Hurt

I've been hurt

And just like a bird with one wing, I have fallen

And I hear myself whisper one word through my sadness

And I hear myself shout one word through my rage - Ian

And my heart beats so loudly, I'm sure he can hear it

It throbs with my pain and beats with my anger

Yet it still beats so quietly I can't hear it myself

It must have disappeared when he left me to die

And my thoughts are in turmoil and chaos and madness

They circle around in my head - around him

Yet my thoughts are still straight and ordered and centered

On the one thing I want - pure revenge

And my tears cloud my eyes and I cannot see clearly

I guide my way blindly with my hands and my feet

But no longer do I reach out with my heart - I don't trust

It hurts way too much to be broken again

For ages I've built up myself from my hurting

I've healed my wounds and I've sealed my scars

But there's still is one cut that runs much too deeply

To heal, and it runs through my heart