Hey guys! So this is my first fan fiction. I know I'm not a good writer. But if you could review with some helpful criticism. But not to mean plzz.
Summary: Katniss is being bullied and she is struggling with life. She is cutting and is planning suicide. But what happened when Peeta figures out what she is going to do and tries to stop her. Will a romance blossom?
Katniss POV
I can't stand it the pain of feeling worthless. They tell me everyday at school, write little messages on Facebook, twitter. Everywhere. I just can't do it anymore. The kids in my class have been bullying me for years. My family doesn't know, and my friends-well ex-friends now are contributing. After school today I'm clearing out my locker so it's easier for my mother when I'm gone. The school day goes as usual, Glimmer and her friends kicking my seat, sending me messages and trying to trip me. During last period I write a note for my family so when they find me they know why I did it.
Dear Mother and Prim,
Mother, I'll never forgive you for what you did to Prim and I after father died. You should never leave your kids to starve. But I still love you.
Prim, I love you so much. You are the best sister I could ever have. I'm sorry I won't get to see you grow up and become the beautiful women I know you will be. Please know it is not your fault either of you.
For those who bullied me. YOU WON! That's what you wanted right? For me to DIE!
Katniss
P.s Sorry.
The bell goes. I tuck the note in my pocket and run out the door to my locker. I shove as much of the books I can in my backpack but I end up having to carry heaps in my arms. By the time my locker is empty everyone has left the I get out side the school building, I trip and drop all of my books. I scramble to pick them all up.
"Are you alright?"
I choose to ignore the person and get up but in the process I drop a few books. The boy bends down and picks them up. Its now that I get a good look at him. Blonde curls and stunning blue eyes. He is definitely from the richer side of town.
"Thanks" I quickly mumble when he hands me the books.
"Why are taking all your books home when we are in the middle of the school the year." Damn I was hoping this question wouldn't come up.
"I wont be here tomorrow," I quickly say
"But that still doesn't mean why you need take them all home" he says
"Well...um..." I stumble
"You can trust me you know," he states
"I can't trust you! You just want to make fun of me" I spit trying to hold back tears.
"Hey, I'm not going to make fun of you. I'm Peeta, Peeta Mellark by the way. Why would you think I would make fun of you?"
"Because that's what everyone does, but not for much longer." I quickly place my hand over my mouth as I nearly gave my plan away, hopefully he didn't hear it.
"Well that's not good- WAIT- what do you mean `much longer?" he asks with a concerned look in his eyes.
" Ummm...I...I..." I quickly try to explain, and then I burst out crying.
I try to run but he grabs my wrist. I scream out in pain. He looks concerned and rolls up my sleeve while I struggle.
"No...no... no... no...no" I keep mumbling
"Shit! Did you do this?" he asks admiring the scars I bring on myself.
It's my only way of coping with everything. I drop all my books and fall to the ground full out crying.
Peeta POV
OH MY GOD! To know my Katniss has gone through all this to be bullied and now is cutting. What am I saying `my ' katniss, she has never been mine. But I have had a huge crush on her since I was 5 but never had the guts to tell her. I watch as she falls to floor crying. I bend down to her and try to hug her but she pushes me away yelling `go away!'. But I ignore he and keep trying to hug her and after a while she grabs my shirt and wont let go. She is crying less now. "Hey Katniss, do you want to hang out later." She looks shocked
" I'm sorry but ... I wont be here."
"Where will you be?" I ask confused
"Um... just ...um ... somewhere, but I wont ever come back."
"Oh ...can we stay in contact like over phone or email?"
"Where I am going there is no phones or emails..." Something must click in my brain, `bullied, cuts, and taking all her stuff, going somewhere with no contact.' " You're not going to... are you?" I can't even say it.
Katniss POV
SHIT! He figured it out.
"...No...' I lie, but I have always been a bad liar.
"I know your lying. But why do want to do this?"
"Its none of your business" I yell and run, leaving my books all behind I don't know where I'm running to but who cares. I can hear Peeta's loud footsteps behind me.
Peeta POV
Her books shoved in my backpack and I run after her of course. I am right behind her when I see her cross a busy street obviously trying to avoid me and not looking. The car she ran in front of luckily stopped just in time, it just bumped into her but it did knock her over resulting in her hitting her head on the road. But she gets up and runs away into the forest.
Katniss POV
I keep running. I can't believe it; I spilt my secret to a complete stranger. Well he isn't a complete stranger. I did use to be friends with him when I was like 6 but then his mother said I wasn't allowed near him. Just because I was from the Seam (the poorer part of District 12) and he is from the richer part. My head starts to hurt really bad though I keep running. I stop to catch my breath and lean against a tree. The dizziness doesn't go away it gets worse, I feel something warm on the back of my neck. I reach back and find a sticky warm substance. Black dots dance across my vision and then everything goes black.