Hope Life's been good to you since you've been gone.
I'm doing fine now, I've finally moved on.
It's not so bad. I'm not that sad.
Roy got married, he has two beautiful girls, and me & Havoc transferred to the north. He didn't love me. I can actually say it now. Two years.. in two years I lost him completely. I tell myself I got over it, but I still miss him. Everyone clearly sees I miss him. Rebbecca says I should get over him, but I can't really do that. But It's fine, I guess.. if he's happy.. I'm okay with it.
I'm not surprised just how well I survived.
I'm over the worst and I feel so alive.
I can't complain, I'm free again.
Dear Roy,
Havoc finally got a girlfriend. He's happy you finally settled down so you could stop stealing his girls, is what he said. Though since he transferred with me I doubt you could still do that. Maes is always calling me asking if I've talked to you recently, Considering this is the first letter I've written you in about a year, I've been saying no. How are the girls? are they doing okay? I hope so. Maes also said he wants me to come visit soon because he has a lot more pictures of Elicia he wants to show me. He also made me promise I'd get to sending you a letter. But I was already planning on writing you, so it didn't really make a difference. I decided on sending you one now, even though I'm not sure what to say, which is the reason the first thing I said included Havoc. Well, I just wanted to see if you're doing okay. I hope I hear from you soon.
Love,
Riza
And it only hurts when I'm breathing.
My heart only breaks when it's beating.
My dreams only die when I'm dreaming.
So I'll hold my breath to forget.
I'm not exactly sure how to get rid of these feelings. So far all I've done is ignore them or block them out. But recently I snap at havoc a lot more. And I break down the minute I get home. I feel so depressed recently, and I know why. It's him. I can never get him off my mind. I still don't completely get it. I want time to rewind itself so I can try to fix this.. but I'm just dreaming. I should have just told him how I felt, before he went to the outpost. If I had said something... maybe..
Don't think I'm lying 'round crying at night.
There's no need to worry, I'm really alright.
I've never looked back, as a matter of fact.
I've come to a conclusion. I have come to terms on all of my issues and except the fact that I will never get him back. Reality has done such cruel things to me, but when I really started to except it, I found that it only hurts when I breathe.
And it only hurts when I'm breathing.
My heart only breaks when it's beating.
My dreams only die when I'm dreaming.
So I'll hold my breath to forget.
It only hurts when I breathe.
I'll never look back, as a matter of fact.
Riza stood by the edge of the cliff side that was off the ocean, wearing a white sun dress that reached her ankles, a sad look on her face. "Well, Roy.. I guess this is goodbye." She whispered to herself as she looked over the cliff. "I have decided on the fact that I cannot live without you. I made sure you were safe and you're also living happily now, what I always wanted for you." She said as she took a deep breath of fresh air as she looked out over the ocean. "You broke my heart without even knowing it, but I guess that's my fault because I did not tell you how I felt before all this happened." She paused as she started to tear up, thinking of what to say. "..If I can't live without you, then I have no choice but to stop all at once. Because I can't stand living without having you by my side.. I need to go.." she took a step closer to the cliff side so she was standing on the edge. "Roy, I love you." Her face lit up with a content smile while tears ran down her cheeks. Riza put one foot over the cliff and watched as the water came closer...
It only hurts when I'm breathing.
My heart only breaks when it's beating.
My dreams only die when I'm dreaming.
It only hurts when I breathe...