A crying reflection, never a dream.
I guess I'll never be able to love...
What.....Who are you?
Too cold, I wish I could express myself.....Like the way I was before..
Before? What's before? What are you talking about?
I used to have feelings, Now all I know is war....Death....Hatred.....Anger...Killing...Where does your soul go after things like that happen? What will happen when the war is over? Are you ready, Heero Yuy?
When the war is over....I don't know what i'll do when the war ends...Don't even know what i'm doing right now....Who am I? What was I?
I'll be leaving now...
Heero: Wait, come back, I want to know who you are!
Duo: Oi, Heero, wake up! You're startin' to sound like Relena in your sleep.
Heero rose quickly, Panting.
Duo: You've been groaning all night, what have you been dreaming about?
Heero: ........
Heero stood up slowly, walked to the shower.
Duo: Geez, what's his problem?
Trowa: Just leave him alone, he has something on his mind.
Duo: Where did you come from?
Trowa: Just got back from the mission at the Victoria base.
Duo: Oi, sneaking up is my job....
Wufei: Duo, what are you doing lazing around? Get packing, were all on a mission in Brazil, supposed to be a Oz unit there.
Duo: Oi, another one? When do we get a break?
Wufei: You can rest up when we get there....You'll have some time before the mission...
Duo: Oh yeah!
Heero sat in the shower, letting the water run over him.
Heero: No matter how hard I scrub I can never get the blood, sin, and smell of death off of me. I'm polluted...
The young assassin watched the water roll down his chin...
Your blood stained hands will never be rinsed clean.....Your life will come to haunt you...Your memories will end up killing you...Your love will rot inside of you...
I don't understand...
Duo knocked on the door. Oi, Heero, you've been in there for an hour, give me a turn to bathe! I need it the most!
Heero shook his head as if waking up from a dream. Hour? That's How long i've been in here? What's wrong with me?
Duo began to bang on the door. ....Heero didn't notice..
Heero looked in the mirror. I hate this reflection, all I'm tired of seeing this body everywhere I go, I hate seeing this demon...
A cold reflection looked at him. don't pretend...I know your feelings....You like being a killer....Don't you?
No, that's not true. I do what I have to, Or is it the only thing....I can do?
Such a pretender...Stop lying to yourself! You like the feeling of knowing you have the power to take lives away. Makes you feel strong, doesn't it? A predator above the rest, adapted to that lifestyle.
No, stop, leave me alone!
Heero punched the mirror, the glass sticking into his fist, blood streamed into the sink...Silence...
Blood, Heh, i'm not used to seeing it come from me. No, what am I saying?...
Duo: Ai, Heero, i'm comin' in there! Duo burst through the door. H..H....Heero.....Your bleeding.
Heero: get out, just get out, leave me be....
Duo: ....
Duo walked downstairs silently. Heero got dressed, cleaning up the glass, not bothering to wipe the blood off of his hand...Hn...Wouldn't make a difference if I did wash it anyway...
Quatre: Okay, everyone, we better get going, we might miss our flight. ..
Wufei: Ai, Heero, Duo, Trowa, lets go.
Everyone except for Heero went out to the car. He walked down the stairs slowly, taking in his surroundings, for once. Silence. Heero paid no attention, continued down the stairs.
Maybe one day i'll be something more than a shadow on the wall...
Quatre: Heero, wake up, were here, were at the airport.
Heero: Airport, we left already?
Quatre: Yeah...We left a while ago....Are you okay?
Heero: I'm fine.
Duo: Oi, Quatre, Heero, get your asses over here!
Wufei and Trowa were checking the luggage. Quatre ran over to Duo.
Where do you think your going?
I'm on a mission.
Going to kill more? Why don't you stop?
I have orders, they are what I live for...
What you live for, you live to listen to someone boss you around? Your mind belongs to you, you can make your own choices.
I don't know how to make my own choices, unless in battle.
That's so sad, a man who can only live in battle, is not a man at all.
That's the way I learned how to live.
Sad, when people need to stop time to find themselves.
What do you mean?
Worker: Hey kid, look out!
Heero shook his head as if waking up from a dream.
A crash, Heero fell, the luggage piled on top of him....As if in slow motion...as if time slowed down...he could barely see Trowa and Wufei running towards him....All sound started to fade....slowly....His vision began to darken, he finally went unconscious....
Are you okay?
Yeah, i'm fine.
Oh, good, I thought you were hurt.
Heero opened his eyes, a small boy sat next to him.
What? Who are you? Where am I?
I'm sorry, I can't answer those questions.
Why not?
Only you can.
What are you talking about?
Trowa: Heero, Heero, can you hear me?
Duo: Hello? Hello!
Heero: Hn...
Wufei: Your ok, you had them all worried.
Heero *thought* He always has been an unsentimental bastard.
Quatre: If we hurry, we can still catch the flight, lets go!
Duo: Ai, Heero, don't space out again.
Heero ....
Flight assistant: Flight GP1 will now be departing, please keep your seat belts on.
Duo: Ugh, I feel woozy, I hate jets.
Wufei: So you can be in a gundam being blasted around but you cant handle being in a jet, I just don't get you sometimes.
