"I don't really remember a time in my life when Zed wasn't present. We've been friends forever and stuff lead to another stuff, and we're ended up dating. We always knew we'd some darkness inside. But I've always able to control it, different from Zed. He lost control and raped me. The shadows just started their influence and he wasn't able to put himself together. That make me mad. Not the rape. The sex was long overdue, however the lack of control, that make me angry as hell."
"How do you have darkness Syndra? I don't understand. And you suffered a huge violence from someone you've known for your whole life, like you told me. How can you not be angry?"
"I am a really practical person, really. I try to put simple things behind me and analyze what is really important. So I'll be angry with other things."
"You are one of the most intelligent people I've ever met. But this logic of yours is really peculiar. And you need psychological treatment. That's why you're here. If you don't deal with this pain, you cannot recover."
"But recover from what? That's what I've been telling you. I have nothing to recover. I am perfectly fine. I understand that Zed was a weak person who did not respect me and he is gone. I' ve been living with this and I'll survive. Thanks for your kindness."
Syndra stood up and left the office, going home. Arriving there, she called Janna, which she didn't know how to call. Girlfriend, friend, friends with benefits, all of that seemed a little off. But that was how she was feeling. Off.
"How was your session?"
"Fine. I don't know why I have to do this. I completely understand all the motives. I am fine with this."
"Syn, you're a force of nature. There are some people that need to deal with this, you're one of them, but you don't admit it. "
"I won't be seeing him for a long time. So why bother? Hold on, someone is at the door."
She went open the door and faced the whole reason for the therapy sessions:
"Hi Syndra."
"Hi. Zed."