Because of You
By:
Pasta-Head
Disclaimer: If I owned Inuyasha, would I write fanfiction about it at 5 in the morning? No. I would be think of elaborate ways for Kikyo to die and how to incorporate them into my manga if I did that....;)
Hands on the mirror
Can't get much clearer
Can't make this all go away
"Your life is mine, I thought I told you that a long time ago, Inuyasha," a voice, somber though jubilent filtered through the dark night. The said demon didn't even flinch from his perch high in the Goshinboku. The silver haired hanyou only glanced up through his thick mane to gaze upon Kikyo. He had given up. His reason for living had left him. He would stop running from the undead preistess tonight and fullfill his destiny to join her in death.
~*~*
(Flashback)
"Well, if that's the way you feel about it, FINE!" Kagome spat out. "I'll leave and never come back!"
"Fine by me," Inuyasha countered, his temper flaring. "The jewel is whole anyway. I don't need you anymore."
Instead of the awful "sit" he was expecting, he was met with silence. He glanced up and saw Kagome's back, quivering with what he thought were sobs.
"Geeze, are you crying again?" he asked, trying to sneer, but his voice wouldn't let him. When Kagome turned, however, her face was dry.
"You're right," she said quietly, almost to herself. "The jewel is complete. My work here is done. I've righted the wrong that I commited and there's nothing holding me here," she paused, "Is there?"
Inuyasha snorted, "I guess not," he said bitterly, turning his back to her, not willing to let her get the last word and make him go all mushy inside.
"Then I guess that settles it," the miko said flatly. "I will go back to my time and I won't come back to cause anymore trouble."
As she made her way towards the well, the hanyou shot over his shoulder, "That's fine with me! This was all your fault anyways!"
She didn't even falter as she leapt down the well, not even a backwards glance to mollify his outrage.
"She'll be back," he muttered confidently. "She always comes back."
~*~*
That was four months ago. Everyone was initially crushed at the report Inuyasha gave them, that she wasn't coming back. After a few weeks, Shippo began to bug the half demon to go and apologize to Kagome, but his bruised ego and wounded pride wouldn't allow it.
"If she wants to come back, she knows where the well is," he reasoned with infuriating logic and self confidence, and all of Shippo's protestations couldn't change his mind.
Then, as if in a dream, five nights ago Inuyasha began to hear Kikyo's voice on the wind, reminding him of the vow he took. The promise that in the end his life was hers. And every night, the summons was harder to ignore. There was a part of him that even wanted to go. It wasn't as if anything was holding him to this realm. The Shikon Jewel was complete. The wish he had intended to make would have been wasted now that she had gone.
As if in a trance, Inuyasha gazed upon his long dead lover's face, and it all became clear to him. Perhaps the reason he was so close to Kagome was that he was not in love with her. Neither was he in love with Kikyo. He was in love with the soul that they both possessed. The fiery passion that Kagome held and the calm serenity that Kikyo possessed, even in death. He longed to be with this soul. It was his destiny.
He suddenly shook his head feircly. The vision of Kikyo standing before him shimmered away from him, and her voice, though is echoed eirily in his mind, had succumbed to the light chirping of the first birds awakening in the forest dawn. The only thing that came to his mind at the moment was a phrase that Kagome was fond of saying at times like these, and that made it all the harder to utter.
"This sucks."
Now that your bleeding
You stare at the ceiling
Watch as it all fades away
As the sun rose over the hills that morning, and Inuyasha fought his inner demons, another demonn was watching, waiting from the wings. The demon could feel the Hanyou's struggle, smell the desperation in his countenace. The demon could also sense the Jewel. It could taste its power, and it embraced it with all his senses. As Inuyasha leapt gracefuly from the ancient tree, the demon stepped out of the shadows.
The hanyou didn't turn, but he did stop in his tracks and go extremly stiff.
"And here, I thought I was just hallucinating," he sneered.
The demon approached him and was about to attack, when Inuyasha spun quickly and grabbed the offending hand that was attempting to cause him harm. What he he clasped instead was an arrow, purifying the very essence of his arua.
He dropped it quickly and faced the 'demon'. "You know why I'm here, Inuyasha."
