A.N. Chapter 1 Hope you like it, let me know what you think in the reviews.
Album- Illuminate by Shawn Mendes
Song - There's nothing holdin' me back
Disclaimer - Characters belong to the amazing Cassie Clare.
My eyes flitted from my date in all honesty I couldn't remember her name or whether she had introduced herself or just attached herself to my body. I could tell from the way she slid her hands down my arm she wanted more, batting her eyelashes she continued to drabble on talking about how much fun she could be if I would just let her in.
Looking up from my beer I allowed my eyes to skim the girls form she was probably a little older than me, fresh out of college maybe. Not that it mattered I knew what she wanted. Her hair was a clearly dyed blonde though she clearly didn't stray far from the stereotypes. Her dress was so tight the stitching might burst if she even allowed herself to move just a little out of place. She rested her head on my shoulder leaning into I shrugged her off despite her protests earning an amused smile from the bartender clearly enjoying my irritation.
It wasn't often I turned down a girl, not that they ever had my full attention. But tonight, felt different I just couldn't find the patience to deal with her but despite the fact she'd left what was almost a print of her face on my shoulder from her make up, it wasn't all her, she was a pretty girl, hot even but I couldn't shake the feeling that there was something better coming, someone better.
Pushing her away yet again, I waved over the bartender ready to order something a little stronger having been left by magnus and Alec so they could spend their evening in a room full of drunk and horny people doing what they called 'dancing'.
"You look a little out of it, finally growing up a little?" Izzy's words pulled me out of my thoughts. I don't see how she can scold me were exactly the same it's a proven point relationships don't work. Well unless your Alec and Magnus, they seem to be doing just fine from what I can see in the corner of the club.
I let out a light chuckle before responding "right, because we're so different" an amused smile played on her lips at that, obviously knowing something I don't.
"I met someone" my eyebrows shot up at this, taking another sip of my whiskey before turning to her once again, waiting for an explanation.
"Simon Lewis, he's perfect geeky and nerdy in all the right ways" she giggled at that rolling her eyes at my confusion.
"Rat boy?" I couldn't believe that she Isabelle Lightwood was dating rat boy, Simon Lewis. She glared at this making me chuckle yet again.
"Don't call him that!" she breathed frustrated, I didn't really mind who she dated, that was more Alec's business than mine. I was the one who dealt with the aftermath I was the one who hit the first guy that broke her heart, she can date who she wants as long as he doesn't hurt her, if he does then we'll have a problem.
I wasn't worried Simon Lewis wouldn't break her heart if anything she'd crush him. Whether he had good intentions or not she was perfectly capable of looking after herself.
I responded with a "We'll see" looking back down at my now half empty drink.
She just huffed and mumbled that he was here and that she was going to see him.
I watched her go her eyes never leaving 'rat boy' a small smile played on my lips, maybe she had found 'someone'.
Watching her go a flash of red caught my eye, pulling me to her.
I wanna follow where she goes
I stood from my stool downing what was left of my drink, pushing the girl away. The red haired girl moved perfectly across the room ignoring all eyes on her, she was closed off in her own little world. I couldn't help but follow her every move.
I think about her and she knows it
I caught her eyes from across the room, like emeralds attracting a jeweller. A coy smile played on her lips, her cheeks heated with a bush to match her fiery hair. I couldn't help the smirk that pulled on my lips as her eyes flickered between me and the floor, as though she was having an internal debate.
Her smile faltered her eyes closing as she took in a deep breath looking down at the floor then at me. Her face was angelic her white dress shone under the lights she blurred in and out like a figment of my imagination. My eyes raked her slender form, everything about her was pulling me in.
I had to speak to her, get her out my system. Her presence seemed to be clouding my head all these girls and all I could see was her. Her eyes watch as I move closer seemingly following my every step, waiting for me to get closer.
I wanna let her take control
I'm barely four feet away and she has complete control of my body. The feeling is completely foreign I've always been in control, I don't let my guard down, you don't need to let them in to have a good time.
I can't help but step closer as she runs her hands through her hair setting it free like a wildfire, biting her lips and looking down she shies away. She takes a swig of her drink before placing it on a nearby table. Her emerald eyes connect with mine and my whole world and I know I'm going to take it slow, I'm for once going to let her take control.
'Cause everytime that she gets close, yeah
Her confidence growing, she steps closer, my pulse rockets with every step. I can see her full form now. Her tiny body moves perfectly with the music her skin drowning in her vibrant hair. With a smile I take a step closer. Her eyes light up as she goes to step closer only to stumble forward. Her tiny hands hold on to my arm to avoid falling as though she were holding on to the wardrobe from titanic. My whole-body lights like lightening to her touch.
