The song in this fic is Bad – U2
Bad. My Bad, maybe.
If you twist and turn away
If you tear yourself in two again
If I could, yes I would
If I could, I would
Let it go
Surrender
Dislocate
- Sam! If I could solve all these things, I would. There must be a way! God, I wish I could forget it. I wish I had the power to make you forget it. The power to bring my brother back. My Sammy!
If I could throw this
Lifeless lifeline to the wind
Leave this heart of clay
See you walk, walk away
Into the night
And through the rain
Into the half-light
And through the flame
- Sammy! If I could! If I could change this whole life, I would. To see you different. If I were strong enough, I would have let you go. If I were stronger, I would let you go now. I would let you do what you want, the way you want it. I would forget you.
If I could threw myself
Set your spirit free
I'd lead your heart away
See you break, break away
Into the light
And to the day
- Sam! If I could give you another future, set your spirit free, make you change, I would. I would say yes. I would take you out of this damn hole. I guess we could change this. Take this darkness off you, Sammy. Bring you to the light. Damn Man, I would! I would say yes for you.
To let it go
And so to fade away
To let it go
And so fade away
- I would find a way and leave you alone. If I could, I would have never gone to Palo Alto to take you. Never. I would let you go and then I would vanish. It would be better for you and for me. I wouldn't have to see you like that, stuck. You would be happy, Sammy and I would forget you and I would vanish.
I'm wide awake
I'm wide awake
Wide awake
I'm not sleeping
Oh, no, no, no
-Shut Up Dean! That's enough! It's just a dream And I'm wide awake! We can't change, there's no way. There are just possibilities. It's over for me. I'm wide awake, Dean. Wide-awake.
If you should ask then maybe they'd
Tell you what I would say
True colors fly in blue and black
Bruised silken sky and burning flag
Colors crash, collide in blood shot eyes
If I could, you know I would
If I could, I would
Let it go...
- Sam! Anybody would tell you what I'm saying! Man, Everything is so messed up. I could ask them... Who knows... and maybe they would tell you the same. Or they would be just like you. It's everything so hurt. I see many things in your eyes. Many mixed feelings. Man, If I could, I would make you forget all this...
This desperation
Dislocation
Separation
Condemnation
Revelation
In temptation
Isolation
Desolation
Let it go
And so fade away
To let it go
And so fade away
To let it go
And so to fade away
- I would make you forget everything and come back. Come back to what you should be, Sam. Then, I would vanish and you would be happy with Jess or anybody else. And you'd have children that would never know who I am. Why all this crap happened with you? Why? Because I've been there to take you. I would make you forget everything and I would vanish!
I'm wide awake
I'm wide awake
Wide awake
I'm not sleeping
Oh, no, no, no
- Dean. dude! Shut up! You're the only family that I have! You needed my help and I couldn't deny it to you. It's not your fault. If I'm this way, If I am a Damn addicted monster, it's my fault! Your pain can't clean my body. This crap will keep annoying/disturbing me. It's not your fault! It's mine! You don't need to feel responsible for it. You can vanish yourself if you want. I need to find a way to live. I need to fix it by myself. I got in and now I have to get out of it. I'm wide awake, Dean! I know what can happen, what will happen! I'm not sleeping.
- Sammy...