He knew that this moment was inevitable. All his adventures, and he knew that it would all come down to this someday. And he was a man of his word.
"Yes, Kikyo, I know."
And with that, the undead preistess shot another arrow, this time she didn't miss. Partly becuase Inuyasha didn't try to dodge. The arrow hit him square in the chest, and its purifying powers blazed around him, the fire consuming him. Kikyo walked through the inferno and reached out. Instead of touching his face in a gentle caress as he expected, she grabbed the Shikon Jewel and ripped it from its delicate chain around his neck.
"And now, Inuyasha," she gloated, "You WILL go to hell!"
The purifying fire blazed even hotter as the hanyou fell to his knees, writhing in pain. Kikyo placed her hand on his shoulder and graced him with a serene smile.
"And I will meet you there shortly, my love. There are a few things that I must do before I join you."
Kikyo stepped out of the fire and walked backwards into the wood, fading back into the shadows. Inuyasha, still caught in the spell of the arrow, howled in pain and betryal before inconscience took over his battered mind and bruised body.
Drawn by the familiar screams and the sighting of Kikyo's soul collectors, Miroku and Sango found him a short time later. They were shocked to find him unconscience, with dirt and tears staining the usually stoney face.
The two rushed him back to Kaede's hut, were the old witch spent hours tending to his wounds, Miroku and Sango paced in front of the door, worried about the Hanyou. After a time, Kaede emerged from the dwelling. Before they could ask, the old woman spoke.
"I know not what ails him, children. His body is not harmed fately. He has had much worse in battle and lived to tell the tale. I beleive it has to do with his soul."
"What about his soul?"
The three at the entrance to the hut flinched as they heard a familiar, yet peircing tone. They turned to see Kagome, as she dropped her bookbag heavily to the ground.
"It he alright?"
Kaede only looked at the young girl, unwilling to tell her. That look was all Kagome needed, though. She rushed past them and into the cottage.
"Another thing," Kaede whispered to Miroku and Sango. "Whoever attacked Inuyasha now has the Shikon Jewel."
For what you do
Because of you
You know I can't be there
Its time that you go
I swore not to come
But I'm here after all
Earlier that day, Kagome had been at school. She was in the middle of fourth period when she got a shooting pain in her chest. She couldn't breathe. She could barly move, even. Not even asking permission, she stumbled out of her seat and down the hall towards the bathroom.
She reached the sink and poured some cold water out of the faucet. Splashing it on her face, she wondered what was wrong with her. Maybe all the diseases that her grandfather had made up were finally catching up to her, she thought wryly. As the miko glanced into the mirror, she saw her relfection, but she didn't recognize it. It was...different somehow. She squinted neared the mirror, and noticed the subtle differences. Her eyes were narrower and her mouth not as forgiving. Then, the relfection spoke.
"You know why I'm here, Inuyasha."
Kagome gasped as she recognized the relfection as Kikyo. Her hands flew to the edge of the sink to keep her balance.
"And now, Inuyasha, you WILL go to hell!"
The entire third floor of the school was talking for days about how Kagome Higurashi had fled from school that day, screaming the words "Dog Demon" at the top of her lungs.
Kagome made the trek home in record time. Not even stopping to pack a few things, she ran to the well house and jumped through. Nothing happened. Becuase of the Jewel being in Feudal Japan, Kagome could not get through. She swore under her breath, a thing she found herself doing in the past months. Then, she got an idea. It was far fetched, but it just might work, she thought. Concentrating on her miko powers, she built them up to surround her. Then, she focused on something from the Feudal Era that she could connect to. Or, she tried. She couldn't find him. Couldn't sense him. Her mind screamed
"Oh God, please don't let him be dead!"
And the next thing she knew, she was in the well on the other side of time.
I know by the look
That I see in your eye
I won't stand around
And I won't watch you die
For what you do
At the present, Kagome hovered over Inuyasha's still form. His eyes were open and staring straight up at the ceiling, never wavering, nver moving. His fists were clenched in remembered pain, and he was cold to the touch. But he was breathing. Shallow, short breaths were all that connected his body to the world of the living.
