Hi there .This is my first fic here and first attempt on RL/HG couple.

Leave a review and tell me what you think.I really like any kind of reviews either bad or good.

If there is a kind beta out there I would appreciate some help.

RL/HG couple

contains rape

first chap may be like a song fic but the others are not

violence and language also lemon.

If you are disturbed don't read.

hope you enjoy

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"when the moon climbs up high in sky

I feel so dead ,so broken,so gone

wasted away ,a pawn to all

never i did understand the meanning of those

who hate

hate the me for what they never got.For what never belonged"

The shadows were ripped and the figure of a man emerged from within them.

He walked quietly and stadily to the wooden door in the other side of the wall.

The voice that came from that room was sweet yet firm.

He knew that voice well.He had study it.All those long hours when she would speak with her friends laughing with them.

All those hours when he found himself sitting on that scarlet armchair by the fireplace speaking with his best friend

who after a a while would become that huge shagy black dog that layed near his fit.

He was not naive.He knew the woman was far from being happy.

He could smell the tears that threaten to fall.Sorrow engulfed his mind.Desperation in every breath he laid.

He had to go to her tonight.For the past five nights he would climb the two set of stairs that led to her bedroom with the will to talk to her.

With the will to make her feel safe.But his hopes would every night shater with the sound of her voice.So hurt she was.

For those five days she would not speak to anyone.But he,no he and the rest could not blame her.

"I'd rip their life given the chance for I was robbed off all I yearned

solitude now an altar to keepfrom falling apart

a need rising in me to drawn their face in blood"

He took a cautious step towards the door .The voice broke down .He knew she was crying.He had to talk to her to hold her.anything would be fine except from her

being alone.He lifted his hand and knocked the wood ever so lightly.

The seconds that passed seemed eternity.Pure torture to hm it was.

Finally the door open revealing a young lady standing there wrapped in a set of black robes.Her eyes pointing to the ground her head never rising.He knew her eyes were

red from the tears she had shed but he didn't mind he walked towards her taking her chin on his hand and lifting her face.

''How can I help you Remus"?Came her quiet voice."Are you hear to laugh at me being as stupid as crying"?Sarcasm and pain clearly visible on her saying.

"Sush "He replied pulling her closer to him into a huge hug.Her body stiffened but after a while she alloweded herself to relax.And that was his que to speak.

"Of course I'm not here to laugh at you Mione"He pulled back only as much as to look at her and hold her at the same time.Grey eyes met brown showing her the honesty she needed to know they held."Noone does.We try to find them and we all want a piece Mione.But please stop crying.There is nothing we can do to change what happened.And there is no need for tears"

She backed away ,escaping from his arms and turned her back on him fixing her eyes on a portrait on the far end of the room.

"No Remus nothing can change anything.Those two mother fuckers ruined my life.''She said after a while.Tears begun to fight for a way out again.

"There is that guy Remus whom I trully like and love and wanted to give everything to but now he can't have the whole of me."

Remus felt his heart tighten.So there was a guy.What have he been thinking.She would never like him.A man twice her age and warewolf non the less.

"If he is worth Mione he will understand.And you can give him the whole of you.Some blood doesn't make the difference.You didn't want what happened.Maybe your body

was robbed of a virginity but your spirit and heart didn't."He concluded.Hurt and anger ,range for that man she loved no matter who he was begun to build in him.

"Oh,Remus,you never saw her eyes .Her eyes while he was on top of me hitting me and ,and having his way"She was sobbing now.She had cawled to her bedd and curled up.Remus followed her and wrapped his arms around her small frame strocking her hair ever so gently.He wanted to speak to her to prevent the memories to return.

But he knew she had to let everything out to calm down and face the facts.

"She said that she enjoyed it and she did Remus she did.She was laughing and saying that the wolf would never accept an unpure mate."She was shaking harder by now.

'So he is a werewolf'Remus thought.

"She is wrong Mione.The wolf woud never have an upure mate but that is an exception.That wasn't consesual no matter if the act happened.But who is he?Why Tonks got so worked up and did you this"?How the hell could he have asked a thing like this?She would kick him out an she would be damn right to do so.He had no authority to ask her such a personal thing.

His thoughts were cutted when her voice hit him like a hex on the chest

"You"

He stood there holding her totally blakened out.After ten or so minutes he overcomed the shock got off the bed and crossed all the distance to the doorway.Before leaving he turned and locked his gaze with those beautiful brown eyes.

"Tonks and Percy are so fucked up.So dead .I promise that love"

with that he stormed out of the room leaving a stunned Hermione lying on the bed.

Before succubing to exaustion and let sleep carry her away she heard his voice:

"Weasleys all up,Sirous,Harry get your asses down here we will find them NOW."

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Hope you liked it at least a bit.feel free to tell me what you thing either way.

The song part kind of sucks but anyway.I wrote that twoyears ago to perform with my band

but it fits in the fic just fine to discribe what she feels

Well Tonks and Percy did a mess next chapie will be heaven for me to write

see ya!

xxx