***I do not own any of the characters from the Twilight series… or anything for that matter.***
The story is set in New Moon around the bike riding scene.
THE END OF SOMETHING OLD
It's always hard getting over your first love. The feelings are new and exciting, which can make them very strong. Edward had swept me off my feet when I met him. He definitely interested me, to say the least. He was perfect, everything about him perfect. Everything he did, say, the way he looked, even his family was perfect. I didn't think it was possible for so much perfection to be concentrated in one area. Why should someone that's dead get to be so flawless? How was that even fair?
At first it was all great. It was like being in one of those old TV shows, where everything always ran smoothly. And even when there were problems they were perfect problems to show off their perfect skills. It starts to make you sick after awhile. They put me in this bubble of protection, like I was their cute little toy. Yes, I realized how much more powerful they were compared to me and that I could never win a fight against them or even really fight along side them. Did that really entitle them to control everything I did? I had been taking care of myself and my mother my whole life and now I was taking care of Charlie. Shouldn't that have allowed me some control over my life?
I was so crushed when Edward had left me, but it opened my eyes. I understand they did it because they loved me and wanted to protect me, but I was so suffocated. I was slowly dieing inside and I didn't even realize it until I had my freedom back.
Thank God for Jacob Black, without him I wouldn't know what to do with myself. He swooped right in and picked up the pieces of my broken heart and brought me out into the world again. He showed me what I was missing, and how wonderful a world with risks could be. Although I am nowhere near as reckless as my best friend, but I can definitely hold my own along side him. He gives me the space and freedom I need. He does protect me when I need it though, I'm still very accident prone after all.
He's the bright, hot sun I need in this cold and dreary place. When I'm around him I feel alive. He's the best friend I could ever ask for. He's always been there for me, even when it was hard for him to be around me because of Edward. We've known each other all our lives and I know we'll always be there for each other.