"You stupid, arrogant, jerk," she said softly, brushing stands of silver hair form his face. "What have you gotten yourself into this time."
She leaned back onto her heels and sighed heavily.
"You know, I never thought I'd be back here. I was fully intent on staying in my era, getting my education. But when I saw Kikyo threaten you," her voice cracked as a sob came unbidden, and unwanted, "I knew I couldn't stay away. Just the thought of you never knowing that I don't really hate you is unbearable. And to think," she laughed through her tears, "Just twelve hours ago, I didn't want anything to do with you."
As the door to the hut opened quietly, Kagome hurridly brushed her tears away.
"Is this Kikyo's doing?" the miko gestured the the hanyou's still form.
"We beleive so," Miroku answered softly, "We saw her sould collecters gathered over the place we found him."
Kagome nodded. "Then I beleive I know what happened."
Kaede nodded. "Do you think, child, that Kikyo has stolen his soul, banished it to hell for all eternity? If so, then there is no way to save him."
"I beleive Kikyo stole his soul," the raven haired preistess agreed, "But I don't think he's in hell. First, his body would be dead," she gestured at the still form, and hurridly dissmissed the tears forming in her eyes. "Secondly, Kikyo stole the Jewel from him. We know that all Kikyo desires is for Inuyasha to die and join her in hell. So why does she need the jewel? Becuase there is something in the world that he clings to. Something strong enough that he won't let go until that 'thing' is eliminated. That's why Kikyo needs the Shikon Jewel, so rid Inuyasha of..." Kagome trailed off as all present heard the faint whisper of Kikyo's soul collectors outside the hut.
"Kagome," a voice called out, a familiar voice that none wanted to hear at the moment, or ever again. "I've come to kill you."
Author's note: First chapter up. There will probably be only one more after this. i never realized how frikkin' long this song is. All I wanted was to write a frikkin songfic, and now I've got one that's possessed by the devool. Its now officially 6:15 in the morning and I think I'm going to bed. After staying up all night and reading your fanfiction, don't you think it would be nice to review a fellow author? Does it suck? Should I can it? Or do you want more?
By:
Pasta-Head
Disclaimer: If I owned Inuyasha, would I write fanfiction about it at 5 in the morning? No. I would be think of elaborate ways for Kikyo to die and how to incorporate them into my manga if I did that....;)
Hands on the mirror
Can't get much clearer
Can't make this all go away
"Your life is mine, I thought I told you that a long time ago, Inuyasha," a voice, somber though jubilent filtered through the dark night. The said demon didn't even flinch from his perch high in the Goshinboku. The silver haired hanyou only glanced up through his thick mane to gaze upon Kikyo. He had given up. His reason for living had left him. He would stop running from the undead preistess tonight and fullfill his destiny to join her in death.
~*~*
(Flashback)
"Well, if that's the way you feel about it, FINE!" Kagome spat out. "I'll leave and never come back!"
"Fine by me," Inuyasha countered, his temper flaring. "The jewel is whole anyway. I don't need you anymore."
Instead of the awful "sit" he was expecting, he was met with silence. He glanced up and saw Kagome's back, quivering with what he thought were sobs.
"Geeze, are you crying again?" he asked, trying to sneer, but his voice wouldn't let him. When Kagome turned, however, her face was dry.
"You're right," she said quietly, almost to herself. "The jewel is complete. My work here is done. I've righted the wrong that I commited and there's nothing holding me here," she paused, "Is there?"
Inuyasha snorted, "I guess not," he said bitterly, turning his back to her, not willing to let her get the last word and make him go all mushy inside.
"Then I guess that settles it," the miko said flatly. "I will go back to my time and I won't come back to cause anymore trouble."
As she made her way towards the well, the hanyou shot over his shoulder, "That's fine with me! This was all your fault anyways!"
She didn't even falter as she leapt down the well, not even a backwards glance to mollify his outrage.
"She'll be back," he muttered confidently. "She always comes back."
~*~*
That was four months ago. Everyone was initially crushed at the report Inuyasha gave them, that she wasn't coming back. After a few weeks, Shippo began to bug the half demon to go and apologize to Kagome, but his bruised ego and wounded pride wouldn't allow it.