She pulls me in enough to keep me guessing
She pulls me into dance but unlike other girls she pulls me in just enough for us to be dancing together but that were barely touching. She plays it slow our bodies moving without a spoken word. Her skin brushes against mine, setting my skin on fire. She pulls me in a little closer her hand running down my arm. I need to get closer, I need to know her body. But she pulls me just enough to keep me guessing.
And maybe I should stop and start confessing
I'm the first to break our silence, "I should confess, I've never been so drawn to a girl as I was you." I immediately regretted my forwardness as her face twisted in shock. I lowered my head ready to walk away. I've never felt this reserved with a girl, it was all new territory I have no idea what I'm doing, I was holding back, and I don't know why.
Before I can turn away she grabs my hand pulling me closer. I can feel her breath on my skin as she whispers "If anyone has something to confess it's me. I'm the one that's here falling into yours arms when I'm with another man" she steps back a little awaiting my reaction her cheeks redden, and her hands fly to her face with embarrassment.
I can't help the confusion that rises within me. This clearly wasn't a one-way thing, yet she has another man. I wouldn't normally get involved in anything messy but bringing my eyes up to meet hers I can't bring myself to care. Not even a little bit.
Oh, I've been shaking
I can't help but feel a little nervous reaching out for her hand again, I tugged on her fingers gently testing the waters before pulling her closer again. Closer than before. Her confidence grows with her forgotten secret out, her hands find my hair tugging gently her touch has me shaking, my hands find her waist as we again for the second time that night find ourselves in our own world, the music blurred and everyone else blocked out. Just for a while.
I love it when you go crazy
I relax a little under her touch, the weight of her prior confession slipping from my shoulders without me really noticing. I can tell she feels it too as she slips her hands down to my shoulders then back around my neck playing with my hair.
She steps back and my whole-body panics begging for her touch like shed just taken pressure off of an open wound. To my surprise she doesn't walk away but turns around throwing her arms I the air. She threads her hands through her wild her before leaning backward to look at me. Gaging my reaction of approval with her body still pressed against mine she slides her arms up behind her wrapping her arms around my neck before sliding down my body with a sultry smile tugging at her lips.
You take all my inhibitions
That one look on her face wipes away any previous worries, that's right Jace Herondale taken down by one woman's smile. I couldn't focus on anything but her, my whole body was screaming for her touch, the touch of a woman I had yet to learn the name of.
Baby, there's nothing holding me back
Needing to see her eyes, I grabbed her hand pulling her body around against mine, holding her waist to steady her. Her eyes met mine in confusion. "What's wrong? Was it me?" I could almost laugh at her, the way she saw the problem in her before anywhere else.
I shake my head with a light chuckle "God no Red, you're perfect" her eyes widen as she shakes her head with a giggle before leaning forward to rest her head on my chest. She looks up at me through her red curls before asking.
"If I didn't do anything wrong. What's holding you back?" I don't really have an answer for her, I didn't know what was holding me back. I went to call her name when it clicked. Itd never felt wrong not to know a girl's name before tonight but now it felt as though her name were the most precious thing in the world, no matter what it might be.
"Your name, what is it?" Her eyes dart upwards before nodding.
"Clary Fray, yours?" her hands rune from my wrists to my shoulders before continuing up toward my neck. She looks up expectantly as though me revealing my name would make this all real, if I said It aloud it would all end.
You take me places that tear up my reputation
"Jace Herondale, at your service" I'd admitted it, I Jace Herondale was stuck on this woman in front of me. There was no denying it now.
She let out a small giggle, pulling away a little to look up at my face. One look into my eyes and I was her, she was in complete control. I couldn't look away, I shake my head at an attempt to think of anything but her.
She pulled me right back to our false reality. With a soft tug of my hand, she lead me toward the bar. She called over the bartender, ordering some shots. She turns to me with an awkward smile as the bartender gives her a wink. I can't deny the feeling of jealousy that rises in me as he looks her up and down, my hand fins her waist pulling her into my side.
From across the room Magnus catches my eye, raising his eyebrow at my current position. Pulling Alec's hand he points me out. For once I don't want their help in scaring a girl away nor do I appreciate their amusement in my situations. But what I'm most worried about is that they'll scare Clary away. That she'll be gone from my life just as abruptly as she entered it.
