"Relentless"
by chobutterfly19
A/N: Sorry, I'm in a very sad mood. And working out some of my own feelings in my life. It's something to have a character to relate to… I had some fun things planned but this needed to be said.
This hurt crashes in on my heart, a gigantic relentless waterfall with the anger of fire. Anger at me. Sleep used to be my only escape from this hellish life. But even now I can't hide, because you are made now only of the stuff of dreams. I reach out to touch you, so near, so far. Summers aren't the same without you. We always talked so excitedly about what we would do together all summer, and now I'll never have another summer with you again. Only in the place where things aren't real, well, here on this earth, anyway.
Ced, I got to Paris two days ago. Where you always wanted to take me. I took a Muggle plane by myself, you know, even though I was terrified. I've never flown that high and especially not in control, not without you. One would think that I would feel serene or excited floating high with the clouds. I know that feeling, Cedric, and only one being in this entire universe could provoke that sentiment in me: you. And instead of exploring around, or marveling that I'm here, I burst into a storm of tears and wail, still broken by you.
You're the only one who could heal me, but how can you? I thought I heard your voice calling my name. And I thought I heard an "I love you," too, but was it you, or just wishful thinking? God, I'm here in this beautiful place, where the sun glints off the river and trees sway and people murmur in a language we were trying to learn together. And instead of laughing with the other people who inhabit this same place, I am so deeply aware of the irrevocable divide that separates them from me: they never had you. You.
A/N 2: Thank you to my beautiful readers and followers so, so much. I'm planning to come after your fics sometime as well. :)