Ugh, does anyone else HATE Hannah with a passion? I can't stand her and have been yelling as my TV screen for weeks begging the writers to kill her off or SOMETHING! In fact, I hate the writers this season, they've royally cocked up. So here's my way of expressing my opinions.
Brennan had finally come to her senses. Maybe she couldn't prove her theory about how Lauren Eames came to be buried under a tree in Woodland. And she had no evidence to track down the person who'd ended her life. But working this case had brought her to realize the mistakes she'd made in her own life over the past six years. She'd been a fool to think she could keep on surviving alone, and she'd been suffering a sinking feeling of loss ever since Booth had come home from the middle east with a new girlfriend. It had never occurred to Brennan that Booth would move on. And despite Hannah being in the picture, when Booth has pulled her out of the way of that car, things had felt different, but the same. It had felt like the old days, when they were a team, best friends, and the sexual tension between them could be sliced with a knife. She'd missed that feeling over the past two years, and when it came rushing back on top of her new realization in Woodland, she knew she couldn't keep it to herself, no matter what the outcome.
"I made a mistake" she confessed to Booth in the car.
"I told you my opinion, you got it right" he assured her, looking uncomfortable.
"Not everything" she admitted, her voice laden with regret. Booth was silent.
"She died with regrets"
"Oh, come on, Bones everybody has regrets" Brennan shook her head, he misunderstood.
"I heard her you know. Micah says that all we get are these dim staticky messages from the universe"
"Who's this Micah guy?" Booth interrupted.
"The night watchman, he attends a lot of lectures. Anyway the point is she never gave him a chance."
"Micah?" Booth looked puzzled.
"No, no the helicopter pilot." Brennan corrected him "He offered himself to her but she never gave him a chance that was her regret." Next came her confession. "I got the signal Booth, I don't want to have any regrets."
There was a long pause between them while Booth tried to comprehend what his partner was trying to tell him.
"Um, I'm, I'm with someone. Bones, and uh Hannah, she's not a consolation prize. I love her." He let her down. He did love Hannah, and he was happy with Hannah. Being with Hannah was easy.
Unable to hold back, Brennan burst into tears. She had known that Booth would say this. Booth was loyal and honest, it was part of what Brennan was in love with him.
"You know the last thing I want to do is hurt you" he continued "But those are the facts." He couldn't believe this was happening right now.
"I understand" Brennan sniffled "I missed my chance." She said through sobs "My whole world turned upside down, I can adjust."
"I did" Booth said, thinking back to the pain he'd felt after Brennan rejected him 18 months ago.
"Yes you did" Brennan agreed. She had told him, he knew now. She couldn't change the past, but at least Booth knew how she felt now.
"Do you want me to, uh, call someone to be with you?" Booth asked. Brennan shook her head. The only person she wanted with her, was him.
"No I'm fine alone" she said. Always alone "Thanks".
The rest of the ride was silent and when Booth pulled up outside her building she opened the door to get out, but paused.
"Booth, I know you love Hannah" she started, one leg out the door "but I also know that you loved me once, and I don't believe that has gone away. I would never ask you to leave her, I know you're not that kind of guy. It's why I love you." She paused and let those words sink in "But I also can't keep pretending like I don't feel anything. I can't die Booth, not having told you how I feel."
Then she got out of the car and closed the door before Booth could speak, she ran across the road in the still pouring rain. Behind her she heard Booth calling her name, but she didn't turn around. She entered her building and took the stairs up to her apartment where she climbed into a boiling hot shower and tired to steam out the tensions of the day, and she cried. She cried until she couldn't cry anymore, and her head ached and the water ran cold. Then she got dressed, collected her things, went down to the parking garage and headed back to work. It was almost midnight, but she knew she wouldn't sleep. She needed a distraction, and thought that cataloging some ancient remains might, as it usually did, make her feel… less.
Ok, thoughts? I have a vague idea on where I will take this, but I would love to hear your thoughts. On this story, or how you feel about this season, anything. How do you think the Booth/Hannah situation will go? Will he finally get rid of her? I hope so.