Dear love,
My love, my eternal love, I'm writing you because it's been two years today. For those two years, I blamed myself, blamed the Guild, my deceased brother, your father. But, in the end, It was all you, because even though everyone played their part in breaking us, you never came back for me. I remember watching our most dreadful fate unfold in front of me in my beautiful wedding gown, I stood there, paralyzed. I can't help but daydream of what we would be like if it all hadn't happened. We should be together now, Remy, talking about our day in the bed we would share. I'd lay my head on your chest, my body would be nestled in your arms, we would make love before going to sleep. But I guess it wasn't meant to be.
How could you just assume that I would be fine without you, that I would move on, find myself another man, and fulfil my life with some other drug. You are my cocaine, can't you see? And this withdrawal isn't going well, babe. I need you, mon coeur. You have no idea how I still spend my nights awake, crying, sighing, missing you. I can't let go of you. I want you back.
It's been two years and I've heard you're doing well now. True, you treaded some trouble path, you told me all about it yourself when you called me that night. That night when you got more than what you bargained for in New York tunnels. But then, you didn't call me anymore. I asked you, I pleaded, I begged you to come back for me, but you didn't. And, even though you made it clear you didn't want to go back to where we'd left off, I still hold on to you. It's helpless, but try telling my foolish heart to get over you. It just won't listen.
Recently, I heard about you from others, mon amour. I've heard you were down, you've been around the world trying to find solace to your misfortunes, but after you paid your dues, apparently you found yourself a new home, a new family. You don't need no other family, sweetie, you have me.
I've also heard you found someone else.
If I could, I'd write her too. I feel she needs my advice, poor thing. I want to hate her, whomever she is, but I feel for her. She's got no idea what she's in for. Loving you is pain, Remy. Just when I thought I had you all for myself, for all of the time, you slipped away. You should come with a warning tag, love. You should tell this girl of yours how dangerous you are. Does she know you're trouble? I wonder if she loves you like I do.
Anyways, I just wanted to send you my love. Happy anniversary, my dear husband.
Truly and forever yours,
Bella.
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Hi Belle,
Never think for a moment that I have forgotten all about you, our years of friendship, our childhood adventures and what you once meant to me. But, mon ami, returning home isn't the holy grail of my life. I was exiled, the circumstances in which I left won't change, Belle.
Nobody wants me back, no one, but you. For the sake of all you have once been for me, I want to be the person you recall, innocent and sweet, that boy full of dreams and aspirations, the boy who wanted to change and rule the world, or perhaps change New Orleans at least, yet I struggle. I want to return that beautiful smile of yours with something to warm your soul instead of drain you. But it's not in me to do so, I can't pretend, I won't lie to you. I am in love with someone else. She's beautiful and sweet and has a difficult temper that I love and, at the same time, drives me crazy. But things with her are complicated, I'll tell you all about it when I have the chance. We're not together, you see.
I wish you well, Bella, I do. I want you to find the happiness I couldn't give you. So, my love, let's live one day at a time and not worry so much about the things we can't control. If I'm distant, if I need space, if I can't echo your divine emotions please forgive me. I want to erase the negative effects of all this suffering and heal as if it never happened; I want to do that for us.
I'll try to keep in touch.
Your friend for always,
Remy
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Author's notes: Take this as a pilot episode :D The idea is write a story through letters. If you buy this idea, please review or PM and I shall take it seriously. I'll leave it T rated if for now, but that might change as I love to spice things up.