Authors note: This story takes place after the death of Spock in The Wrath of Khan. The song used is My Love by Sia
Disclaimer: As much as I wish I owned Star Trek I do not. I also do not own the song My Love by Sia
My Love
My love, leave yourself behind
Beat inside me, leave you blind
My love, you have found peace
You were searching for relief
You asked me what I thought of his solution to the Kobayashi Maru. The ultimate no-win scenario, unless you cheat death. I seemed to need to learn this the hard way, with the death of…you. I can only wonder if somehow, somewhere you found what you were looking for.
You gave it all, gave into the call
You took a chance and
You took a fall for us
"I always have been your friend." Did you being my friend cause you to die? "The needs of the many outweigh the few… or the one" I don't see how that can be true when I feel this, this emptiness. If it weren't for the fact I was still living I wouldn't even know that my heart still beat. I feel terrible thinking this, but I wish it was someone else who fixed the ship, anyone, as long as you were still here, because it was after you were gone, I realized my true feelings for you. The ones I kept locked up until, until who knows when, because I thought you would always be here; there would always be time…
You came thoughtfully, loved me faithfully
You taught me honor, you did it for me
Tonight you will sleep for good
You will wait for me my love
Even though I watched your body burn up in the atmosphere of that planet, I want to have a hope you're still around, somewhere, just waiting for me to find you. Bones is worried about me, and maybe he should be because I'm talking to someone who's not here, not anymore. Every time I walk to the bridge I expect you to be there same as ever, alive, like this was a huge got ya. And even as I tell you this I know it's not and never will be.
Now I am strong (Now I am strong)
You gave me all
You gave all you had and now I am home
The worst part is not being able to do anything about it! I have to write the reports put on a brave face. The old Captain Jim Kirk is gone, replaced by a shell of a man with a brave face, and non-existent heart. In a way he reminds me of you, and that makes it so much worse.
My love, leave yourself behind
Beat inside me, leave you blind
My love, look what you can do
I am mending, I'll be with you
Slowly though I'll come back. And spend my days sitting in a desk, yearning to be among the stars. On the outside I will be the same, but I will never forget. Never. Then, one day I won't be able to get away cheating death any longer. Do all souls go to the same place? I have to hope, because otherwise you are lost to me for eternity. Forever…
You took my hand added a plan
You gave me your heart
I asked you to dance with me
You loved honestly
Did what you could release
I know you're pleased to go
I won't relieve this love
Now I am strong (Now I am strong)
You gave me all
You gave all you had and now I am home
My love, leave yourself behind
Beat inside me, I'll be with you
One day Spock, what I would give for one more day. To tell you all the things unsaid, unspoken, hidden. I think you know though, sometimes I was sure of it, others…
I hope that you felt the same way some days I would have swore it. But you remained a mystery. You succeeded in keeping me and everyone else in the dark about your emotions. And I want to blame that logic of yours for getting killed, but I can't and won't.
I refuse to believe you're gone Spock, I cannot believe that the one person who understood me better than the entire universe is gone, I understood you too, Spock. The day we finally met again, no matter where I will tell you this: I love you.