I thought the feelings had left. I thought I had moved passed my unpleasant beliefs… I thought wrong. I don't know how this all started… wait, what am I saying? I know exactly how all this started.
God I'm so stupid. Why did I ever let… how could I even… it wasn't on purpose… wait, let me tell you what happened. Let me explain myself, and my actions.
It all started two weeks ago, two long weeks ago. Ally's best friend, Jacob, came over. It seemed like every other time Jacob came over, him and Ally would play outside or watch TV together, Ally was very fond of him.
So, like I was saying, it was the same as every other day, until the last few minutes of Jacob's time at my house. The kids had gone up stairs to play, the twins over with Marie, and Ray was at work.
I had my old beat up jeans on, torn and tattered as they were, and a plaid long sleeve shirt on. My hair was up messily, and to say the least, I looked like crap. I had a hammer in one hand, nails in the other, I was fixing the inside of the door. It surprised me when there was a knock on it. But, then, I answered it. It was Jacob's father.
He was a handsome man, I can't deny that. His attire definitely didn't match mine. He had on a pair of nice slacks, a nice long sleeve shirt, and a trench coat. Like I said, he was handsome.
I welcomed him into my home, as embarrassed as I was, but he didn't seem to mind how awful I looked.
"Wow, you have a nice home," he looked around in awe. I smiled sheepishly, "today's a clean up day, so excuse the mess." He smiled at me.
There was a moment of silence. Then, "You have a hammer there, working on something?"
"Yeah, fixing the hinges on the door," He looked at me surprised.
"I'm sorry if I look so shocked, it's just most the women around here seem very house wife-ish, not construction worker like," he smiled.
"I'm an exception," I smiled up at him, his smile widened, "I guess you are."
There was another pause. I hadn't realized it but I had been…'gazing' into his eyes. I couldn't help it. Finally he looked away.
He said, "Well, I better go get my kid…"
I took in a deep breath, "I'll go get him," I offered. But he stopped me, putting his hand gently on my shoulder, "I'll get him, just point me in the right direction."
I smiled then showed him over to the stairway, pointing, I told him Ally's room was two doors to the left. He went to go get his son. Meanwhile I pretty much paced the room. Even then I had confusing emotions going through my head, I was already perplexed.
Not but a minute later he came back down the stairs, "he's getting his stuff together."
I nodded while I watched him make his way over to my large bookcase; he looked at some CD's.
"You like The Crows!" he smiled widely as turned around with the CD in hand.
"Yes! My family won't let me listen to them, do you like them?" I was shocked to hear he even heard of The Crows.
"I love them! I can't believe you know The Crows!" he was obviously just as impressed as I.
I walked over to him, "I listen to them every chance I get, which has been less lately." He looked at me like an idea had come across him, "this is a very odd coincidence, but I just got two tickets to their new concert."
"They're on tour again?" I was completely baffled.
"Yeah! Would you like to go with me?" he offered nicely. I tilted my head in thought, it sounded great, but I had other duties.
"You know, I have to take care of the kids and…"
"Well I know a good babysitter, her and her daughter have been babysitting forever practically, they'd watch both our kids."
"You think so?" I smiled kind of excited I might be able to go with him… to see The Crows.
"I'm almost positive."
I was thinking while Jacob and Ally came down the stairs. We walked over to the kids, Jacob's father helped him get his jacket on. Ally went back upstairs while Jacob went to the car to wait.
"You know, I'll call the babysitter, see if they can do it," I nodded, it sounded like a good idea, "and by the way, I'm John."
I smiled bashfully, "Deborah. Nice to meet you."