p class="MsoNormal"em style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"Ding!/em/p
p class="MsoNormal"My phone made a sound, indicating I had gotten a message. I paused my movie and picked it up./p
p class="MsoNormal"I looked at the screen and noticed it was a message from my boyfriend, Xavier, a style="mso-spacerun: yes;" /spanI smiled as I opened it, it was lengthy. My smile faded as I read, eventually forming into a complete frown. I felt my heart rip in two, as it was the last message I'd ever get from him./p
p class="MsoNormal""Riley, you'll always be my favorite Lucario. I'll always cherish our time together. From our first kiss, our first time making love, and our first date. Those special moments will stay forever embedded in my memory, as part of the happiest time of my life. I'm sorry to say they couldn't last forever. I'm breaking up with you. I'm sorry but…I can't bare the fact that after all this time, I could never grow to love you, as you loved me. It pained me every time you told me, and even more so because I knew I didn't love you back. I was always sure I felt something for you, attraction, infatuation, affection. It didn't turn into something more I'm sorry to say. That's why I think we should separate. I really hope you understand, and again, I'm sorry. Goodbye Riley."/p
p class="MsoNormal"My face darkened as my grip on my phone loosened, and it fell on my bed. My face darkened, tears threatening to run down my face. I laid down, and tried to compose myself. Thoughts rushed in and out of my head./p
p class="MsoNormal"em style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;""Maybe this is just a joke…"/em/p
p class="MsoNormal"em style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;""He seemed pretty serious…"/em/p
p class="MsoNormal"em style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;""I should've seen this coming…"/em/p
p class="MsoNormal"em style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;""Maybe he's not right for me anyway…"/em/p
p class="MsoNormal"em style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;""Maybe this is all a dream…"/em/p
p class="MsoNormal"I picked up my phone, and read the message again, to see if I could catch even the slightest hint of comedy or charade./p
p class="MsoNormal"em style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;""What kind of sick joke is this?"/em/p
p class="MsoNormal"The message reverberated in my mind./p
p class="MsoNormal""I'm sorry….I never loved you…I'm sorry…Goodbye…"/p
p class="MsoNormal"I put my phone on silent and tossed it across the room, not even wanting to look at it. I wiped away the tears forming in my eyes. I refused to cry./p
p class="MsoNormal""You're stronger than this." I stated aloud./p
p class="MsoNormal"I knew that if I cried, I would never live this down./p
p class="MsoNormal"em style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"I can get over him. It'll take a while, but I can do it. This isn't the first ti-…../em/p
p class="MsoNormal"Suddenly, thoughts of all my failed relationships ran rapid in my mind. All the heartbreak, the disappearances, the disloyalty. I thought he was perfect. He was nice, he cared about me, he understood me. He gave me the emotional security I always wanted, and it felt nice to feel safe, and know that no matter what, I had someone I could turn to, and be honest with, without them judging me. It was nice, and I loved him because he was that someone. I thought we'd make it through all the obvious hardship, of him going away for university, and us being far apart./p
p class="MsoNormal"em style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;""I thought we'd make it…."/em/p
p class="MsoNormal"I knew full well our relationship would be hard to manage if/when he moved away. I liked to think that, we'd have each other no matter what, even if it became long distance. I thought we'd be fine if we had each other./p
p class="MsoNormal"em style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;""Apparently I was wrong."/em/p
p class="MsoNormal"Suddenly the weight of the situation fell upon me. I was going to go back to being lonely, and suffering with just my thoughts to keep me company. My friendships had died long ago, and in my neighborhood, I didn't talk to anyone. Anyone except him. I lived alone, I worked alone, I did everything alone, when I wasn't with him. Tears fell down my face, as my greatest fear, fear of being alone, became reality. I did things I wasn't proud of when I didn't want to be alone. I found company in many not-so-ideal places. Had….sex… with people I'm not exactly happy to admit. He saved me from all that. He was the one who helped me turn my life around, when no one else cared, or even bothered to care./p
