These words are lost among the thresholds of time.
It is so complex that even I don't understand how I can remember something made of light that was thrust into the dark.
This…. memory….. this…. feeling, I thought that I had lost long ago.
Something so beautiful that seemingly looked like the works of a master craftsman was shattered at its apex.
Over and over, these thoughts give no remedy to the hole in my heart.
I still hear them calling me a monster, abomination, traitor, and a murderer.
Is it by my hand? That I have destroyed their peace?
What was I once before?
Is my integrity, strong? Is my courage unwaverable? How is my will, still unfathomable?
My mind is hopelessly lost as I try to recall the amount of days, countless weeks, months, years, and even eons that have passed in seconds.
What do I wait for? What reason do I remain determined?
There are no tears upon my face as I breathe the cold air.
Amongst all this I have protected a light that lies within my shattered heart.
I feel it's warmth and I know it's worth.
For it holds a memory that is worth fighting for.
It seems so unrealistic the way that it all happened.
For whatever reason there were tears in her eyes as she spoke softly. "Promise me Azureus, that in the final hour, when the only light turns to dark and when the final spark of hope dies out. That you will never give up and without a doubt, you will never give in."
I only answered her with a smile as I gently wiped her tears away.
If this is what I fight for, then I will never let go.
Through the journey and the sacrifices that had to be made, I now know this.
I have become the monster that we swore to protect ourselves from.
For I am…
The Harbinger.
Alas, through the years that I have been away a single name has crossed my mind.
Nightshade.
A.N.- I re wrote this because I felt that it needed some changes and that a major effort was left out. I believe this new chapter is stronger than the last one. Please enjoy- Harb1nger1