This was partially inspired by Cinema Bizarre's My Obsession. It's a beautiful song and I highly suggest listening to it while reading, and it is where the title comes from.
My Obsession
He's like an obsession. An addiction. Every light and shadow on his face, every brush of wind across his hair and face…
What I would do to be that wind. To run my hand through that hair…to cup that face with my hand…to see those sun-glinted, rosy lips and just capture them with mine. What I'd endure to see that bright blue eye lock on me…
It's a sickness that he creates within me, unknowingly. All I do is watch him, the curve of his neck, that dark hatred in his eye, that around him that curls like misty plum smoke. His soul, his mind…little light within it, like the weak attempt by light to touch black waters. The light will never penetrate that soul. It's been too many times stained and broken by the shaded parts of the world around him.
He used to be alight. A child happy, glowing and basking in the love of parents, yet to be touched by the gloom hemming and skirting around him, him barely out of their reach.
In one great light, a darker kind that was more akin to the encroaching dark than light, that light was overthrown. That boy, sweetest sickness, was encompassed by the darkness. Now a child of night, he called out to me. Coated in blood and hate, he spoke my name by that bitter tongue, and –just as quickly—I was his.
He's my obsession, my fetish, my religion. He is every question, every conclusion. He is dark and light to me. He is dark and light, each having their reign on him, neither ever touching him.
And nor can I. It is Fate and God's attempt to keep him from me, take him from me. To never let that black-winged angelic beauty light me. It was never meant to. But, soon enough, I will make it do so anyway.
I know this is short, but it's just an emotion piece. I trust you could all tell that it was Sebastian thinking about Ciel, yes? I just realized I never specified. I hope you all enjoyed and please drop a review, please; I like hearing what you all think.