Title: What Hurts the Most
Summary: Ichigo is reflecting on his life after Rukia was taken away to Soul Society. Song by Rascal Flatts
I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me
It's raining again in my own world, both Zangetsu and I can feel it, but this time it doesn't bother me as much as it used to. You would think it would bother me more, I knew life without the rain, and it was peaceful. The rain is back. Sometimes I just want to lie in bed and not do anything, sometimes I just want to cry. I have too much pride for that, or so I thought. Lately, I can't stop the tears from falling; it's just like the rain. It's hard to try and keep moving forward with life without her. I go on everyday like nothing ever happened but I know that's not true.
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
is what I was tryin' to do
I was so close to her even though she was only around for a little while. We did everything together and were hardly ever apart. We used fake formalities in public but dropped them when no one else was around to hear it. I wish I could have told her how important she was before she was taken away by Renji and her brother Byakuya. Watching her walk through those gates may have been the toughest thing I ever had to watch. I sit and wonder what could have happened if she wasn't taken away from me. I could have learned to love her. Actually, I think I did.
It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' It
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken
Everyday I walk down the streets and see certain spots and remember an argument or conversation we had there just a few weeks before. It hurts to have all of these memories to flood your mind just because you are in a certain place. I see Inoue and Chad and Ishida all these people whose lives you affected someway or another and its hard to go on like nothing has changed. Just getting up everyday is becoming a challenge knowing she won't be popping out of my closet and going out the window to go to school. I wish she would come back; I want to tell her everything that I didn't get to before.
What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
Not seeing that loving you
That's what I was trying to do
I want her back, and I never want her to walk away again. So I'm going to Soul Society to save her. I need her. I love her.