No one knows the truth about why I am the way I am. Even my clan tried to justify the way I acted towards everyone, but they didn't even know. Scourge didn't and wouldn't ever know. Not even my closest comrades know. I'm here to tell what happened. Why I'm not in StarClan like all the other beloved leaders. I'm here to tell why I, Tigerstar, am the worse cat to ever cross paths with.

When I was born, right before I ever opened my eyes, my mother had left me. I only knew of her scent. I could be asked all day what happened to her and I wouldn't be able to tell you. She just vanished. The two-legs could've taken her to that evil place with metal bars or my own father could've killed her. You see my father was a murderer as well. Blood lust just runs in the family. Anyway since my mother left my blood lusted father raised me. He taught me how to hunt.

"Daaaaaaaaad! How much longer until we reach the hunting grounds" I asked.

"Who says we were going to the hunting grounds" sneered my father.

"Huh, you mean we're going somewhere else to hunt? But where could we possibly go without going on another clans…." I was cut off by a shh from my father.

"Tigerpaw, look over there and tell me who you see."

I did exactly as what my father had told me to do. I looked over and saw three dark cats holding down a kit that was probably around my age. I gasped.

"Father, what do you intend to do with the kit?"

"It's not me who is going to do something but rather you. If you look a little closer that is your brother over there mewing for help. Such a helpless little soul isn't he? Well, your little brother is the prey, and you, well you are the hunter. So kill him" Said his father with an evil glint in his eye.

Not knowing what to do I looked around frantically for an escape. I didn't want this. To kill my one and only littermate. It was wrong. I didn't want to do it. I had to though and I did. The three dark cats vanished into thin air and then my little brother began getting up.

"Kill him Tigerpaw. You are the chosen one. Kill your own brother. Your closest friend, the only thing in your life you care about. Kill him and take your rightful place. There's no place for him. He'll only hold you back. And if you don't kill him, I'll kill the both of you."

I looked over as my brother helplessly mewed and noticed his eyes were taken out of his own head. Those evil spirit cats must have taken them. I couldn't believe it. Blood just oozed out of his eye sockets. At least I can put him out of his misery. I began to walk towards him, each step held me down. It felt like I was sinking into the earth. Then something made my heart stop.

"Tigerpaw? Is that you? Have you come to save me? I knew you would. They told me that you were coming to get me. The cats that took my eyes, said you needed them because someone took yours so I let them. I did it for you brother. I don't need eyes. I know your scent and always will. And Tigerpaw, I love…."

"Shut up! Just shut up! I'm not blind. I didn't need your eyes. They took them to torture you. I'm not here to save you but to rather kill you. It's my destiny. I didn't want this. I don't want this. I don't want my life, but if I don't kill you then father will kill both of us. I…I..don't…I don't…know what….to…"

"Tigerpaw…you can kill me. If it's you destiny then you can. But promise me something. And one thing only. You have to live for the both of us. You have to not only fulfill your destiny but mine as well. Can you promise me that you will?"

I sat there and thought about it. It was the day I realized that my brother would forever be braver than any other cat I know. It was the day that would make me into the cold blooded cat that I am.

…..To be continued