Title: Nothing Will Be The Same.

Synopsis: Sequel to Death Is Not Forever. Nessie came back from the dead different. She's not the same elf that Dean fell in love with. Can Dean still love her? Dean's daughter, Alex, will change, as well. Should the elves leave the Winchesters?

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Chapter 1

Before

As Dean drove the impala home to Bobby's house, he could not help but think about everything that had happened to the small clan. His dad had gotten demon possessed and threatened everyone to find the colt. John had not shared the whereabouts of the colt with Dean or Sam. They got the demon out of their dad. John Winchester had been shot three times and was badly beaten. Dean had feared his dad would die., but his Nessie had healed him of all his injuries. Unfortunately, his dad's blood had been too tainted from the demon. Apparently, demon blood does not mix well with elves. The demon blood caused Nessie to die. She wasn't completely gone. She had turned to a blue orb that went into a crystal. Dean wore the crystal as necklace. She could survive for awhile in the crystal, but they needed to find an elfin priest to perform an invocation to send her to heaven. Nessie's Aunt Beth was contacted to help with Nessie and Alex.

Dean and Sam had gone with their dad to find the demon and kill it before hurt any other families. They left Alex and Gunner with Bobby and Aunt Beth to prepare for Alex's transformation. The demon possessed their dad and tried to kill Dean. Sam shot the John/Demon in the leg. The demon fled their dad. Sam tried to get Dean and their dad to a hospital. They were t-boned by a semi-truck driven by a demon possessed trucker. They finally got to the hospital. Their dad and Sam would be fine, but Dean was dying. Apparently, Nessie was running out of time, as well. Suddenly, Dean woke up from a severe brain injury, their dad was dead, and the colt was gone. Dean knew his dad made a deal for him. He was so furious with his dad. How could he sacrifice himself like that? Aunt Beth threw such a fit about salting and burning John Winchester that Dean had allowed him to be buried in Bobby's Salvage Yard.

Aunt Beth had told them how to get Nessie back because she was the QUEESETERATE, which was some sort of superior being. Dean had no idea what that would mean for them. They took Nessie's crystal to the fae realm. The fae queen made him have sex with her as some sort of payment for the queen's help. It wasn't the worst sex he'd ever had but it definitely did not compare to the sex he had with Nessie. Dean could not help, but feel some guilt for what he had done even though if he had not done it, then the fae queen would not have helped them. He had to dunk himself and the crystal in a lake until he had gotten Nessie back. The lake water had burned like acid.

He had her back, but not entirely. Nessie could not access her memories. She seemed so childlike on the one hand, but on the other, Nessie would grab his face and kiss him like the old Nessie. Dean hoped his Nessie would get her memories and be his Nessie again.

Now

When they got to Bobby's house, Dean parked the impala in its normal spot. Gunner pulled in beside him. When the car stopped, Nessie was instantly awake. She looked around with interest. This place was familiar, but she could not quite place it. Dean saw her confused look. "Nessie, baby, this is home. It's Bobby's Salvage Yard."

She looked back at Bobby. Bobby smiled at her and nodded. She looked back at the house. Dean and everyone except Nessie climbed out of the vehicles. Nessie just sat there until Dean reached in and took her hand. "Come on. Let's go inside."

They got the bags out of the trunk. Nessie looked in the trunk for her bag. Dean shook his head. "No, Nessie, your bag's in our room in Bobby's house."

"Okay, Dean." She took his hand in hers and followed him into the house.

Sam and Gunner shared Sam and Dean's old room. Alex had her small room next door to Sam's. Bobby had cleaned another of his rooms out for Beth. Sam was surprised Bobby seemed to keep finding another room for someone to stay in. Everyone watched Dean taking Nessie to their room. It was after midnight and they were all supposed to be heading for bed, but no one could go to their rooms until Dean and Nessie were settled. At the door, Dean turned back to see that everyone was watching them. "I strongly suggest you all go to bed. We'll see you in the morning."

Dean pulled Nessie into the room and shut the door. He could hear the clan slowly moving to their own rooms. He looked over and saw Nessie had found her bag. She was digging through the bag. She lifted up a t-shirt and shorts. She was looking to Dean for confirmation that this was what she slept in. Dean walked over to her. "Yeah, that's what you like to sleep in. The bathroom is over here. Do you want a shower first?"

Nessie shook her head no. Dean went and knelt down beside her. "Nessie, you can talk to me. You can say whatever you want to me. I just want to hear your voice. I've missed hearing it."

"Okay, Dean. I don't want a shower."

"Well, let's change and head to bed then. Do you want help?

"Yes, I think I need help."

Dean led Nessie to the bed and sat her on the edge of the bed. Dean was worried about how confused Nessie was, but Beth had told him not to worry that Nessie just needed time. "Okay, baby, let's get you changed."

