Song is by Evanescence.
My Immortal
Sean opened the bottle and poured another shot.
He hoped that if he continued drinking he would be passed out by the time his lover, Kevin Nash, was gone.
He could hear him packing his suitcase but this time he knew it would be for longer than the three days they were usually apart. This time he wouldn't be coming back. Just this thought tore the young wrestler apart.
~I'm so tired of being here. ~Suppressed by all my childish fears ~And if you have to leave ~I wish that you would just leave ~Because your presence still lingers here ~And it won't leave me alone.
Why did they have to fight again? Why did he say what he did? He didn't mean any of it. He just let his emotions get away from him and things had a tendency to get out of hand.
Deep inside the only person he could think to blame was himself no matter what Kevin said.
~These wounds won't seem to heal ~This pain is just too real ~There is just too much that time cannot erase
They had been through so much together over the last three years since they met. Sean couldn't help but feel like a part of his heart was lost with every item packed in Kevin's bags.
~When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears ~When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears ~And I've held your hand through all of theses years ~But you still have all of me
It was so much easier back then. They had met while in the now defunct WCW. Within the first six months they had moved in together and were the happiest they had ever been. Now being in WWE on different rosters and both their characters seeming to be going nowhere it had begun to put a strain on their relationship.
~You used to captivate me ~By your resonating light ~Now I'm bound by the life you left behind ~Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams ~Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me
At first it was just little things like not wanting to have sex every night they were both home, then the fights started. About anything and everything. Because they were both big and aggressive men, violence was usually mixed into the situation.
~These wounds won't seem to heal ~This pain is just too real ~There's just too much that time cannot erase
But this time there was no apologies, no promises not to do it again. There was just the statement Sean never wanted to hear.
He just wanted to them to be together forever.
~When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears ~When you'd scream I'd fight away all of fears ~And I've held your through all of these years ~But you still have all of me
Sean knew he was fooling himself thinking that it would work. In reality he was surprised that it had lasted as long as they had.
Kevin was right. They were completely different people.
~I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone ~And though you're still with me ~I've been alone all along
The burley man entering the kitchen brought him out of his thoughts.
Sean just looked down at his bottle, it must have taken him quicker than expected to pack.
He saw Kevin open his mouth to speak, to say goodbye, but quickly closed it.
He bent down and kissed his forehead then left.
Once he was gone Sean let the tears he had held in flow freely.
The one thing he wished in the world was for Kevin to come back through the door, wrap his arms around his, kiss him and tell him that all was forgiven. For him to give him back his heart and soul.
~When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears ~When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears ~And I've held your hand through all of these years ~But you still have of me ~All of me ~All of me ~All of me
Sean picked up the half full bottle and walked into the now lonely bedroom.
My Immortal
Sean opened the bottle and poured another shot.
He hoped that if he continued drinking he would be passed out by the time his lover, Kevin Nash, was gone.
He could hear him packing his suitcase but this time he knew it would be for longer than the three days they were usually apart. This time he wouldn't be coming back. Just this thought tore the young wrestler apart.
~I'm so tired of being here. ~Suppressed by all my childish fears ~And if you have to leave ~I wish that you would just leave ~Because your presence still lingers here ~And it won't leave me alone.
Why did they have to fight again? Why did he say what he did? He didn't mean any of it. He just let his emotions get away from him and things had a tendency to get out of hand.
Deep inside the only person he could think to blame was himself no matter what Kevin said.
~These wounds won't seem to heal ~This pain is just too real ~There is just too much that time cannot erase
They had been through so much together over the last three years since they met. Sean couldn't help but feel like a part of his heart was lost with every item packed in Kevin's bags.
~When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears ~When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears ~And I've held your hand through all of theses years ~But you still have all of me
It was so much easier back then. They had met while in the now defunct WCW. Within the first six months they had moved in together and were the happiest they had ever been. Now being in WWE on different rosters and both their characters seeming to be going nowhere it had begun to put a strain on their relationship.
~You used to captivate me ~By your resonating light ~Now I'm bound by the life you left behind ~Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams ~Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me
At first it was just little things like not wanting to have sex every night they were both home, then the fights started. About anything and everything. Because they were both big and aggressive men, violence was usually mixed into the situation.
~These wounds won't seem to heal ~This pain is just too real ~There's just too much that time cannot erase
But this time there was no apologies, no promises not to do it again. There was just the statement Sean never wanted to hear.
He just wanted to them to be together forever.
~When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears ~When you'd scream I'd fight away all of fears ~And I've held your through all of these years ~But you still have all of me
Sean knew he was fooling himself thinking that it would work. In reality he was surprised that it had lasted as long as they had.
Kevin was right. They were completely different people.
~I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone ~And though you're still with me ~I've been alone all along
The burley man entering the kitchen brought him out of his thoughts.
Sean just looked down at his bottle, it must have taken him quicker than expected to pack.
He saw Kevin open his mouth to speak, to say goodbye, but quickly closed it.
He bent down and kissed his forehead then left.
Once he was gone Sean let the tears he had held in flow freely.
The one thing he wished in the world was for Kevin to come back through the door, wrap his arms around his, kiss him and tell him that all was forgiven. For him to give him back his heart and soul.
~When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears ~When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears ~And I've held your hand through all of these years ~But you still have of me ~All of me ~All of me ~All of me
Sean picked up the half full bottle and walked into the now lonely bedroom.