The Life of Santana Clarington-Smythe or Musings and events in the life of Santana Clarington-Smythe

A/N: This was just an idea that began floating around in my head and it just begged to be put down in a word document. It's different than something that I would normally think of, and I think that's why it made me so inclined to write it.

I didn't expect to fall in love with two people at the same time, especially when those people were male, but I'm glad that I did.

It all began at that fateful sectionals. The warblers totally deserved their win; they killed it. I remember that during "Whistle," I was thinking, new guy is hot. Then it changed to "Live While We're Young," and I was like Dang, Fievel is really sexy. And somewhere between then and now I met up with the two of them at the Lima Bean. I'm sure we talked for hours before planning to meet up again. During that time I found out that the new guy was Hunter Clarington, from Colorado Springs on scholarship to bring the warblers to nationals. And the smooth criminal had turned over a new leaf. We found out that the three of us actually had a lot in common, and they were co-captains of the warblers, as well as roommates.

Within the next month or two, Brittany and I were officially over. She had fallen in love and was going steady with Sam. It hurt, but we were separated, so I couldn't do anything about it. The boys helped me through it; Sebastian with his snarky comments, and Hunter with some actual advice. After that, we started to meet up whenever we could, and began having Skype "dates" Friday night, which consisted of me telling them of my college adventures of the week, Hunter telling me how much the warblers were improving and Sebastian working on a case for his debate class while adding commentary into Hunter's stories. Sebastian's debate teacher was insane, he had to have a new affirmative and negative case completed every Monday. Friday nights became the one part of the week that I looked forward to the most.

It was sometime in April when they told me that they had started dating, and that they hadn't slept with each other.

"What about being not even a bit bi-curious Hunt?" I had asked, trying to keep the hurt out of my voice.

"Well, I'm pretty sure I'm bi now," he replied.

"But only for me," Sebastian added. Hunter nodded.

I smiled. I knew that I should be happy, but I wasn't.

About a half hour after we said goodbye, I got a phone call from Sebastian.

"Hey, what's up?" I asked as casually as possible.

"What's wrong?" he asked, "that smile was so fake it wasn't even funny."

"Um, I was just surprised," I supplied.

"Mm hm," he replied, suspiciously, "If I didn't know any better, I'd think you were jealous."

"Yeah, right Fievel," I replied. I still sometimes use some my old nicknames for him out of good humor.

He paused before saying, "San, can I tell you something?"

"Anything," I replied wholeheartedly.

"You have to promise not to tell Hunt," he told me.

"Cross my heart," I replied.

"Okay." He sighed, clearly uncomfortable. "I'm not completely confident of our relationship. We haven't been dating long, but I'm just really afraid that he will leave me because he told me that I'm the only guy he's ever fallen for, and I love him with all my heart, and I just don't know if he truly feels the same way, and I have a bad history with commitment," he rushed.

"I'm sure he loves you just as much you love him," I tried to comfort him.

"But people always leave me, San, anyone I truly care for or develop feelings for. It happened with my mom, it happened with my first boyfriend, I'm just really scared." He was almost sobbing.

It surprised me how much vulnerability Sebastian was showing me. He must really trust me for him to let down all of these walls. "Seb, if I have learned anything about Hunter in these past few months, it is that he wouldn't tell you he loved you if he didn't mean it."

"Thanks, San."

"No problem, Seb. You okay now?" I asked.

"Yeah, I think so."

"Okay, call me if you need anything alright?"

"'Kay, I've got to go, Hunt'll be back soon."

"Okay, bye Seb."

"Bye San," and before I hung up, ever so quietly I heard him say "I love you."

That was the night I realized that I was bi, and possibly even straight again. I knew this because I had fallen in love with the two people who had become some of my best friends.

By the next week I had decided that I needed to keep my love a secret. It could be very hurtful to those involved if anything got out of hand. So, I watched the couple on my screen, Hunter was so freakishly happy. Sebastian was happy too. I actually saw one of those rare genuine smiles grace his features.

The second week in May was the first time that we had ever canceled one of our Skype dates. I understood though. The boys had major end of the year testing, and with it being their senior year, studying was imperative. I couldn't help but let my mind wander to my boys though. What would happen to us when they were attending college? Would I still keep in contact with them? What would happen to the blossoming romance between the two? These questions kept me up all night worrying.

I came back to Lima for summer vacation. I met up with Hunter and Sebastian several times within my first couple weeks back. I was very proud to hear that both of my boys had graduated at the top of their class.

