A/N: Just a little disclaimer before I start. The first chapter of this story isn't that great and please do not be too turned off by it. I promise that it'll look better as the story progresses andI'll try not to jump days too much like the first and second chapters too much. Also I do not own the X-men franchise or its characters, all of which belongs to its rightful creators.

Chap 1

Katherine Anne Pryde heaved a sigh of exhaustion as she slumped down to the ground, back against a burnt-out car. Part of her heart was filled with anguish, pain for the losses of three endearing professors and for Logan's broken heart. Left with no alternative, Logan had been forced to kill Jean, the very woman he loved to save the people on Alcatraz Island. The other was part relief and numbness. They had done it, and they had survived, including the man she loved, Bobby Drake. The man she loved but would never love her back.

At that thought, a pang of sadness sliced its way through her heart and her eyes fell on the exhausted but equally handsome man as he shambled his way across to her. Crashing onto the ground beside her, his blue eyes dazzled her as they stared at each other. Bobby never failed to melt her heart with those piercing blue eyes of his that would simply take her breath away. Bobby smiled and wrapped his arm around her shoulder, bringing her head into his chest and loving embrace. Kitty 's breath caught in her throat and she didn't resist, snuggling up to him. There was a little guilt at the thought of Rogue, Bobby's girlfriend. She didn't hate Rogue. They were good friends and she was happy for them, yet a part of her was in pain at the sacrifice she had to make for their happiness. But Rogue was not here, having left the school to join the throngs of mutants lining up for the Worthington Labs cure. This was the only chance she would get to spend time with Bobby like this, in his arms as though he were hers.

Just for a few more nights like this Rogue, please. I'm sorry, thought Kitty as she relaxed in his embrace and drifted off to sleep.

Two weeks later

Kitty walked through the halls on towards her next class on the other wing of the school. Life had begun again at the school with Storm taking over Professor Xavier as the head of the school and students had resumed their studies. Nothing would ever be the same for Kitty Pryde, Professor Xavier had been the one to bring her here, the one to mentor and teach her. Pain wracked her heart as she strode on, the passing figures of students becoming nothing but a blur and time began to lose meaning…..until she slammed into a solid surface.

Looking up, she found herself staring at Bobby Drake, who gave her a disapproving look.

" He may be gone Kitty, but the rest of us are still here. You're not the only one feeling like this but you're not alone." reprimanded Bobby.

Kitty gave a slight smile and nodded her head. Bobby could always tell what she was thinking or how she was feeling, all except her love for him. Kitty hugged him which he reciprocated as they stood there.

Kitty: "Thank you."

Kitty gave him a last smile and left for her class.

Three hours later

Kitty left her last class for the day and headed down the hallway back to the dorm rooms. Her homework could wait, she wanted to spend some of the limited time she had left with Bobby. Rogue would come back soon, she knew that. Only Bobby could be such an idiot to think she wouldn't. As she stepped through the door, her already broken heart shattered more into millions of pieces, adding to the millions of pieces that were already there. Right in front of her were Bobby and Rouge passionately making out, no longer barred by Rogue's life-draining powers negated by the cure. Kitty stumbled silently out the door unnoticed and phased through the door to her room with tears in her eyes. Rogue had returned and with that, any chance of spending more time with Bobby.

Why did she come back today? Couldn't she wait a few more days? thought Kitty as she slammed onto her bed and curled up into a ball. As soon as the resentful thoughts of Rogue's return and status as Bobby's girlfriend came, she crushed them and calmed herself down, though the pain remained.

Of course she came back, she left for Bobby, she would return for him. As much as she loved Bobby, she loved Rogue as a friend too and she didn't want to hurt her. Bobby was everything to Rogue as much as he was everything to Kitty. She wouldn't destroy her friend's heart with her selfishness. She already made the conscious decision to leave them alone, even if it meant she would never be happy again. Yet, she could not quench the pain that stabbed her heart. She couldn't stop loving Bobby no matter how hard she tried.

Kitty would continue to love Bobby no matter how painful it was, because he was everything to her. With that thought that broke her heart many times before, Kitty sobbed and cried silently herself to sleep, her consciousness slipping from this world until it reached one of her own making, where she could live out a lie that she wanted so badly to be true, but would never exist.