So here it begins the sequel of Close Yet So Far, I wanna remember you that I'm not english, but italian so I'm sorry for my mistakes, but don't be too hard on me! Anyway I don't know if you will like it or not but give it a try. If there's gonna be some new reader I suggest you to read the previous story to understand some things.
I don't own Glee obviously!
Santana POV
It's my wedding day, I'm in exasy, a bit nervous yes, but so happy. I'm getting ready in my dressin room and Quinn is with me trying to not making me drink or get the dress dirty, so annoying. After almost 5 years we're ready to do this step together, Brittany and I are ready, it wasn't always easy, I made mistakes, she did too, but we moved on, we love eachother so much. Mistakes are something present in a relationship right? Or doubts.. Who doesn't have them? The important thing is goin on, we wouldn't be here if not. Obviously not everyone can go on, my grandmother couldn't and so she isn't here today, it makes me sad because when I thought about my wedding she was there, happy for me.. Well when I thought about my weddind I pictured myself with a man and so did she, so..
"It's almost time, how come your mom isn't here?" Quinn asks taking me away from my thoughts.
"I don't know, she's probably with Britt, by now I think she loves her more than me!"
"Britt isn't here"
"What?" I turn my face so fast to her that it almost fall from my neck.
"She got ready at home and then come here, she's probably in the parking with Rachel now"
"Ok, can you close my dress now?"
Quinn gets behind me and she closes the zip and then we leave the room, we reach the main room just a door before the aisle, Susan and my dad are there waiting for me and Brittany, my mom is already inside. Quinn gives me a kiss on the cheek and she enters, Susan hugs me and my dad takes my hand.
"I'm really happy, I was waiting for this day so long, I love you so much San"
"I love you too Susan, you're my second mom by now you know that right?" She nods, I can see her tears.
"Baby we have to go, the music started, your mom is gonna murder us if we are late" My dad says.
I nod and the door opens at my sign, my eyes start to water at the sight, it's amazing, this long beautiful white aisle, all the room full of white and bright purple flowers, I see my mom in the first row lean on her side to look at me walking, she's already crying. I start walking with my dad, I smile to the people trying to not stumble on my dress when suddenly the music stops, for a second I think I did stumble, but I'm still walking and my steps were fine, so.. I stop walking and turn to the pianist, does he want to get killed?! Why the hell did we stop? I see Rachel near him crying.
She looks at me, she walks to me and caresses my arms giving me a little squeeze, I look at her lost, why is she crying? It's like I'm in another world, why the music stopped? Why am I not already at the altar? Where's Brittany? I let my dad's hand go.
"I'm so sorry Santana, so sorry" She says crying.
"Sorry? Sorry for what?"
"Oh God" My dad whispers, I look at him and then at Rachel again.
"What's happening?" My lips start to tremble, she keeps crying "Where's Brittany?" I repeat on the edge, Quinn, Susan and my mom come to us, they're confused too.
"She's not here" I hear people start to mumble around us.
"What does it mean she's not here?" I don't know if I feel more in panic or angry and confused, I can feel all my body start to sweat.
"She said she's sorry, she loves you, she really loves you, but.. She wants you to be free, free to date whoever you want, she can't be the one who hurts you in the long time"
"What are you talking about? I'm here to marry her! WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT?" I try to stay calm but I can't, I see my mom shocked, with her hand in front of her mouth.
"She said you know what it is"
"We moved on, we left those things behind us, we came back together, I.. SHE ASKED ME TO MARRY HER" I shout again "She can't do this, where is she?"
"I-I don't know, she told me those things and then she left" I let myself go and I start crying no stop, Rachel hugs me before I can fall on the floor and I cry on her shoulder, my dad puts his hand on my shoulder, my mom sits incredulously and Susan ran outside with her phone in her hand.
I don't know for how long I cried in Rachel's arms, when I lean back half of the people left, I don't see Quinn, I sit on the first bench and I hug my arms.
"Leave, I wanna be alone" Rachel nods sniffing and I can't do otherwise than stare at the altar, my dad put his jacket around my shoulders and leaves and with him everybody else until I'm the only one inside. I let my arms relax and immediately my right hand goes to the left one, touching with my fingers my ring, the ring she gave me, the promise she did to me and I start to cry again.
How could she do this? HOW?
Quinn POV
I can't believe her, after I heard Rachel say those things I run to our flat calling Brittany but she didn't answer. I open the door and I start running from room to room.
"BRITTANY WHERE ARE YOU? BRITTANY"
I run to her room and there's a mess, it seems she took some of her clothes and that she fought with the rest, things are on the floor, broken or destroyed, on her door there's a hole done by a punch. On her bed the photo of her and Santana, I close the door and I look out of the window and her bike isn't in the park, where did she go? I go into the kitchen and I see a paper on the table and I start to read.
