I fell in love with you. That is my biggest regret.
Love; a feeling of passion and affection. An emotion that brings out the best or the worst in everyone. A possesive emotion that may be one-sided or mutual.
The love I feel is one sided, and will not be mutual. I don't expect to receive the same love from you. How could you not see it? I love you, I tell you, but you don't think of it the way I want you to. You reply with those same three words, but they do not have the same meaning.
As the day goes on you look into my eyes to notice something is wrong. You ask, try to comfort. I push you away, I don't want your fake comfort, I don't want your fake love for me. You look at me with discouraged eyes then whisper my name. To hear my name spoken by you makes my soul flutter, but it hurts me all the same.
"Kaoru.." You whisper, using that same voice used for our "brotherly love act", trying to get me to tell you what is wrong. You are what's wrong, I can't have you. You love her, I don't. I love you, you don't.
I continue to push away until you give up. You sigh, and I look at you with hurtful eyes. I'm not good at hiding it, but what's sad is the fact you don't know what I'm hiding. You can't figure it out, and as long as you try to understand, I won't let you.
You look at me with those eyes that tell me to not push you any farther away, but you don't realize, I barely push you. You were the one who put me here, and that's where I'll stay until the day comes that I can live without you, Hikaru.
A/N: Yeah, here's a fic for angst. :D It's short too, which makes me happy. Yay! Don't ask, I'll only say, "Read my other author's notes, or my profile." ;)