I'm Not Ready to make Nice
I'm Not Ready to make Nice. Part One.
I don't own HSM, the Dixie Chicks.
This is a one shot song fic, but it's too long for one chapter.
(Italics are lyrics, and Bold is dialogue.)
Forgive, sounds good
Forget, I'm not sure I could
They say time heals everything
But I'm still waiting
I'm still sitting here. Like I do every chance I get, sitting out here on the balcony. Waiting, wishing, hoping, praying…begging, that you'll find your way back to me.
It's been so long, since I've lost you…and now I realize…I've never let go. I will. One day. Someday. Maybe. It's been years. Since freshman year. I remember it. It was the year I'd lost you. We'd been best friends since kindergarten, always inseparable. Joined at the hip, of course, except when Chad was around. We always found a way to hide it from him. But yeah, freshman year was when you became Troy the basketball star. The year, you started living your father's dreams instead of your own. The year, you abandoned me, like we'd never been friends.
The year I became the Ice Queen.
I'm through with doubt
There's nothing left for me to figure out
I've paid a price
And I'll keep paying
So here I am, sitting here again, just waiting for you to see me again. Waiting for you to realize that I've been trying to pull you back to me since the day you started ignoring me. Waiting for you to realize the reason I've tried so many times to break you and Gaby up. I've needed you. Terribly. I've always needed you and you always said you'd be there. but you weren't. You left. And till this day, I've almost lost hope. It wasn't until an hour ago…when your precious darling came to my door. Wanting to be friends.
I'm not ready to make nice
I'm not ready to back down
I'm still mad as hell and
I don't have time to go round and round and round
Gabriella: Sharpay, I just came by to ask you…if you would come to our graduates party, at my house after graduation Friday.
Sharpay: You think I wanna hang out with you and your wildcat pack?
Gabriella: Please Sharpay, I'm trying to be nice here. I know we've not always got along but-
Sharpay: NOT ALWAYS GOT ALONG? not ALWAYS got along? ARE YOU KIDDING ME?
Gabriella: Please don't yell at me.
Sharpay: WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO DO THEN BRAINIAC? HUG YOU AND SAY IT'S OKAY? OKAY THAT-
Well…WHAT did you expect? After all she's done. Everything she has taken from me. My friends, my only family. And well…Troy, is a whole other story.
It's too late to make it right
I probably wouldn't if I could
'Cause I'm mad as hell
Can't bring myself to do what it is you think I should
Sharpay:- YOU TOOK EVERYTHING AWAY FROM ME?
GabriellA: Don't be ridiculous?
Sharpay: Gabriella Montez, don't you EVER say that I AM ridiculous.
Gabriella: I want you to come, I want to be friends, but I will not apologize, for the actions that you cause and blame on me.
Sharpay: What?
Gabriella: You blame anyone but yourself, on the mistakes that you make. YOU are the one that pushed Ryan away.
Sharpay: You think this is about RYAN!?
Gabriella: IT couldn't be about anyone else.
Sharpay: Get this straight Montez. I will NEVER MAKE NICE WITH YOU.
I slammed my door in her face. Ran to my room, and began to cry like I have almost every night since last summer. Last summer at Lava Spring pretty much, was the end of all hope I'd had. Which wasn't much. When Troy took my hand. and then let go. it couldn't have broken me more, if he'd literally plunged his hand in my chest ripped out my heart and ripped it in half in my face while I was still alive and conscious.
I know you said
Can't you just get over it
It turned my whole world around
And I kind of like it
I'm never going to give up.
Because, I've survived, through the rumors, and the jokes. And the petty shit at East High, that would have killed any other person.
I can live with everyone hating me. And talking about me. I've survived, without a mother. AND a father. And now without Ryan. THeres no one that can hold me back from living.
I can live alone.
BUT I WILL NEVER. ever. ever, make nice. I will let go some day, but as of now. I have to make troy see. And if he doesn't…I'm off to college to start over. And in ten years when they come back…Hell. I wont. And they'll wish they still knew me. Maybe troy will see then!
I made my bed and I sleep like a baby
With no regrets and I don't mind sayin'
It's a sad sad story when a mother will teach her
Daughter that she ought to hate a perfect stranger
And how in the world can the words that I said
Send somebody so over the edge
That they'd write me a letter
Sayin' that I better shut up and sing
Or my life will be over!
And then…not but ten minutes after my little visit from Montez. My dorrbell rings again. I swear im going to punch her in the face if it's her again.
I'm not ready to make nice
I'm not ready to back down
I'm still mad as hell and
I don't have time to go round and round and round
But its not. It's Troy.
It's too late to make it right
I probably wouldn't if I could
'Cause I'm mad as hell
Can't bring myself to do what it is you think I should
Troy: Sharpay.
Sharpay: Yes Bolton?
Troy: What the hell did you say to Gaby?!
Sharpay: I told her to Get the hell outta my face. And slammed the door in her face.
Troy: Why?
Sharpay: Oh,. so I wouldn't rip her eyeballs out of her head.
Troy: What the F
Sharpay: I'm never going to be friends with her Troy.
Troy: She was just trying to be nice.
Sharpay: Okay, so im just gonna let her TRY. because frankly, she could be the nicest person in the world and I would still hate her. no offense. but you tell me why I have a reason to like her.
Troy: She's really a sweet person.
Sharpay: That doesn't mean she's worth my time.
Troy: YOU could've tried!!
Sharpay: Why? Huh? WHY? give me one reason why she deserves any compassion?
Troy: SHes a lot nicer than you are SHARPAY
Sharpay: You listen to me troy Bolton. Never in my life have I met someone, that infuriates me as much as you do. YOU DON'T EVEN SEE IT
YOU DON'T EVEN SEE HOW MUCH she's taken from me.
Troy: Taken from you?
SHARPAY: YOU TROY. She took you from me. Sure, I'd lost you before but she just drove the car over the edge.
Troy: Wha…
At this point I'm in tears. Near Histeria, and im running towards him grabbing his collar with an emotion i cant even pinpoint.
Sharpay: HOW COULD YOU NOT SEE BY NOW? ever since freshman year I've been trying to pull you back to me. AND SHE took you from me. WE WERE BEST FRIENDS. And then BASKETBALL, and GABRIELLA. You've totally forgotten me. and everything we were. So don't you ever come here, and say that you don't know why I hate your sweet precious girlfriend. Would you make nice to someone who made you the Ice Bitch of East High?
I'm not ready to make nice
I'm not ready to back down
I'm still mad as hell and
I don't have time to go round and round and round
It's too late to make it right
I probably wouldn't if I could
'Cause I'm mad as hell
Can't bring myself to do what it is you think I should
Troy: I….I….
SharpaY: You what Troy? You don't know what to say? You're completely in shock, that Sharpay Evans.. has only given up everything she has, to try…and hold on to you?
Troy: I'm…
Sharpay: Speechless?
He just stood there. At this point I felt the tears on my cheeks, but I knew they'd stopped. I was going back into my shell. That I've builded around me to protect me from those like him. Who would abandon me.
Troy: Sharpay.
Sharpay: Get out.
All he could possibly do to make it okay, is get out. He's never going to see. This is the end.
Troy: Forget?
Sharpay: Sounds good.
Troy: Forgive?
Sharpay: I'm not sure I could.
I see him drop his head.
Sharpay: They say..time heals everything.
And he looks at me. Terrified of what I will say.And sorry, and begging at the same time.
Sharpay: But I'm still waiting.
SO what did ya think? I was going to finish it in another chapter. but...im thinking this is a good alternate ending.
if you want it. just say so. i'd be happy to write the original ending.
review. lots of love- fanpire.