First of all I really want to thanks for the greatest help with this one chapter and the other one, The Closer I Get To You, ... girl, i don't know what I would do without you!!! Thanks so much for everything!!!
Disclaimer: I do not in any way own CSI: Miami neither this song. Please don't sue me!
Well actually this is a brazilian song that I put in English named Thinking of You (Pensando em você) by Claudia Leite
Thinking of you
I was satisfiedhaving you as friend
But what happened to me?
Where did I go wrong ?
Sometimes I wonder if I didn't misunderstand
Great friendship with being in love
If it is just that soon will pass
April 8th ,2002. Monday, 8:00 am in the morning, the sun was shinning outside, hot weather. It was a normal day like any other until I saw her…
A vision from heaven, paradise, a vision of perfection. If goddesses exist she definitely would be one.
Small, blond, petite, southern accent, green eyes, extremely exquisite, and with a smile… God I'd die for her.
That was when I realized I was face to face with her, hypnotized, enchanted by her beauty. She introduced herself as ballistics expert, Calleigh Duquesne. I shook her hand, lost my eyes in hers, and felt like fool in front of her, holding her hand, and suddenly forgotten my own name…
"CSI Delko, right?" She asked smiling at me.
"Ohh…yeah…sorry, Eric Delko".I said cursing myself for such a dumbness
"Nice to meet you!"
"The pleasure is mine!"
We stand there and engaged in small mundane talk. Awkward, yet nice
"Well I… I need to get back to work." She said breaking the moment
"Yeah, sure… me, too. See you around. Bye." I said smiling like a teenager with a crush and left.
But when the phone rings will it be you?
Whatever I am doing I stop
And if it is to long before you call me
I find an excuse to meet you
I'm so silly but I can't avoid it
Because I only live to think about you
And it is unintentional, you don't leave my mind
I only live awake to dream
Imagining both of us
Sometimes I think this is an impossible dream
Will this be a terrible illusion?
Today, I asked so much in prayer
That the doors of your heart
Open for me to conquer you
But that is done the will of God
If He wants then, it doesn't matter where, when and how
I will have your heart.
The years passed and our friendship was getting strong, solid at a point where we trust each other with our lives. We knew each other so deeply that we don't even need to talk. Then I got shot, and it was like we got even closer. We worked together more often than before, she helped me at work, at my rehab sessions. Sometimes it was like only the two of us existed. We even ate lunch together… Then she was kidnapped, and I was there for her in the same way she was for me.
One day I started to feel something more; something that wasn't there when we start as friends. Of course that little attraction was still there; teasing or perhaps wanting, but we never let it get to the surface.
I make everything to call your attention
Once in a while I put the feet for the hands
I swallow dry the jealousy
When other lover wants to remove of me your attention
Heart in love is silly
One smile from you he melts completely
Your charm, your glance
Your tame voice makes me delirious
But so many things happened and it was said
Any small detail was track
Things that were left behind
Things that you even remember anymore
But I keep everything here in my chest
So much time studying your way
So much time waiting for a chance
I dreamed so much about this romance
I'm so silly but I can't avoid it
Day after day, those feelings were getting stronger. I was falling deeply for her, but then Jake came into the picture and it looks like my dream of having her was only that: just a dream. Friendship was our only reality. And I waited, waited… hoping that one day the dream would come true. Then Jake was gone for real and we started getting back to the way we were… teasing each other, flirting, feeling. She was different somehow, more free in the way she talked, looked at me, and I saw that she was feeling, too, and that warmed my heart.
Because I only live to thinking about you
And it is unintentional, you don't leave my mind
I only live awake to dream
Imagining both of us
Sometimes I think this is an impossible dream
Will this be terrible illusion?
Today, I asked so much in prayer
That the doors of your heart
Open for me to conquer you
But that is done the will of God
If He wants then, it doesn't matter where, when and how
I will have your heart
A couple of months passed, and it was more difficult to hide it, to not feel it what we were both feeling. One day, while solving a case she read my file. We never discussed until the other in a crime scene, but then Frank get in the way. The conversation was sidelined again until day I saw her in the hospital surrounded by doctors and nurses. She had inhaled too much smoke at a crime scene, and couldn't breathe. In that moment I saw my own life going away, slipping through my fingers. I realized that I couldn't live without her anymore; I wouldn't function without her, and I was so scared, yet so cowardly for not telling her that before. When she was released to a room I entered, and sat beside her… she was pale, weak. I took a deep breath and opened my heart to her. I was so desperate, so lost. After that day our destiny was sealed. We were inseparable, especially outside work.
Today, exactly six months later and seven years since we meet for the first time… I'm here with her, in the same bed, happy and married to this amazing and extraordinary woman. It's our honeymoon. She lays beside me, sweetly, so peaceful sleeping, so Calleigh… now Calleigh Delko, and it amazes me how lucky I am. How happy and complete I feel. What before was just a dream now is reality… now I pray to God to help me give her all the love I feel for her, to make her the happiest woman in the world just like she makes me the happiest man.
I kiss her one more time and whisper "I love you… forever."
She lets out a soft sigh and snuggles closer to me, head in my chest, hand resting on my waist, and whispers back, "I love you, too."
Pulling her tighter against me, I fall back to sleep.
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