Even if it breaks my heart into pieces

Disclaimer: I don't own Bleach

Prologue: Untold Feelings

Rukia's POV

The wind was cold, announcing the coming winter month. It moves gently along the deserted street of Karakura Town. Honestly, I do really love winter months. I like the way the cold breeze caress my pale cheeks that brought shiver to my bones. But today, it wasn't the cold breeze that made me feel more excited and nervous. The excitement was brought to me by a certain orange boy who happened to be my best friend. I'm going to confess about my feelings for him. I spend the whole week pondering about it before calling my Substitute Shinigami to meet me at the park without telling him why. Maybe it won't be that bad for our relationship to turn into another phase. But the problem is, would he feel the same way? I mean he's the hottest guy at school. His fan girls would do anything just to grab his precious attention. Most of all, I'm nothing compared to those girls who follow him every day. I'm small, pale, boyish, and no big boobs. Would he even find me attractive? Too bad…

But no matter what reason I gave, I always found myself falling for him even more. I…I really love him to the point that it hurt me so much, knowing that he doesn't even know about it. He means the whole world to me. I love everything about him, his unique orange hair, his height that mocked me all the time, his scowl that never leave his handsome face, his badass attitude that looks cute for him, the way he smile which was very often, the way he teased my drawing skills, the way he protects me, the way he rescue me on the execution pole, the way his amber eyes look… I felt heat rushed to my pale cheeks. I stopped myself before I say something that was out of my character. I'm a Kuchiki, I shouldn't be thinking something like that. Nii-sama would be very disappointed if ever he heard me saying something like that. But I smiled playfully, knowing Nii-sama wasn't here.

Upon reaching the park, I scanned the place for an orange boy which was not too hard to notice. But the time I laid my eyes on him, my world started to shatter; my hopes turned into ashes and flew along the now harsh wind of November. My whole body froze and felt numb, I couldn't even move my feet to run away from here. I just stand there while watching how Ichigo kissed Inoue passionately and not caring to those people who passed by. They were too absorbed to what they were doing. They looked so happy on their own little world. Without any warning tears started to fall from my violet orbs. And a very soft sob escaped my now trembling lips. For the second time in my whole life my heart broke again into thousand pieces. But today was the worst; even the tears couldn't ease the pain.

And from that moment, I felt helpless; hopeless and pathetic.

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Be gentle, this is my first fanfic! ^^