A/N: No, I don't own Harry Potter, and if I did, why the hell would I be writing this? No spoilers, doesn't relate to any other Harry Potter fic, a random one-shot.
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How Am I supposed to Feel?
Loud laugher fills the air. Booming, overpowering…beautiful. I remember hearing you laugh for the first time. An angelic melody, like a bird's song on a summer's day, reminding you that the cold winter has passed and disappeared, and with it brings an essence of life again, flowers open and trees bloom. My heart could've literally melted right there and then, laughing was such a rare occurrence in these dark times.
Snapping out of my trance I shake my head and sigh. My thoughts were stupid, childish and naïve. I felt so foolish and I began to faintly blush, I hope you haven't seen me…watching you, what would people say? I already had the role of belonging in the loony bin imprinted upon me.
Damn.
You turn and look at me briefly, it's amazing how red I can get and my blush increases so much my face begins to burn, so I look down quickly and stare at my hands, wishing I could just crawl into a corner and die.
I don't remember when this...attraction started, maybe it was when I saw the steel walls you surround yourself in fall and crumble around you, and on that day I realised you were human. Or maybe it was when you finally noticed me back when I was a 3rd year. I was walking alone and you looked at me…not sneered, not smirked like you usually do, but looked, and from then on I knew I liked you.
I know you will never feel the same way about me and on some levels that's a good thing, I've never told anyone how I feel, how can I? They'd laugh in my face and I'd be ridiculed, and so would you, no…I can't let this get out. I would be a fool to think you'd like me anyway, after all, you're a Slytherin, and I'm a ravenclaw, you'd rather marry a muggle than go out with a loon like me right?
Sometimes I wish everything was different, and when you looked at me your face would light up and you'd smile, and hug me, and we'd always be together. Then reality comes back full force, and I realise how idiotic I actually am, I look around and notice practically everyone has gone up to their rooms, the great hall a lonely place without the hundreds of Hogwarts students chatter.
Sighing I head up to my dorm, hoping by some miracle I wouldn't dream of you again, thinking about you constantly was bad enough in the day, let alone night. I undress and slip into my bed, snuggling under the covers. How did I become so obsessed? I groan and turn over, images of Draco Malfoy floating around in my head.
Maybe they were right, I really was Loony Lovegood.
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