Song: What about us : By John Barrowman
Guess we been talking too long
we know what we need
separately...
I don't know what happened; it seems he's been going out more and I'm just here.
All I want is him with me, but I don't know what he wants it seems nowadays.
You say the honeymoons over
I don't wanna push
but what about us?
You told me once we had come back from our vacation, nothing would be the same.
I didn't know it was going to be like this. I don't want to push but, what now… what
About us?
It's ringing in my head
it's not what you say
it's what you have said
"that's life John"your voice still rings in my head when I asked finally about why you are acting so strange, why we haven't spent so much time together.
It's not what you're saying that hurts, it what you're not saying.
So, what about us? What about love?
What about saying that we'll never give up?
Don't want to blame ya but we're in danger
so... What about us?
I stand here, now looking into your eyes "what about us?" he goes to opens his mouth but I put my hand up. Tears sting my eyes "What about love?" he looks at me his eyes dark and sad "Randy, YOU said no matter what, we would never give up? The tears are now falling down my cheeks as he just stands there. "I don't want to blame you, but they way we are going this relationship is in danger" I take a breath and just look at him. He walks over to me warping his arms around my waist "So what about us John?
Guess we been trying too hard we misunderstood
what's good for us I'm tired emotionally inside
Night after night we fight till we cry
The fights are getting worse; he storms out as I'm crying my eyes out. I love him so much but I guess we both misunderstood what we really needed, what was good for us. As I lay there
After our fights I can feel myself grow tired, not physical anymore, emotionally. I don't know how much longer I can take his strange behavior.
I don't know what's wrong or right?
Is every word you say
what's really on your mind?
Your telling me right now that you think its time we took a break from each other, I don't understand. You say I love you but I don't know if I can believe you anymore, your words
Confuse me. Now your silent as my eyes bore into your skin, your head is hanging low and
Your fists are clenched "What's really on your mind?" I ask.
When we love... we lie
when we talk... we hide maybe I'm searching blind
I few days later we are just sitting around "I love you John" he says but I don't think you mean it, "I love you too Randy" I force a smile
"But there is something I have to tell you"I look at Randy and I gulp, I look into his eyes, those eyes I love and it feels like I don't know what I'm looking at anymore, like I'm blind.
I'm worn out
Confused
what are we to you?
What are we doing...?
"I've been seeing someone else" as soon as those words leave your mouth I feel my body tense, I feel so worn out. I look at him and I guess I look confused to him because he starts talking again, this time about Ted something about Ted.
I try to concentrate on what he's saying "Me and Ted we have something, we always did." I shake my head shocked "but what about us I ask" my voice fades as he starts to stand up "what were we to you?" I rasp out the familiar sensation of tears has appeared. "We we're everything I wanted".
What about love?
That's the one thing we never discuss
So... What about us?
"Then why are you doing this Randy?" he walks over to the door his hands tightly on the door knob. I feel like I'm drowning in memories, we were so happy, so in love. I look up at him, "What about love?" I whisper "I do love you John, just not like before"he turns the knob and I want nothing more then to just hurt him, make him feel the pain that will never leave. "We're over".