OK so I'm testing the waters out on a James/Lily fic. I hope It goes well, but I guess you reader's will be the judge of that. So Yeah, have fun and enjoy, oh and there's this little button that you click at the bottom of the screen that takes you to a magical pop up called review. You should try it.

Disclaimer: I am not J.K. Rowlling therefore I don't own any of this.

Also, I know that it is never mentioned in the books who Lily's friends are, or that she was friends with molly and Tonk's and people like that, but for the sake of the story, they will be.

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P.S. This is an updated version of the original chapter.

Memories Just Lead To Hell.

Chapter 1

I remember her voice ringing through my ears as if it weren't a few years ago. My own sister called me a freak.

"Lily, don't play with the freak," I remember her calling, "If you play with Severus then your a freak too!"

So I didn't know what to do but just stand there. I was so young. Was I supossed to go and play with my sister, or my best friend. I looked down at a deadend flower and picked it up. I watched as it came to life in my hands, and remembered why I would asways pick Sev. He helped me discover that I was a witch. One will never forget a friend whom helped them discover who they were.

"You're such a freak Lily," Petunia's shrill voice hung in the air as she ran away. "I don't think your a freak," Severus' comforting voice spoke, "And your parents don't think you are either, so don't listen to her.' Snape always knew the right things to say to me. I remember walking over to him and giving him a hug. "What house do you think I will be in Sev" I asked him as I sat down in the grass. " I guess we will find out tomorrow now won't we," He said tapping my nose. "But what if no one likes me," I whined, "I am a muggle born, they are frowned upon." "Whoever doesn't adore you is an idiot," Snape said to me. "Well I should be going in now, I need my sleep for tomorrow." I hated saying goodbye to Severus. But nevertheless, he stood up and gave me a hug and watched me as a ran inside.

I remember my first train ride too. Sev and I said goodbye to our parents and found a compartment with a girl named Molly and a boy named Arthur, though they were seventh years. We didn't talk very much besides introductions but that was fine. None of knew what to say either. Molly however broke the ice. "So I have a bit of a big family, I'm cousins with Bellatix, Narcissa, Regulus, and Sirius Black. As well as Nymphadora Tonks, but she goes by Tonks, however she won't come to Hogwarts for another year."

"And you're good cousin's with them," Severus asked. "Oh I don't like Bellatrix, plus Narcissa and Regulus are great to get along with, but they don't always have minds of there owns, they follow Bell Bell like lost puppies. Tonks and Sirius are great people, if they weren't my cousins they would be my best friends anyway." "Noted," I said just as a boy with mop hair, and a boy with hair down to his shoulder's came in.

"Molly I finally found you," the boy with long hair said. "Hi Sirius, I was just telling Lily and Severus about you," Molly said. "Wow Sirius look," The boy with mopped hair said, "I never thought there would be three gingers in one room." Sirius began laughing but Severus interupted. "Sod off Potter."

"Oh don't get your pants in a wod Snape," The boy named Potter said. "Well Molly," Sirius said, "I was just wanted to make sure I could find you, so bye now." And with that him, and Potter were out of the compartment.

"So who was that," I asked.

"James Potter," Arthur said. "He is a spoilled jerk," Sev started to say, "My mother works for his father on the Prophet. The Potter's are very rich; James grandmother was a Peverell, they are the oldest known pureblood family."

"I see," I said to Snape.

I remember getting into Gryffindor and Sitting next to Sirius, who was sitting next to Arthur. Sirius was in Gryffindor as well. His brother and cousins all got Slitherin. A Boy named Frank LongBottom joined us as everyone laughed at him, and then a boy called Remus joined us as well. He sat next to Sirius and gave him a high five. Soon a girl named Alice Madden was with us and just after her a boy with the last name of Malfoy went into slitherin too.

Then we saw a rat-ish looking boy called Peter get called to the stool; he looked really whimmpy. He was sorted into Gryffindor too, who knows why, I thought he looked like a Hufflepuff. Then I remember Hearing his name. "Potter, James," Proffesor McGonagal said. He Pridefully walked up to the stoll and before the hat even touched his head the Hat bellowed GRYFFINDOR.

After about three more people were sorted, I was excited to see Sev finally go to the stool. He was sitting there for almost five minutes before the hat simply said Slitherin. I was devistated. For the rest of my first night though I decided that I would try to make knew friends. However James made it impossible. He would not stop flirting with me. I had finally pinched him and told him to sod off. I felt accomplished when Severus had a smile on his face.

