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Lost Then Found

Olivia sat at her desk in the one six precinct where she had worked for the last nine years, staring at her partner turned lover, Elliot stabler. They started dating seven years ago after his marriage to Kathy fell Apart. Elliot and Kathy divorced the year before after he had spend a night out with the boys, he spent it telling fin and munch just how much he loved his partner. How much he was in love with his partner and couldn't live without her in his life and telling her that he was in love with her. She had to know, she had a right to tell her, right. He needed to tell her. That night Elliot went home trying to find the best way to tell his wife it was over, that was not fair on her, him or the kids to stay in a marriage with no love when he was in love with someone else. He was in love with Olivia, his partner, his Olivia. With that in mind he spent what he hoped would be his last night on the couch.

Flash back…

Elliot woke up the morning after his night out with the lads on the couch that had become his new bed. He laid there for about 30 minutes just staring up at the ceiling before getting up and making his way up the stairs to her room his wife was in. he opened the door and just stood there watching her get ready for work. He felt nothing no butterflies, no heart pounding no nothing. He tried to pinpoint when things had gone south for them. When he couldn't he moved in from the door frame, still watching her intently before speaking.

" Kathy we need to talk"

Kathy looked at him for a second before replying "okay what's wrong"

He felt bad for doing this but he knew after his confession last night it had to be done he couldn't live this lie anymore. He moved closer to her took her hands in his took a deep breath and said " we haven't been doing so well lately all we do is fight, yell and scream at one another and the kids never know what's going to happen from day to day with you and me. The love we had for each other when we first started dating isn't there anymore and we both know that, maybe we never was in love not really. We got married because we were careless and got pregnant. I'm not saying I regret it cos I don't I love all my kids with everything I am but you and me aren't working anymore we haven't been for awhile" he stopped and looked into Kathy's eyes and knew that she knew what he was saying was the truth but her also knew she wasn't going to give up without a fight especially when he told her the reason why. He took a deep breath and whispered " I want a divorce"

Kathy feeling her anger, the hurt and guilt looked in to his eyes and without him saying anything she asked him "how long?"

"how long what?"

"how long have you been fucking that slut partner of your?… do you really think I'm going to let you walk out on the kids, this family me, so you can go climb into bed with that little bitch, who is probably sleeping her way through the whole of new york!"

Elliot, gob smacked that Kathy had just said that felt the anger boiling inside of his. Turned to his so to be ex and with what could be past by as hate and a growl said " don't ever say that about liv ever again, we have never slept together Kathy! She would never do that, I would never do that, yes I care about her, have feeling for her and YES I am in love with her but nothing has ever happened between us and YOU KNOW THAT! God Kathy I don't even know if she feels the same way but I know I can not and will not continue to live a lie!"

With that he stormed out the room down the stair and out of the house.

Six months later he and Kathy had gotten the divorce. The kids understood and all agreed that it was the best thing for everyone involved. Maureen even told him that he now had permission to go follow his heart and get the woman he had been in love with for years. And that's exactly what he did.

End of flash back…

As Elliot sat at his desk remembering that memory he smiled to himself because he knew he had made the right choice, now he was with the woman he loved with everything he has. Now here they were 7 years on more in love than they ever thought possible. In the begging things were tough for them. Olivia had never had love like this so it was hard for her to accept but as time went on she started to relax into it. She found it hard to let him get close to the only other person in her live that meant everything to her except him, Libby. Libby was a sweet little 8 year old who was Olivia's world and she would do anything to protect her. She never wanted her to see or feel the pain that she had so she did everything in her power to shelter Libby from the cruelty of the world. Elliot had met Libby and he loved her and she loved him he was the closet thing she had ever had to a father. This scared Olivia more than anything cos she knew if things didn't work out is wasn't just her heart that would be broken.

But that never happened they were happy, the three of them together. that's was until one fateful night in February that turned everyone's life involved upside and left Olivia feeling lost and alone. A feeling that no one including Elliot could take away…

To be continued.

What happened why does Olivia feel lost and alone, and why cant Elliot or the rest of the squad make her feel whole again… find out in the next chapter. if you want it let me no. this is my first story ever so be kind please - xox