"If she wants to come back, she knows where the well is," he reasoned with infuriating logic and self confidence, and all of Shippo's protestations couldn't change his mind.
Then, as if in a dream, five nights ago Inuyasha began to hear Kikyo's voice on the wind, reminding him of the vow he took. The promise that in the end his life was hers. And every night, the summons was harder to ignore. There was a part of him that even wanted to go. It wasn't as if anything was holding him to this realm. The Shikon Jewel was complete. The wish he had intended to make would have been wasted now that she had gone.
As if in a trance, Inuyasha gazed upon his long dead lover's face, and it all became clear to him. Perhaps the reason he was so close to Kagome was that he was not in love with her. Neither was he in love with Kikyo. He was in love with the soul that they both possessed. The fiery passion that Kagome held and the calm serenity that Kikyo possessed, even in death. He longed to be with this soul. It was his destiny.
He suddenly shook his head feircly. The vision of Kikyo standing before him shimmered away from him, and her voice, though is echoed eirily in his mind, had succumbed to the light chirping of the first birds awakening in the forest dawn. The only thing that came to his mind at the moment was a phrase that Kagome was fond of saying at times like these, and that made it all the harder to utter.
"This sucks."
Now that your bleeding
You stare at the ceiling
Watch as it all fades away
As the sun rose over the hills that morning, and Inuyasha fought his inner demons, another demonn was watching, waiting from the wings. The demon could feel the Hanyou's struggle, smell the desperation in his countenace. The demon could also sense the Jewel. It could taste its power, and it embraced it with all his senses. As Inuyasha leapt gracefuly from the ancient tree, the demon stepped out of the shadows.
The hanyou didn't turn, but he did stop in his tracks and go extremly stiff.
"And here, I thought I was just hallucinating," he sneered.
The demon approached him and was about to attack, when Inuyasha spun quickly and grabbed the offending hand that was attempting to cause him harm. What he he clasped instead was an arrow, purifying the very essence of his arua.
He dropped it quickly and faced the 'demon'. "You know why I'm here, Inuyasha."
He knew that this moment was inevitable. All his adventures, and he knew that it would all come down to this someday. And he was a man of his word.
"Yes, Kikyo, I know."
And with that, the undead preistess shot another arrow, this time she didn't miss. Partly becuase Inuyasha didn't try to dodge. The arrow hit him square in the chest, and its purifying powers blazed around him, the fire consuming him. Kikyo walked through the inferno and reached out. Instead of touching his face in a gentle caress as he expected, she grabbed the Shikon Jewel and ripped it from its delicate chain around his neck.
"And now, Inuyasha," she gloated, "You WILL go to hell!"
The purifying fire blazed even hotter as the hanyou fell to his knees, writhing in pain. Kikyo placed her hand on his shoulder and graced him with a serene smile.
"And I will meet you there shortly, my love. There are a few things that I must do before I join you."
Kikyo stepped out of the fire and walked backwards into the wood, fading back into the shadows. Inuyasha, still caught in the spell of the arrow, howled in pain and betryal before inconscience took over his battered mind and bruised body.
Drawn by the familiar screams and the sighting of Kikyo's soul collectors, Miroku and Sango found him a short time later. They were shocked to find him unconscience, with dirt and tears staining the usually stoney face.
The two rushed him back to Kaede's hut, were the old witch spent hours tending to his wounds, Miroku and Sango paced in front of the door, worried about the Hanyou. After a time, Kaede emerged from the dwelling. Before they could ask, the old woman spoke.
"I know not what ails him, children. His body is not harmed fately. He has had much worse in battle and lived to tell the tale. I beleive it has to do with his soul."
"What about his soul?"
The three at the entrance to the hut flinched as they heard a familiar, yet peircing tone. They turned to see Kagome, as she dropped her bookbag heavily to the ground.
"It he alright?"
Kaede only looked at the young girl, unwilling to tell her. That look was all Kagome needed, though. She rushed past them and into the cottage.
"Another thing," Kaede whispered to Miroku and Sango. "Whoever attacked Inuyasha now has the Shikon Jewel."