My fith year was weird. Frank finally asked Alice out, it was a non stop snog fest. I (agaisnt my better judgement) felt lonely and finally let Severus kiss me, but it didn't turn out right, and I knew how much he cared for me so I told him straight up I couldn't let him date me and we had to be frinds.

James Potter and his group of Sirius, Remus, and Peter, who call themselves the Maraurders, made a pretty neat map that could only be opened by a certain code that I have yet to find out. I also happen to know that Remus is a werewolf, I actually came up with the idea of the other three becoming animagi, and take him to the Shrieking shack, but no, I have never once been given credit for that, not even James has given me credit.

I mean I remember all the hurtful things he has done to Severus and to me over the years yet I still know he has a huge crush on me. So I thought he would have given me credit, but I guess that ass got the better of him.

But one day the boys decided to torture poor Severus and it turned out for the worst. He said he didn't need help from a mudblood. I ran away from him and everyone else. I was told that Potter beat the crap out of him later that night. That was the first and only time I felt anything other then hatred for Potter.

My sixth year was okay. Pretty much my friends that year were Alice, Frank, somewhat the Maraurders, Hestia Jones, Amos Diggory, Amelia Bones, and John Clearwater.

Snape was always kind to me during our time apart, but then that summer I knew I had to forgive him.

So at the moment my life is filled with pissed-off-ness. And I could hear Severus sneaking up behind me, but I let him anyway.

I felt both of his arms snake around me and pull me back before I could even pretend to scream. "Severus Snape what have I told you about sneaking up on me," I yelled trying to sound scared. "That it doesn't work on you," Sev said pulling my red hair away from my neck, "I knew you knew I was coming Lily." He turned me around and we gave eachother a nice warm embrace. Even if he was in slitherin, he still knew how to make someone feel comforted.

"So what we you thinking about," Snape asked me. "How my memories are just bringing me to hell," I said.

"What did Potter do this time," Sev asked me. I just handed him my Hogwarts letter. He took it carefully in his hands. I pushed his black hair out of his eyes so he could read my letter.

I knew he read it through the second his jaw dropped. "I knew you would be head girl," he started, "But I never expected him to be head boy." "I know Sev," I began, "And to make matter's worse, I got another letter from Dumbledore today asking for me to please sit with him on the train by our selves to 'bond as head boy and girl', I already have to share a dorm with him."

Severus had been right though. I had been the perfect student example my whole Hogwarts life. I never got anything lower then and O ever! I had been a Prefect in my fith and sixth year and had expected to be head girl. I mean there were alot of other prefects besides me and him. I mean I actually thought Remus or Frank would be head boy.

"Lily," Severus said pulling me out of my thoughts, "Come on we leave for our last year of Hogwarts tomorrow. Lets spend today in happieness OK." I agreed just as I heard Snape mutter accio nimbus. Severus' mother bought it for him for his seventeenth birthday. He told me it was the newest broomstick technology of our generation. I had flown on an old clean sweap before but never a nimbus. Just as I was thinking that, Severus pulled me on and took off.

I held on to Severus tighly and I could tell he was enjoying it, in every way possible. He flew me over our special pond and we flew through the trees surrounding it. We were probably flying for about three hours when we finally landed in his backyard. I hugged Sev, and we only broke apart because of my sister. "Lily, where have you been you freak," her shrill voice spoke out, "Come on mum and Dad said they want to take us out to dinner to celebrate your freakness, I mean appointment of being 'Head Girl.'" "Thanks for the great day Sev," I said giving him another hug then apparating into my house and falling onto Petunia while doing so. "God Lily just because you are aloud to do magic now doesn't mean you have to whip your wand out for everything," (author's note, sound familiar?) Petunia screamed at me stalking up the stairs.

"There she is," My father said giving me a lung crushing hug. "Our daughgter the Head Girl of Hogwarts," My mother said joining in on the hug fest. "Yeah and this head girl needs air," I said, however it was just barely audible. "Come now Lily we are taking to Krislis for your heading off dinner," my father said to me leading me to the car. Krislis was this polish restaurant that opened up on one of the main street's of london.

So my family, including a very upset Petunia, all drove off to London for dinner.

When we got there I saw a whale, I mean my sister's fiance, waiting in the parking lot. "I hope you don' t mind, but I invited him so your sister wouldn't be all moody for the night," my mother said to me. The Host happened to be a boy I knew from school. His name was John Clearwater and he was in Ravenclaw,he was a good friend. "Oh hello Lily and the Evans family, nice to see you," John said in a kind host like tone. "Nice to see you too John," I said, "How have you spent your holiday." "Oh I've been good, mainly at my girls place or working here," he said taking five menus out, "If you follow me I will show you to your seats."