One night, the second week in June, I found myself underneath a tree in a park, with the one and only Sebastian Smythe. I was glad to hear that I had become one of his most trusted confidants. He told me everything about his relationship with Hunter. I was actually quite shocked to find out that he had not slept with Hunter. I remember one part of the conversation quite vividly. We had been sitting in a comfortable silence, me with my back against the tree, and him lying with his head in my lap.

"San?" he asked.

"Yeah?" I replied.

"I have something that I really need to tell Hunt, but I don't quite know how he will take it," he told me.

"What did you do?" I asked him.

"I didn't sleep with anyone. I haven't slept with anyone since the beginning of the school year. I um, fell in love with somebody else—Don't get me wrong, I still love Hunt with all of my heart, it's just that there's someone else that I think I may have fallen in love with too, and I've kind of known it for a while too. I've liked this person for a long time, and I fought with them a lot before, and I really just don't know what to do because I don't want to hurt Hunt, but I don't want to keep my feelings inside either and—"

"Seb, you're ranting," I stopped him, "You need to do what you feel is best. Is this someone that Hunt knows?"

"Yes," he responded.

"How well?"

"Very well."

Do you know if has positive feelings toward this person?"

"He considers this person one of his best friends."

"Well, that could turn out to be a problem if he takes it the wrong way." He looked uneasy "But Seb, if it is truly what you feel you need to tell him, and if your relationship is as strong as what Hunter says it is, you should be able to work through it." He nodded. Gently, I added, "Will you tell me who it is?"

He stayed silent for a few minutes. I was about ready to tell him that he didn't need to tell me when I heard his reply in a barely audible whisper, "You." He sat up and faced away from me. I crawled around to face him. He was looking down. I lifted his chin with my hand and looked into his eyes; his gorgeous emerald eyes. Then I said the words I had been dying to say since that day in April.

"I love you too. You and Hunter both."

I kissed him. It was slow and soft and gentle; perfect for a first kiss.

The next day we told Hunter. It was super awkward. Neither Sebastian nor I wanted to be the one to tell him, so it all just came out in a jumble of "I love you, but I also love her and I don't want to lose either of you" and "I love both of you and I hope that this is okay and we can work it out."

Hunter stared blankly at the two of us for what seemed like an eternity before he said, "So let me get this straight. You love her, and you love him, and you both love me?" We nodded. "Good, because I love both of you so much that it hurts and I was too afraid to bring it up to either of you." I sighed in relief. Hunter brought us both in for a hug. It was the best hug that I'd ever experienced. He kissed Sebastian, the he kissed me. It was so different than the kiss with Sebastian, but in a good way.

That's how it all began. And now I find myself 10 years later in a California mansion, lying in between Sebastian Clarington-Smythe attorney-at-law and Sergeant Hunter Clarington-Smythe of the U.S. marines. And I couldn't be happier. I looked to my right and saw my beautiful Sebastian, looking so calm and peaceful in the moonlight. I don't want dawn to come and wake him. He's been working on a very difficult case and has been working late all week. I look to my left and see Hunter, our hero. He is facing away from me, but I know that he must be at peace. He's been home from active duty for a week, and we are all ecstatic that he's home. I lie here, in between my two loves, content to just be.

I feel Hunter stirring next to me. He turns over and kisses me softly before gazing at Sebastian. "He's been working so hard lately," he whispers, "I hope he will be able to get a break soon."

"Yeah, me too,' I whisper in reply, "I know he's happy you're home."

"I'm happy too; I just wish that he could be here to enjoy it for a while."

"I know, I feel the same way," I respond. He smiles.

"You know, he always looks so angelic when he's asleep. It just surprises me, seeing as he can be quite demonic to others when he's awake."

I smile in response, "He's not like that as much as he once was. You and I both know that he's changed a lot since high school."

Hunter nods as he reaches across me to stroke Sebastian's face. "I just wish that he would realize how far he's come."

Sebastian begins to stir then, yawning and rubbing his sleepy eyes.

"Hey sleeping beauty," Hunter greets him. Sebastian smiles slightly. He's always fairly quiet in the mornings. I turn to kiss his temple.

"Will you be done with this case after today?" Hunter asks quietly. Seb only nods in reply.

"Maybe we could go out for dinner and come home to watch a movie," I suggest. Seb nods again.

"We could watch Breakfast at Tiffany's or Casablanca, or maybe even both," Hunter suggests, knowing two of Seb's top favorite movies immediately.

"I love you guys," Sebastian murmurs. Hunter and I both smile at him.

Hunter responds for the both of us, "We love you too 'Bastian."

A/N: I hope you liked it! Let me know in a review. :)