Been taking me a while to get this one done, as I've started a novel – I doubt it will go anywhere, but it's fun playing with and creating your own characters. Hina-san wanted some Royai, so here she goes, even if I'm not very happy with it. Not very much at all. Oh well, I need to post something here. Please review!
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This concept of him having a chance with her was just on verge of being impossible; the military did not allow this infatuation. It was absolutely forbidden.
But it hadn't stopped Roy from feeling the heat yet.
In ways, everyday was like another love; it brought new heartbeats, new understandings, and all conclusions he had come to the previous night were scrapped to the pile of inept thoughts that concerned the act of regaining control.
Colonel Mustang would not let himself fall defenseless in the act of a mild crush. He had been with many female, how could she be so different?
He had overcome himself, pulled the trigger, earned his position in the military; this was what he wanted. But now it felt all so bittersweet.
It he was not here, would there be a chance Riza and himself could be together at this moment, huddled on a sofa watching old movies neither were interested in seeing but for the other's company, drinking coffee over plans of the future?
He had to ignore the feeling that twisted itself through his gut, the butterflies flitting hard against his heart wanting to be admitted and known at a glance at her, in which he hardly managed to cover on occasion.
She was like no other woman he had been with. She was so pure, so stable, unlike him. His composure hardly counted as being so.
In the end, it was her or his career.
Perhaps tomorrow would reveal his decision, and maybe he would be oblivious of it for weeks to come.
But one thing was certain; this crush wasn't going to cease without a fight.