My family followed John to a nice booth and I sat next to my father with my sister and mother on the other side, and Vernon took grabbed a chair and put it at the end of the table. "Well I'll see you on the train tomorrow Lily," John said. "Yes I will make sure to say hello, have a good rest of the evening," I told him. And with that a waitress came over and put our glasses of water on the table.

Our dinner was amazing and we mainly talked about my last year as a hogwarts student. Well me, my mom, and father anyway talked. Petunia and Vernon just ate her food and said nothing but a grunt every now and then. After our dinner was finished and the bill was paid we all went back home and said our good nights, and bye good night I mean watching Vernon suck my sisters faces of. EW

"Well Lilykins," my dad said, "I will see my lovly flower in the morning." "Goodnight dad," I said giving him a hug before walking into my bedroom. I stripped out of my clothing and through on a pair of boxers Remus gave me for my birthday last year, my favorite muggle band was on them. Remus and I both loved the Beatles. We could sing "Hey Jude" or "Love Me Do" 'til the cows came home. I then through on an old shirt of Sev's that I stole from him, but he still doesn't know I have it, I don't think he would mind.

Just as I was crawling into bed I heard a pop and knew someone had just apparated into my room. "Good evening my Lily flower," I heard his voice come out. "James what are you doing hear, I thought we established that I DON'T like you," I said in a very irritated tone. "You see my Lily," James said in an awful seductive tone, "I just found out that my Lily will be Head Girl with me and I just had to see her."

"Oh will you just leave me alone please," I pleaded.

"Fine, but only if you kiss me," James said with a spark in his eye.

"Fine," I said in an irritated tone.

"Really" James said as his shocked tone matched his shocked face.

I stood up and saw James close his eyes. I slowly grabbed his hand in mine and lifted it to my lips and pressed them against his fingertips. My lips left his fingers just as fast at the got to them. As James felt the contact he opened his eyes with a pained expression.

"I thought I was getting a kiss," James said a little let down.

"And you did," I said, "You never said where the kiss had to be."

"Tuche Evans," James began, "Tuche."

And true to his word, James was gone.

I was not a morning person, ever, expecialy since there was a thunder storm last night. I am pathetic when it came to storms. I had to go into my parents room and have them hold me until it stopped. Therefore, lastnight, no sleep, at all. What mainly kept me up however was the thought that I now have to spend ever night starting tonight in a dorm with just me and James, yeah not happy about that. So I slowly made my way to the kitchen and made some eggs, bacon and toast. Just then an owl came in and dropped a letter on my plate then flew out. I opened it and saw a single sentence.

I await our first night together my Lily Flower

~James

All I could do was roll my eyes and throw the note into my bag. I went back upstairs, threw on something to wear and put my hair into a ginger braid. I grabbed my trunk and bag and tossed it into the back of our car. My mother came downstairs, with my father sleepily following her, and a groggy Petunia followed him.

We all got in the car and headed to Kings Cross Station. The car ride was quite and my family, besides Petunia was upset that I wasn't sure if I'd be home for Christmas holiday this year. I was going to wait until it got closer to the holiday to see what I would do for the break. And by the time we got to platforms between nine and ten my mother was in tears. "Write to me once a week, no once a day," she said through sobs. My father gave me a teary hug and told me good luck. And I got a very light hug from Petuinia.

I then watched as my family walked away. I turned around to find that some randon muggle was just leaning against the barrier. It was kinda hard to run straight into something and not scare the shit out of whoever was in the way. I had to go covert ops. I walked carefully up to the barrier and made it look like I was leaning too. Then when no one was looking I fell back pulling my cart with me.

I was accpecting to fall onto the ground, but I was reluctant to find that someone caught me. "Need a little help there," I heard Sev say to me. "Yeah Thanks Sev," I said. "Let me get that," Severus then took my cart and put it in the designated area.

"So I say we go and find your stupid head boy/girl compartment," Sev said a little upset. "Hey you know that if it were up to me I would be with you, Alice and Frank, Amelia, John, Amos, and Hestia." "Yeah, Yeah," Sev said, "I know."

We borded the train with out another word and had a wordless walk to my compartment. I gave Severus a hug and walked in.

So there you have it. Chapter one is FIN. I hoped you liked it and remember the magical button of review at the bottom of the screen. Please give me your thoughts and ideas thanks a million!

Oh and ps

I know Tonks is like a lot younger and so many people are just not mentioned as friends, also the maiden names aren't mentioned, so for the sake of the story I have changed things for the better.

And also I know in my original chapter one Molly Weasley was supposed to be good friends with Lily, but then I realized that if they were the same age then she would have had Bill in her first year.

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