouth, just then I realize tears had been building in my eyes without me realizing it.

"Yes?" He sounds somehow worried, the last time my voice sounded like that was two years ago, before my suicide attempt... we started dating after that, he did it out of pity - even I know that - but it made me happy and so here we are, me acting like a fool and making him worried once more and him pretending to care.

"Nothing." I lie, trying to cover up fro my previous mistake, I hate to make him feel troubled but it's too late now.

I hear Daisuke sigh. "Are you home?" he asks.

"yeah" I respond slipping back on to my monotonous tone.

"Don't move, I'll be there in 20 minutes" he sounds annoyed... that hurt.

Is he annoyed that I'm upset? how about not making me upset on the first place? I look at the auricular and frown even if it's no use so I let out a sigh and try to act cheerful once more "Don't worry Dai-chan," I say using his pet name for added effect "We'll see each other next week." I add even faking a smile to make myself believe the farce, he sighs again and as he is about to say something i interrupt him "Oh, and Dai-chan..."

"yeah?"

"I love you." I say with as much love and warmth as I am capable of, smiling sincerely for him, or for myself perhaps, i just wish the warmth and truthfulness of my words can reach him, oh! How i wish they do!

I feel him smile trough the phone, somehow i just know he is smiling "Me too Ken, me too." He hanged up after that and I feel myself fall to my knees while hugging the phone, hot tears running down my cheeks as I smile, he is coming, if only because he is worried, if only out of pity... My smile fades away, i don't want his pity, i want to be loved and he does not love me, yet he is coming and that makes me utterly happy.

Author notes:Oh~ end of chapter one so soon? well, i know it was short but this can stand alone as a one shot in case I get lazy and don't do the rest so that's why it's so short XD think of it as and introduction.