Saved by the shots. We each throw our heads back and let it burn down our throats before I grab her hand and pull her back into the dancefloor hiding her away from onlooking eyes.
But I can see from Magnus' wink, that he knows just as well as I do. That she clary Fray just completely tore apart my reputation.
Manipulate my decisions
As her eyes search the room, my thoughts go back to her confession and her other man. Was he here? Did he know that his girl was in the arms of another man?
She stepped back a little, my body following right behind her. The thought of leaving barely played in my mind for a second, of not getting involved in something this complicated.
Her eyes found mine and I knew straight away that I wasn't going anywhere she wasn't tonight.
Baby, there's nothing holding me back
Her eyes searched the room again. Concern playing on her features. "Hey, what's wrong?" she frowned then looked up again with a small smile tugging the corners of her lips upward.
"I need to know that there's nothing holding you back? That you're okay with all of this." I obviously wasn't as forward as I thought was being.
I pulled her toward me, my hand resting on the small of her back, whispering, "Baby, there's nothing holding me back."
She reached up to hold my bicep with a barely audible "Really I mean you're okay with the fact there's another guy..."
I cut off her rambling placing my hands to cup her face reassuring her "There's nothing holding me back."
Her eyes closed and with a deep breathe her eyes flew open meeting my gaze. Breaking the silence with one last "Are you sure?" She half turned as if to walk away, avoiding my gaze.
I held on to her arm pulling her back into me. Our faces barely centimetres apart I breathed "There's nothing holding me back." Her eyes met mine unsure, so to prove to both her and myself without really thinking, I leaned forward and pressed my lips against hers.
She froze against me but didn't push away. I was about to pull back when she grabbed the collar of y shirt pulling me closer. Leaning up and pressing her lips harder against mine. I was lost in the bliss that was her kiss
She says that she's never afraid
Letting her go we start to dance again. All my thoughts are running in to each other, all I can see now is her moving so freely. Her white dress makes her glow against the darkness of the club.
"You seem so free, considering your current predicament." Her face twisted in confusion at my words, her movements slowing. It all seemed to click at once for me and for her, terrified I'd said the wrong thing.
Her face lit up with a giggle "Oh you mean that I'm here dancing with you, not my boyfriend."
Her words as so casual when I can tell its getting to her. Not sure whether I'm lightening the conversation I ask, "How are you so comfortable dancing so freely with me?"
Her eyes beam at me, her lips tugging into a small smirk "Just picture everybody naked."
I can't help the smirk that plays on my lips "Does everyone include me?" Her cheeks turn brighter than her hair at this, before a small smirk tugs at her lips.
"Oh honey you were the first one naked" she let out a small laugh, her eyes shining up at me. Her lips part to speak again but I cut her off with my lips once again grabbing her waist, pulling her closer.
She really doesn't like to wait
About a half an hour later we find ourselves leaving the club headed toward the subway. She stops abruptly leaning down to play with her shoes, groaning again. I've learnt a lot about her in the past twenty minutes. Her name is Clarissa (Clary) Fray, she's twenty-one a year younger than me. She's studying art at the same University as me (NYU). I've been so close to this girl all this time and we haven't crossed paths until now.
With a final growl at her shoes, she slips her heels off with a sigh of relief. I can't help but chuckle at her actions, and frown at her walking barefoot on the New York streets.
"Hop on." Her face lights in to a smile before she jumps up wrapping her legs around my waist and arms around my neck. She leans down resting her head on my shoulder, pressing kisses to my neck.
Not really into hesitation
Putting her back on the ground at the Subway stop she turned and wrapped her hands around my neck, pulling me in. placing my hands on her waist as she pulled me in I couldn't help but hesitate.
"Are you sure? I mean with everything and …" The expression cut me short her lips pressed together her hands stiff against my skin.
She sighed pulling me closer again, "Just shut up and kiss me." So, I did.
'Cause if we lost our minds and we took it way too far
I know we'd be alright, I know we would be alright
The realisation hit me that we'd lost our minds on the train as she leaned into me. She had a boyfriend and I didn't under any circumstance do 'serious' but here we were on our way to my apartment my arms around her as she mumbled into my chest.
Whatever happens at least, I'll have had tonight with her.
If you were by my side and we stumbled in the dark
I know we'd be alright, I know we would be alright
Stumbling off the train with a giggle she grabbed my hand pulling me with her. The walk to my apartment went quickly, I've walked it a million times but tonight with her I could've spent the rest of my life breathing in the New York air, under the hidden stars with her in my arms.
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