Hey everybody guess what? I'm baaack! For this small portion of my strange writing career anyways. lol You know I thought I had put this on fan fiction because I distinctly remember typing it up on my computer. But you know what it wasn't there. So then I started thinking that I never wrote it at all and the whole thing was just some kind of hallucination I made up. But today I found it in my notebook! Yay! I was so happy. Just tell me what you think. Same old routine.

I don't own Harry Potter. The wonderful J.K. Rowling does!

Cries of an addicted heart

I hate you dearly,

You never stand up for me.

I wish you would leave,

Disappear, be gone.

All you bring are hurtful memories!

Aching of the forgotten past.

But just when I think my walls have caved,

Just when I think all hope is gone,

You show up;

With that sly smile,

As if nothing were ever wrong.

Why do you torture me like this?

Force my brain to spin round?

You are so perplexing!

Never residing in one mood.

Why don't you just say what you think!

Why do you keep it all hidden inside?

Do you think they don't notice?

Do you think they are blind!

They're not!

They see all your flaws!

Every mistake you ever make.

Every wrinkle in your perfect life.

But when you smile,

That oh so perfect smile,

They are fooled into believing everything is fine.

But they don't see what I see.

When I look into your eyes,

Those magnificent green eyes,

Shaded by your jet-black hair;

When I look into those windows,

I can see what's into your heart.

The hurt,

The anguish,

The sadness,

The pain,

The feelings you hide beneath your never-ending layers.

That's when my mind changes,

The millionth time again.

My thoughts of hatred,

Fear,

And frustration;

Melt away like glaciers in an afternoon sun.

I look into your eyes,

And everything is clear.

I hate you so much,

But, I love you so dearly!

I wish you would fly away!

Drift off behind some masked cloud,

I want to erase you from my existence!

But when you're gone,

My tears fall like raging sprinklets,

Gushing,

Rushing,

Fighting their way of loneliness,

Dropping into despair.

You come and throw me left,

Right;

You mix up my world,

Jumble my structured plan,

You make me believe;

Believe in things that;

That aren't there.

And then,

You disappear,

Leaving who I am,

My decisions,

My thoughts,

You leave every part if my reason for living;

Blurred, and desperately

Unclear.