The Way Down

by AppleCiderr

Izaya has been trapped in an abusive relationship for years, completely controlled, and completely lost as to what his feelings truly are. With no way out, he continues to suffer, until certain people start to take notice. Izaya's been trapped for so long, so deep he can no longer see the light. Can he be saved before he loses his grip on the surface, or has he already drowned?

He loves me, I know he does.

We've been together for so long, we've been dedicated for so long.

I've given everything to him.

He's stayed with me, even though I'm not worth his time.

I know that because he told me

I know it's true because he told me.

He loves me, so I know it's true

He means well.. I know he does

He raises his hand above his head

But it's because I deserve it

I know that because he told me.

He may leave for a long time, but he always comes back

Sometimes he just needs a break from my incompetence.

But I try so hard..

I listen to what he says

I follow his orders

I love him despite my own faults

Why is it never enough?

Is it because I'm not good enough?

That's what he told me..

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It hurts a lot, but I deserve it.

I should be better for him

I'm nothing compared to him

I don't deserve him, I don't deserve anything

I don't deserve to be alive

I'm a demon who should just die, the world would be so much better.

I know that because he told me.

I know it sounds bad.. But he means well

He has to..

HE HAS TO!

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He loves me.. He has to.

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Because I can't survive without him..