Quinn I'm really sorry, you know I really am, but I couldn't marry her, this morning while I was dressing I thought that this was going to be one of the best days of my life and how many others will be there, like when will we go to live together, or when our child will be born, things like that. But then I thought about everything happened between us, when we started dating, when she talked to her grandmother, all the broke ups, when we fought for Jason. I didn't know if those happy moments I was imagining were going to be hers too. She still doesn't know who she wants, she's not sure about having a girl next to her for the rest of her life, you saw it, you knew it too. I couldn't marry her and trap her in this relationship, with time we would have destroyed eachother as you saw it when Jason came around, so I preferred not to marry her and let her be, I know she's not gonna forgive me, but I did it for her, for us, I love her so much Quinn. I know she's your bestfriend and I really hurt her and I know I'm hurting you too, I'm really sorry, you're my family Quinn, always. I hope one day you will forgive me.
I don't know what to think, I crumple the letter and throw it on my bag, I take my keys and drive back to the church, outside there are Susan, Maribel, Robert and Rachel, I park and reach them.
"Where's Santana?"
"Still inside" Rachel says.
I walk inside and I see her, sit, she's not crying anymore, but her face says everything, I sit next to her and I take her hand. How are we going to face this?
"She's gone" She says.
"Yes"
We stay there for another hour or so, saying nothing, just looking in front of us, I don't know what to say to her, what can you say in these moments? But I know we can't keep staying here. She can't stay here.
"We need to go San"
"I can't move.. Or maybe it's just that if I leave this church everything would become even more real, if I leave the church I know for sure I'm not going to be married at the end of this day, if I leave the chur-" She starts to crying hysterically.
"Sweety" I caress her face "Come on, I'll bring you home"
We walk ourside, she holds on her father's jacket tight, embracing herself, they all stand up when they see us, I place my hand on her back while we walk.
"Honey can I do something?" Maribel asks.
"No, I just wanna go home and take this dress off"
"Do you want me to come with you?"
"No, Rachel and Quinn will be there"
We walk to my car, Rachel behind us, when she enters I see Susan on the phone again, still shouting and crying, it seems no one is on the other side, then she hungs up and Maribel hugs her. What have you done Britt?
Once at Santana and Rachel's flat we all sit on the couch and stay quiet, after awhile Santana stands up and not turning to us she asks to help her with the dress. We stand up and slowly take her dress off, Rachel carefully looses her hair then without saying anything she walks to the bathroom and takes a shower, while Rachel and I sit in the kitchen.. We can hear her cry even with the water on.
"Do you know where is she?" I ask her.
"No, not even Susan knows it, is she going to come back?"
"I don't know, right now I'm more worried about Santana"
"Me too, but she's still my best friend"
Santana exits the bathroom in her bathrobe and sit with us.
"Do we have alcool?" She asks.
"San drinking is not t-"
"Quinn let her, I think today she can drink all she wants, I'm gonna buy something at the grocery" Rachel leaves and then the letter came on my mind, I take it from my bag and I put it on the table.
"It was in the kitchen" She opens it and read it, I think she read it three or four times before she goes to the cookers and fire it "Fuck San!" I stand up and turn it off immediately.
"Tomorrow I'm gonna take my things back, and I don't want anything of hers here"
"I can do it for you" After she dressed herself Rachel comes back with a bag full of drinks and two boxes of pizza.
The next morning my phone wakes me, Santana, I sit up and only Rachel and I are in her bed, when she left? Why is she calling me? I answer the phone while I wake Rachel up.
"San where are you?"
"What's happening?" Rachel asks sitting up "Where's Santana?"
"Shh I'm talking to her.. San?"
"I'm at your house, can you come here?" Santana says.
"We're coming" I hung up "We have to go"
When we arrive she's in the kitchen with some empty bag. Last night was awful, she was drunk as fuck, more she drank more she cryied and more she cryied more she drank. It all stopped when she finally fell asleep, Rachel and I took her on her bed and we lie down next to her scared she would wake up in the night to throw up or cry again or do something stupid.
"Why did you come alone?" She shrugs her shoulders.
"I'm gonna pack your things ok?" Rachel asks and Santana simply nods. She's broken she couldn't even pack her things, I don't think she could even enter her room.
Two weeks later
Still no news about Brittany, I'm so pissed at her but still worried, I knew she wouldn't come back here, you can't do something like that to Santana and then come back, she'll killl her, but I didn't expect to not hear about her at all. Rachel is about to going crazy and Susan, I'm really worried about her and I don't know how to help, Brittany is still no answering anyone.
In these two weeks I fixed her room left her texts and calls, I took a plane and went home to search for her there and to stay with Susan, Rachel did the same, she searched for her everywhere, every place she and Brittany went or talked about, but nothing. Susan went to the police, but since Brittany is not a baby, since the circumstances she left and that she even left a note they can't do anything about it, even Maribel and Robert helped, they are angry, but still worried.
Santana, well, she obviously did not try to find her, she doesn't even want to hear her name and for Rachel is a really uncomfortable situation since they live together, she brought all Brittany's things back and I think she burned her wedding dress, but maybe I'm exaggering, probably she just thrown it away. She's starting to go out with her friends, to distract hersel, but how can she. She spends more time with them than me and Rachel, but I can understand it, we remind her Brittany and then she knows we're worried about her too.
Where the hell are you Brittany Pierce?
I know I know, why the hell did I do that?! Bad bad Deb!
It's still gonna be a Brittana story.. In the end!
Let me know what you think, do you want me to go on? I'll see how it goes and then decide if I'll go on, it's on you. I hope someone is interested.
-Deb