p class="MsoNormal"I saw him as the light, who took away all the darkness in my life. He was perfect. He was my everything. I loved him. I don't know what I'll do-/p
p class="MsoNormal"em style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"Knock knock /em/p
p class="MsoNormal"My thoughts paused when I heard a knock at the door. I walked to the front of my house, picking up my phone on the way. I noticed I had more than a few messages from him. I put my phone away and went to the door. I checked the peephole, and my heart raced when I saw it was him. He looked worried. I wiped away my tears, and opened the door slowly./p
p class="MsoNormal""Uh…hey Riley. You never replied to my messages, so I decided to come over."/p
p class="MsoNormal"I stood behind the door to hide my face a bit, avoiding eye contact the entire time./p
p class="MsoNormal""I had my phone on silent…"/p
p class="MsoNormal"He scratched the back of his head./p
p class="MsoNormal""Oh…well…I just came to say that I really am sorry. You understand right? It was bad enough that my school and work schedules prevented me from seeing you, and now I'm going away in a few days. And there's the uh…other thing…"/p
p class="MsoNormal"My heart throbbed, knowing exactly what he was talking about./p
p class="MsoNormal""But…I hope you don't hate me… I can't exactly control how I feel you know? It was hurting me knowing that you cared so much, while also knowing that I didn't care em style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"as/em much."/p
p class="MsoNormal"I got teary eyed, and I saw him frown seeing this./p
p class="MsoNormal""For what it's worth. I really did enjoy our time together. I'm hoping you'll at least keep in touch when I leave."/p
p class="MsoNormal"I nodded./p
p class="MsoNormal""I'll try my best…"/p
p class="MsoNormal"He put his hands in his pockets./p
p class="MsoNormal""Right. I guess this is good-bye?"/p
p class="MsoNormal"He held out a paw, I shook it, and let go quickly. He looked at me, then at his paw, with a sad look in his eyes./p
p class="MsoNormal""Oh… em style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"sigh/em Good-bye Riley"/p
p class="MsoNormal"I nodded and gulped. I cried as I watched him walk. Walk down my driveway. Down, and out of my life forever./p
p class="MsoNormal" /p
p class="MsoNormal"End/p
p class="MsoNormal"My phone made a sound, indicating I had gotten a message. I paused my movie and picked it up./p
p class="MsoNormal"I looked at the screen and noticed it was a message from my boyfriend, Xavier, a style="mso-spacerun: yes;" /spanI smiled as I opened it, it was lengthy. My smile faded as I read, eventually forming into a complete frown. I felt my heart rip in two, as it was the last message I'd ever get from him./p
p class="MsoNormal""Riley, you'll always be my favorite Lucario. I'll always cherish our time together. From our first kiss, our first time making love, and our first date. Those special moments will stay forever embedded in my memory, as part of the happiest time of my life. I'm sorry to say they couldn't last forever. I'm breaking up with you. I'm sorry but…I can't bare the fact that after all this time, I could never grow to love you, as you loved me. It pained me every time you told me, and even more so because I knew I didn't love you back. I was always sure I felt something for you, attraction, infatuation, affection. It didn't turn into something more I'm sorry to say. That's why I think we should separate. I really hope you understand, and again, I'm sorry. Goodbye Riley."/p
p class="MsoNormal"My face darkened as my grip on my phone loosened, and it fell on my bed. My face darkened, tears threatening to run down my face. I laid down, and tried to compose myself. Thoughts rushed in and out of my head./p
p class="MsoNormal"em style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;""Maybe this is just a joke…"/em/p
p class="MsoNormal"em style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;""He seemed pretty serious…"/em/p
p class="MsoNormal"em style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;""I should've seen this coming…"/em/p
p class="MsoNormal"em style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;""Maybe he's not right for me anyway…"/em/p
p class="MsoNormal"em style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;""Maybe this is all a dream…"/em/p
p class="MsoNormal"I picked up my phone, and read the message again, to see if I could catch even the slightest hint of comedy or charade./p
p class="MsoNormal"em style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;""What kind of sick joke is this?"/em/p
