Prologue
Road after road, it was an endless maze, but I didn't care where I was going, where I was headed. It didn't matter I was gone. The ghastly neon headlights of my truck glared out ahead of me illuminating the road in front of me. I could hardly make out the street because the rain was starting to blur my eyesight. Suddenly I slammed down on the brake and got out of the car. I just stood there in the rain, dry-sobbing, why couldn't I cry just once more in my life? There was one thing I used to love about the rain; no one could see my tears but now it didn't matter.
"Why did I leave Edward," the hole in my chest seemed to be asking as it slowly increased in size.
"Because," replied my conscience, "You couldn't take his regret. The regret for helping you to become what you had always hoped for."
Standing there in the rain, my heart ached, my mind screamed and I collapsed dry-sobbing in the middle of the road.