Dean helped her change her clothes. She went to the bathroom and he helped her with what she needed and with washing her hands. Dean could tell her clothes were slightly large for her. She was definitely smaller. He wondered for a moment if he would fit. Nessie tilted her head to the left and giggled at him. "Oh, get up there in bed. I'll be there in a minute."

Apparently, Nessie had read his thoughts. He smiled at her to show her he was not upset by her giggling. She watched him with interest as he changed clothes. When he stood bare-chested, she grinned. "You're beautiful!"

Dean looked up at her and smirked. "Ya think?"

"Oh yes."

Nessie jumped off the bed and went to him. She caressed the muscles on his abdomen and Dean moaned from the touch before he could stop himself. How he had missed that touch. She moved her hands up to his chest and caressed his pecks. Dean could not stop the emotions flooding him. He had an erection before he realized. He had his eyes closed. Nessie saw his boxers move. She placed her hand over his erection. Dean pulled her hand away. She looked up at him confused. She remembered he liked this. He saw her hurt expression. "I don't think you're ready for this. I don't want to hurt you."

"You would never hurt me, Dean. I don't remember very many things, but I remember you love me and I know you won't hurt me. I know you like to be touched there." Nessie pointed to his erection.

He smiled at her and kissed the hand his was holding. "Yeah, I do like to be touched there, but we should probably wait."

"NO! I want… I need… I want this now, please."

"Are you sure? I don't want to take advantage of you without your memories."

She pulled her t-shirt over her head and stood topless before him. She took his hand and placed it on her breast. "Please, De."

"Alright, alright. We will, but if it gets to be too intense or too much, you tell me and we'll stop. Okay?"

"Okay."

Nessie leapt up on him. They kissed deep and passionately. They kissed until their breath was gone and they pulled apart breathing heavily. Dean carried her to the bed and laid her down. He took his time with her. He wanted to take things faster, but he wanted to be sure she was okay with everything that was done. He did not want to scare her or hurt her, but he should not have worried. She was ready for everything he did. She was able to take all of him, just like she had been able to do before. Once they were through, Dean helped her clean up and then held her. She was asleep very quickly.

Dean could not sleep. His mind kept going over everything that had happened with the fae. He still felt guilty about what he had done with the fae queen, but he knew he had no choice. He was so thankful he had her back. When she found out what he had done to get her back, he hoped she would not be too angry with him. He could tell this Nessie wasn't exactly the same Nessie he had fallen in love with. He thought maybe she would be once she had her memories back, but he did not know for sure. He would love her regardless. He finally fell into a deep sleep.

The next morning, Bobby and Beth were up before anyone else. Beth put coffee on. They drank coffee at the table. Bobby looked at Beth. "You make good coffee."

"Thanks, Bobby."

"So, do you think Nessie will get her memories back before Alex's Transformation?"

"Well, that will depend on Dean."

"How so?"

"For elves especially life-mates, the blood carries memories. Nessie will have to drink from Dean. If Nessie does that, then she will be able to access most of her memories. There is a danger with this though. The memories may come faster than Nessie is ready to receive them."

"If that happens, what do we do?"

"The only thing we can do is try to keep her from hurting herself."

"Oh, have you told Dean?"

"I haven't had a chance."

"Don't you think he should be told sooner rather than later. Knowing him, he probably did some of that last night."

"No, he didn't. They did have sex though."

"Eww. I don't really want to know that. Those two igits."

Beth smiled sadly and looked down.

Bobby took her hand. "Beth, what's wrong?"

"I don't know how to say this, but I think the fae changed the ritual. Nessie came back a little different."

"How different?" Bobby and Beth turned to see Dean standing in his bedroom door wearing only sweat pants. He walked into the kitchen and got himself a cup of coffee. "I asked a question. How different?"

"I I I'm not sure exactly. The color of the pool was not what I expected. When we got back last night, I looked through the prophecies and the color should have been more green than the bright blue. Also, she appears smaller to me."

"She is smaller. Her clothes are big on her. Why would they change the ritual?"

"The fae queen would have changed the ritual to give herself some kind of advantage. I spent most the night researching this, but I think they wanted her to have some fae in her."

"Beth, if you knew the queen couldn't be trusted, why did you take us there. Why didn't you do the ritual yourself?"

"Because the ritual to bring her back was never elfin magic. It could only be done by a fae in their realm. As elfin, we have various powers, but we are not inherently magical like the fae. We have picked up magic over the centuries from the fae and other magical creatures. The prophecies tell us the ritual had to be done by the fae in their lake with a green/blue light."

"So what do we do about Nessie having fae in her? How can we get it out of her?"

"I don't know if we can. This is who she is now. We have to help her with her new powers and abilities as they show up."

"Didn't the prophecies warn you the fae queen would change the ritual?"

"Dean, I looked for any type of warning. I couldn't find anything except one small entry that said beware the fae queen will demand much. I had thought that meant the gift to the queen. I never imaged it could mean the ritual would be changed. Forgive me, Dean."