p class="MsoNormal"The message reverberated in my mind./p
p class="MsoNormal""I'm sorry….I never loved you…I'm sorry…Goodbye…"/p
p class="MsoNormal"I put my phone on silent and tossed it across the room, not even wanting to look at it. I wiped away the tears forming in my eyes. I refused to cry./p
p class="MsoNormal""You're stronger than this." I stated aloud./p
p class="MsoNormal"I knew that if I cried, I would never live this down./p
p class="MsoNormal"em style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"I can get over him. It'll take a while, but I can do it. This isn't the first ti-…../em/p
p class="MsoNormal"Suddenly, thoughts of all my failed relationships ran rapid in my mind. All the heartbreak, the disappearances, the disloyalty. I thought he was perfect. He was nice, he cared about me, he understood me. He gave me the emotional security I always wanted, and it felt nice to feel safe, and know that no matter what, I had someone I could turn to, and be honest with, without them judging me. It was nice, and I loved him because he was that someone. I thought we'd make it through all the obvious hardship, of him going away for university, and us being far apart./p
p class="MsoNormal"em style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;""I thought we'd make it…."/em/p
p class="MsoNormal"I knew full well our relationship would be hard to manage if/when he moved away. I liked to think that, we'd have each other no matter what, even if it became long distance. I thought we'd be fine if we had each other./p
p class="MsoNormal"em style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;""Apparently I was wrong."/em/p
p class="MsoNormal"Suddenly the weight of the situation fell upon me. I was going to go back to being lonely, and suffering with just my thoughts to keep me company. My friendships had died long ago, and in my neighborhood, I didn't talk to anyone. Anyone except him. I lived alone, I worked alone, I did everything alone, when I wasn't with him. Tears fell down my face, as my greatest fear, fear of being alone, became reality. I did things I wasn't proud of when I didn't want to be alone. I found company in many not-so-ideal places. Had….sex… with people I'm not exactly happy to admit. He saved me from all that. He was the one who helped me turn my life around, when no one else cared, or even bothered to care./p
p class="MsoNormal"I saw him as the light, who took away all the darkness in my life. He was perfect. He was my everything. I loved him. I don't know what I'll do-/p
p class="MsoNormal"em style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"Knock knock /em/p
p class="MsoNormal"My thoughts paused when I heard a knock at the door. I walked to the front of my house, picking up my phone on the way. I noticed I had more than a few messages from him. I put my phone away and went to the door. I checked the peephole, and my heart raced when I saw it was him. He looked worried. I wiped away my tears, and opened the door slowly./p
p class="MsoNormal""Uh…hey Riley. You never replied to my messages, so I decided to come over."/p
p class="MsoNormal"I stood behind the door to hide my face a bit, avoiding eye contact the entire time./p
p class="MsoNormal""I had my phone on silent…"/p
p class="MsoNormal"He scratched the back of his head./p
p class="MsoNormal""Oh…well…I just came to say that I really am sorry. You understand right? It was bad enough that my school and work schedules prevented me from seeing you, and now I'm going away in a few days. And there's the uh…other thing…"/p
p class="MsoNormal"My heart throbbed, knowing exactly what he was talking about./p
p class="MsoNormal""But…I hope you don't hate me… I can't exactly control how I feel you know? It was hurting me knowing that you cared so much, while also knowing that I didn't care em style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"as/em much."/p
p class="MsoNormal"I got teary eyed, and I saw him frown seeing this./p
p class="MsoNormal""For what it's worth. I really did enjoy our time together. I'm hoping you'll at least keep in touch when I leave."/p
p class="MsoNormal"I nodded./p
p class="MsoNormal""I'll try my best…"/p
p class="MsoNormal"He put his hands in his pockets./p
p class="MsoNormal""Right. I guess this is good-bye?"/p
p class="MsoNormal"He held out a paw, I shook it, and let go quickly. He looked at me, then at his paw, with a sad look in his eyes./p
p class="MsoNormal""Oh… em style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"sigh/em Good-bye Riley"/p
p class="MsoNormal"I nodded and gulped. I cried as I watched him walk. Walk down my driveway. Down, and out of my life forever./p
p class="MsoNormal" /p
p class="MsoNormal"End/p