For what you do
Because of you
You know I can't be there
Its time that you go
I swore not to come
But I'm here after all
Earlier that day, Kagome had been at school. She was in the middle of fourth period when she got a shooting pain in her chest. She couldn't breathe. She could barly move, even. Not even asking permission, she stumbled out of her seat and down the hall towards the bathroom.
She reached the sink and poured some cold water out of the faucet. Splashing it on her face, she wondered what was wrong with her. Maybe all the diseases that her grandfather had made up were finally catching up to her, she thought wryly. As the miko glanced into the mirror, she saw her relfection, but she didn't recognize it. It was...different somehow. She squinted neared the mirror, and noticed the subtle differences. Her eyes were narrower and her mouth not as forgiving. Then, the relfection spoke.
"You know why I'm here, Inuyasha."
Kagome gasped as she recognized the relfection as Kikyo. Her hands flew to the edge of the sink to keep her balance.
"And now, Inuyasha, you WILL go to hell!"
The entire third floor of the school was talking for days about how Kagome Higurashi had fled from school that day, screaming the words "Dog Demon" at the top of her lungs.
Kagome made the trek home in record time. Not even stopping to pack a few things, she ran to the well house and jumped through. Nothing happened. Becuase of the Jewel being in Feudal Japan, Kagome could not get through. She swore under her breath, a thing she found herself doing in the past months. Then, she got an idea. It was far fetched, but it just might work, she thought. Concentrating on her miko powers, she built them up to surround her. Then, she focused on something from the Feudal Era that she could connect to. Or, she tried. She couldn't find him. Couldn't sense him. Her mind screamed
"Oh God, please don't let him be dead!"
And the next thing she knew, she was in the well on the other side of time.
I know by the look
That I see in your eye
I won't stand around
And I won't watch you die
For what you do
At the present, Kagome hovered over Inuyasha's still form. His eyes were open and staring straight up at the ceiling, never wavering, nver moving. His fists were clenched in remembered pain, and he was cold to the touch. But he was breathing. Shallow, short breaths were all that connected his body to the world of the living.
"You stupid, arrogant, jerk," she said softly, brushing stands of silver hair form his face. "What have you gotten yourself into this time."
She leaned back onto her heels and sighed heavily.
"You know, I never thought I'd be back here. I was fully intent on staying in my era, getting my education. But when I saw Kikyo threaten you," her voice cracked as a sob came unbidden, and unwanted, "I knew I couldn't stay away. Just the thought of you never knowing that I don't really hate you is unbearable. And to think," she laughed through her tears, "Just twelve hours ago, I didn't want anything to do with you."
As the door to the hut opened quietly, Kagome hurridly brushed her tears away.
"Is this Kikyo's doing?" the miko gestured the the hanyou's still form.
"We beleive so," Miroku answered softly, "We saw her sould collecters gathered over the place we found him."
Kagome nodded. "Then I beleive I know what happened."
Kaede nodded. "Do you think, child, that Kikyo has stolen his soul, banished it to hell for all eternity? If so, then there is no way to save him."
"I beleive Kikyo stole his soul," the raven haired preistess agreed, "But I don't think he's in hell. First, his body would be dead," she gestured at the still form, and hurridly dissmissed the tears forming in her eyes. "Secondly, Kikyo stole the Jewel from him. We know that all Kikyo desires is for Inuyasha to die and join her in hell. So why does she need the jewel? Becuase there is something in the world that he clings to. Something strong enough that he won't let go until that 'thing' is eliminated. That's why Kikyo needs the Shikon Jewel, so rid Inuyasha of..." Kagome trailed off as all present heard the faint whisper of Kikyo's soul collectors outside the hut.
"Kagome," a voice called out, a familiar voice that none wanted to hear at the moment, or ever again. "I've come to kill you."
Author's note: First chapter up. There will probably be only one more after this. i never realized how frikkin' long this song is. All I wanted was to write a frikkin songfic, and now I've got one that's possessed by the devool. Its now officially 6:15 in the morning and I think I'm going to bed. After staying up all night and reading your fanfiction, don't you think it would be nice to review a fellow author? Does it suck? Should I can it? Or do you want more?