A/N: I am so sorry that I haven't written another story about Hanna and Caleb in a while! I have had a really bad case of writers block! This is going to be a one- shot from Caleb's point of view, and I hope that you guys like it!
Set during season 2, episode 1 "It's Alive"
I do not own anything. If I did, when Caleb came back for Hanna, I wouldn't have had Hanna kick him out. I would have had him stay, and have her forgive him.
I walked up to the back door of the Marin's house, hoping that Hanna would answer, so that I could get everything off of my chest. But no, Ms. Marin, err, Ashley, answered the door.
She took one look at me, and almost shut the door.
"Wait!" I said making her pause, and look at me with disappointment written all over her face.
"Why? You left without saying goodbye to Hanna. You can't just waltz back into her life, and expect things to go back to normal." She said glaring at me.
"I know I messed up. If I could take it all back, I would. But I really care about Hanna, and I need to talk to her, even if she doesn't take me back, I will fight for her." I said meaning every word of it. I really needed to talk to her, and if this didn't work, I would have to ambush her at school, which was not the setting I wanted for our conversation.
Ashley sighed, and opened the door, motioning for me to come in. "She's out, but you can wait her until she comes back." She said as she walked over to the liquor cabinet and grabbed a bottle of wine. She looked like she was going to need it. Hell, I wish I could just have a sip of it, because I was going to need as much courage as I could get.
I could hear Hanna's voice coming from the hallway. I was really going to do this. I was going to come out and tell her my real feelings. I was beyond screwed.
"Okay, I know what you're thinking, but when I tell you how much money I saved, you will be very happy. And, I'll share the Maddens with you, if I can wear them first." She said.
"Hanna," Ashley said, obviously trying to tell her that I was here, and that she shouldn't freak out. At least, I hope that was what she was going to say.
"Okay, fine! You can have the Maddens, and I'll just take the Betsey Johnsons." I could hear her footsteps as she walked into the kitchen. I held my breath, waiting for her reaction.
"Hi." I hear myself say. REALLY! Is that the best I got? I stared at her, as she stood there in shock.
"Hi." She said, still staring at me in shock.
Ashley moved to stand up. "I'm going to excuse myself, and go try on my new shoes." She said as she walked over to where Hanna stood.
"You okay?" I heard Ashley ask Hanna.
"Yeah. I'm fine." I heard Hanna whisper back. Ashley then walked back up the stairs. I stood up and looked again at Hanna.
"Do you want to sit down, or-""No." She said as she walked to the other side of the room. I took that moment to drink in her appearance. She had gotten even more beautiful since I had last seen her, if that was even possible.
She must have noticed my staring because the next thing she said was, "You're not allowed to do that."
"What?" I said, waiting for her answer.
"You're not allowed to look at me like that." She said, trying to avoid my gaze by looking anywhere else in the room. I smiled a little at this; she still had her old feistiness. I had always loved that about her.
"And you're not allowed to do that either." She said sternly. The smile dropped from my lips. I had to tell her.
"I didn't leave without saying goodbye." I said, starting to explain everything that went down between me and Mona.
"Okay, I was unconscious during that exchange?" She said her voice as sharp as a blade.
I moved around, trying to keep myself focused. This was going to be so hard to admit. "I should have told you in person, I just…" I said trailing off, trying to think of what I should say next. "I had never said the things that I was feeling, and I didn't feel like I could say those thing without making a complete ass of myself, pretty much like I am doing right now." I spit out all at once. I look at her for a reaction. Anything. But she remained impassive.
"So I wrote you a letter. And in the letter I said I was sorry." I took a deep breath, trying to come up with the words that matched my feelings.
"Most of my life, I have felt alone, even when I was with people. That was until I met you" Finally. Even though I had just said only half of what I was feeling for her, I felt slightly better.
"So what happened to this letter?" Hanna asked, now directly looking me in the face.
"I gave it to Mona. She said she would give it to you." I said. I was a little nervous about how she would accept this news. It was a little hard to believe that her best friend would do something like that, but it WAS Mona.
"Um, look, I appreciate that you came back here to tell me that but, that doesn't change what you did." She said, and it sounded as though she was about to cry. I wanted to pull her into my arms and tell her everything would be alright, but I couldn't. So instead I took a step closer to her.
"Look, if you…..if you let me I…I know I can make it up to you…Because I love you." I finally said it. I was in love with Hanna Marin. I would scream it from the rooftops if that is what it took to get her back.
She stared at me for a couple of seconds before she did anything. "I'll never be able to forget that you were using me." She said, and I could already feel that I was losing the battle.
I shook my head a little. "I'm sorry." I said again. And I meant it. If I could start again, I would throw everything I had done to the shadows of regrets.
Now I could see the tears that were threatening to spill out of Hanna's eyes. "I believe you." I looked at her hopefully. At least she didn't think I was lying, because I don't think I would be able to handle that.
"But, you should probably go." She said hoarsely.
I felt my heart break all over again. She didn't want me back. She didn't want me to even try to win her back. I could feel my own tears forming in my eyes as I grabbed my stuff off of the kitchen island.
"Goodbye Hanna." I said, before turning my back on her, and leaving what I believe is the only person I will ever love behind me.
A/N: Please review and tell me what you think!