A/N: Okay so this is my first fanfic and I've decided to make it about Meredith and Riggs. There aren't alot out there and I decided to give it a try. I welcome constructive criticism, but not from people who don't want Meredith to move on. I used to feel that way, but realistically Derek isn't coming back. I'm still a huge MerDer fan, but Meredith's gotta move on and I think Riggs is good for her to move on with. This whole story is in Meredith's POV and picks up when Riggs turned Maggie down. I hope you enjoy it, and R&R.

Disclaimer: If I owned Greys Anatomy I think i'd have more than three dollars in my wallet.

Chapter One:

When the rain is blowin in your face and the whole world is on your case

I could offer you a warm embrace

To make you feel my love.

Life has a funny way of screwing me over. Some people may call that paranoia, I call it fact. I've been hooking up with Riggs for a while now and the fear of Maggie finding out has been eating at me, and eating at me. Logically I know I hooked up with Riggs before having known Maggie liked him, but that doesn't take away from the fact that I just lied to her after promising to not lie to her anymore. It makes me feel guilty as hell, but when i'm with Riggs I don't think. He has a way of making me forget about all the drama. I don't know whether to come clean to everyone, risking losing Maggie, Amelia, and Owen. Or if I should just continue to hide it. Is Riggs worth it? Is our relationship worth it? Would he even be willing to come clean? These questions rush throughout my head on a daily basis. As if being a surgeon isn't stressful enough. Sometimes I think about ending it with Riggs, but then I think about the life I had before him. Before him I was mad at everyone who was in love, I was mad because I lost the love of my life. I lost Derek. Riggs understands though, he gets it. Which kinda sucks because if he didn't understand it would be so much easier to leave him, sadly he's great. He knows what its like to lose someone, and has no interest in rushing our relationship. Ugh.

With my alarm blaring I pull myself out of bed, and groggily walk to the bathroom. I do my usual morning routine, brush hair, brush teeth, and stuff my feelings down into a deep dark place until I ultimately go insane. As I get dressed though I look in the mirror, I see a change. A change in myself. I'm not sad, and mopey Meredith. Granted i'm not happy and bubbly, but I'm not sad. I must have been staring for a while because it took me five minutes to realize Maggie was banging on the door.

"What," I say, letting it come out little more irritable than I intended.

"Sorry," Maggie says sheepishly," I was just letting you know it's about time to go."

"Oh, okay," I respond, "I'll be out in a minute."

I finish getting ready and soon enough were on our way to the hospital with Maggie in the passenger seat, and Alex in the back.

"So..." Maggie says awkwardly.

"Yeah?" I ask.

"Riggs turned me down," she says.

"I know, so?" I question, praying to a god I didn't believe in that she didn't know about us.

"Its just, it's gonna be awkward," she whines,"I need the both of you to try to keep him away from me today at all costs."

"I don't think that'll be a problem for Mer," Alex chuckles.

"What did you say Alex?" Maggie asks.

"Yeah Alex, what did you say?" I look him dead in the eyes, angered he'd let something like that slip.

"I um, well, It's just Meredith has always been such a good avoider, i'm sure she could give you some tips," Alex stutters out.

"Really, you can give me tips?" Maggie asks eagerly.

"Oh well look at that we've reached the hospital," I say, " guess I can't give you tips today."

As we enter the hospital we rush into an elevator that's just about to close. As if things couldn't get more awkward, we were greeted with Riggs, Owen, Ameilia, Jo, and Deluca. What the hell? My life just continues to get more and more complicated. Jo and Deluca stand in the far corner trying to avoid Alex, Maggie stands in the opposite corner trying to avoid Riggs, Owen and Amelia are in the front completely oblivious, leaving Riggs and I squished together in the center.

He gives me his cocky grin.

I could just kiss that grin right off your face.

Wait, what?

"So, I guess you could say you and I are stuck together," He flirts.

"Shut up," I whisper, " Maggie is right over there, and I do not need to have her mad at me again. I just need out of this elevator." I sigh.

Just as I say those words the elevator stops.

No.

No.

NO.

"What the hell?" Owens exclaims.

"This cannot be happening," I hear Maggie mutter.

Soon enough we hear someone talk over the intercom.

"This is matenience, don't worry we're gonna get you out of there. It may be 3-4 hours however, no need to panick we're getting it taken care of."

Told you life always had a way of screwing me over.