"There's nothing to forgive. No one could know. That fae queen was one manipulating bitch. We'll get through this like we do everything else. Let's not tell Nessie right now. She needs time to get used to things. I just hope we get her memories back before Alex's Transformation."

"You can, Dean."

"How can we get her memories back, Beth?"

"We can't get her memories back, but YOU can."

"How can I do this?"

"You'll have to share your blood with her. Your blood will have memories in it and it will remind her of things, which will help her access her memories. But you will have to be careful because the memories could come too fast and overwhelm her."

"I think it will be hard to get her to drink from me. She's so childlike. It might freak her out."

"Well, since she was okay with the sex, I'm sure she can handle drinking from you. Be honest with her and tell her that drinking your blood will restore her memory."

"How do you know about the sex?" Dean looked a little guilty.

Beth looked down at her hands. She was having a hard time being around humans all the time. Dean may now be a hybrid but he still thought like a human. His thoughts just bled from his mind. There was no way she could sleep last night because she felt like she was in the room with them. "I'm sorry, Dean. I'm not used to being around humans all the time. I didn't mean to ease drop. I'm going to have to work on learning to block your thoughts."

"It's okay. Before Nessie died, she told me I needed to learn to shield my thoughts better. Guess she was right."

"I died?" They all turned to see Nessie standing in the bedroom door with wide child-like eyes.

"Nessie, baby, how long were you standing there? I thought you were still sleeping."

"I was but I got cold and you were gone. You said 'before Nessie died…' Did I die?" Nessie looked at him with wide terrified eyes.

"Nessie, it doesn't matter. We're just talking." Before she could protest, Dean kissed her and she forgot the discussion. He picked her up and turned back to Beth. "Are you sure about this?"

"Yes, just go slow. Too much too soon could overwhelm her." Dean nodded and took Nessie back to bed and closed the door.

Dean sat her on the bed. Nessie smiled up at him. "More love now?"

Dean smirked at her. "You want to do what we did last night?'

"Oh yes, please." Nessie started to pull her t-shirt off, but Dean stopped her. "What's wrong, Dean?"

"Nessie, let's talk first. I'm not sure how to say this, so I'm just going to say it. Nessie, I can help you remember."

"Really? How?"

"We're life-mates. Our blood carries memories. Beth told me that if you drink from me, then you'll be able to access your memories. Do you want to do this?"

Nessie looked at Dean with wide eyes. It made his heartache to see her so afraid. She used to be so fearless. He could tell she did not really understand and he would need to be very careful with her. She looked at Dean and nodded. Dean sat on the bed with his back to the headboard. He pulled Nessie so that she was straddling his lap. She looked scared and unsure of herself. He had never seen Nessie like this. He started kissing her passionately. He pulled off his shirt and she pulled hers off.

"Nessie, you need to make your elf face." Nessie seemed confused. Dean touched her forehead and her elfin face came out. She touched her face and felt her ears. She touched her fangs. She looked terrified.

Dean smiled at her. "You're beautiful. Look. I have the face too." Dean touched his forehead and reverted to his elfin face. Nessie looked mesmerized by his change. She raised her hand and then stopped herself. "Nessie, it's okay. You can touch me." She touched his face, ears, and fangs. She hugged him tight. Dean was not sure how to do what he needed to do.

Dean took her face in his hands and pulled her into a kiss. He put all his love and passion he felt for her into that kiss. He pulled back and smiled at her. He bit his lip. He nodded for her to do the same. She bit her lip. She flinched from the pain. Dean pulled her into a blood kiss. She moaned into his mouth. Dean had not realized how much he had missed this as well. They kissed long and deep until their breaths were gone.

He pulled them a part. Nessie wanted more. "Nessie, baby, slow down. We have to go slow. It's been awhile for both of us. We aren't used to the blood."

He kissed her cheek and along her jaw. She tilted her head back to give him better access. He kissed her neck. "Okay, baby, you need to bite my neck. I know you're scared, but you need to do this." He motioned for her to bite his neck. She looked at his face with wide eyes. He nodded to her. She bared her fangs and bit into his neck. She was gaining memories from the increased blood. She felt much closer to Dean. All too soon, Dean pulled her away.

He kissed her and then he kissed her neck. He could tell Nessie was tense. It saddened Dean that Nessie's confidence appeared to be gone. Dean pulled back. He motioned for her to bite him above his heart. She sank her fangs into him and more memories were flooded into her mind with the blood. She saw her death. Nessie pulled away from Dean. She jumped up and off Dean. "You lied. I did die. I died." She ran from the room and out of the house. She had no direction as she ran through the salvage yard. She just had to get away from the memory.

Beth and Bobby tried to stop Nessie from running topless with no shoes from the house. She easily got around them. Dean jumped up and grabbed his phone. He stepped into tennis shoes and grabbed a t-shirt. He did not know what had happened. Dean knew he would not be able to catch her if she started blurring. She had more speed than he did. He ran past Bobby and Beth. "Get everybody up. We got to get her back before she hurts herself."