Duo: Oi, Wuffie.
Trowa: Might as well rest up everyone, its going to be a very long flight.
Heero started to drift off. He shook out of it.
What's wrong with me? I'm afraid to go to sleep...
Of course you are, your nothing but a coward.
Shut up, you don't know anything about me, you cant understand.
Oh, Heero, I probably understand you better than you understand yourself, you have no idea how much I know about you Heero...As what you call yourself..
Call myself?
You don't even remember your name. So pathetic, your too weak to be a gundam pilot.
That may be true...But i'll keep on fighting...For the colonies..
Oh, the colonies? Is that your reason? Or is it your will to fight? Or maybe your out there to get Zechs.
I fight.....For the colonies...Yeah....The colonies.
Wake up!
What? Heero opened his eyes...
You again...Your that...Little boy..
Heero, don't let them get to you! Keep fighting for what you believe in.
Wufei: Heero...we've arrived.
Heero: What? Already?
Wufei: You slept a long time, its been 6 hours.
Heero: ...
Duo: Oi, Heero, you on drugs or somethin'?
Heero grabbed his luggage and walked out of the plane.
Wufei: Duo, maybe your right for once, something is wrong with Heero.
Duo: Yeah...FOR ONCE?!
Your losing it Heero, hn, am I too much for you? Perfect soldier? You've lost sense of your sight. Can you tell the difference between reality anymore?
I....I'm confused...Leave me alone....Stay away from me!
Leave you alone? Is that all you have to say to me?
No one understands my feelings.....So how would you know....How do you know how I feel!!!
You don't understand your own feelings. Why do you keep running? Show me your capabilities, I want to see what your made of, I didn't come here for nothing.
I hate it all, just leave me alone, I'll believe in what I know!!!
Quatre: Leave you alone? I'm trying to help you.
Heero: Quatre, where am I?
Quatre: You passed out again, were at our hideout, In brazil...
Duo in background: Maybe we should do something...Heero can become dangerous...
I am dangerous, i'm nothing but a threat to everyone....Including myself.
Quatre: Heero, don't say that.
Hn....Poor fool......You really are clueless...
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I guess I'll never be able to love...
What.....Who are you?
Too cold, I wish I could express myself.....Like the way I was before..
Before? What's before? What are you talking about?
I used to have feelings, Now all I know is war....Death....Hatred.....Anger...Killing...Where does your soul go after things like that happen? What will happen when the war is over? Are you ready, Heero Yuy?
When the war is over....I don't know what i'll do when the war ends...Don't even know what i'm doing right now....Who am I? What was I?
I'll be leaving now...
Heero: Wait, come back, I want to know who you are!
Duo: Oi, Heero, wake up! You're startin' to sound like Relena in your sleep.
Heero rose quickly, Panting.
Duo: You've been groaning all night, what have you been dreaming about?
Heero: ........
Heero stood up slowly, walked to the shower.
Duo: Geez, what's his problem?
Trowa: Just leave him alone, he has something on his mind.
Duo: Where did you come from?
Trowa: Just got back from the mission at the Victoria base.
Duo: Oi, sneaking up is my job....
Wufei: Duo, what are you doing lazing around? Get packing, were all on a mission in Brazil, supposed to be a Oz unit there.
Duo: Oi, another one? When do we get a break?
Wufei: You can rest up when we get there....You'll have some time before the mission...
Duo: Oh yeah!
Heero sat in the shower, letting the water run over him.
Heero: No matter how hard I scrub I can never get the blood, sin, and smell of death off of me. I'm polluted...
The young assassin watched the water roll down his chin...
Your blood stained hands will never be rinsed clean.....Your life will come to haunt you...Your memories will end up killing you...Your love will rot inside of you...
I don't understand...
Duo knocked on the door. Oi, Heero, you've been in there for an hour, give me a turn to bathe! I need it the most!
Heero shook his head as if waking up from a dream. Hour? That's How long i've been in here? What's wrong with me?
Duo began to bang on the door. ....Heero didn't notice..
Heero looked in the mirror. I hate this reflection, all I'm tired of seeing this body everywhere I go, I hate seeing this demon...
A cold reflection looked at him. don't pretend...I know your feelings....You like being a killer....Don't you?
No, that's not true. I do what I have to, Or is it the only thing....I can do?
Such a pretender...Stop lying to yourself! You like the feeling of knowing you have the power to take lives away. Makes you feel strong, doesn't it? A predator above the rest, adapted to that lifestyle.
No, stop, leave me alone!
Heero punched the mirror, the glass sticking into his fist, blood streamed into the sink...Silence...
Blood, Heh, i'm not used to seeing it come from me. No, what am I saying?...
Duo: Ai, Heero, i'm comin' in there! Duo burst through the door. H..H....Heero.....Your bleeding.
Heero: get out, just get out, leave me be....
Duo: ....
Duo walked downstairs silently. Heero got dressed, cleaning up the glass, not bothering to wipe the blood off of his hand...Hn...Wouldn't make a difference if I did wash it anyway...
Quatre: Okay, everyone, we better get going, we might miss our flight. ..
Wufei: Ai, Heero, Duo, Trowa, lets go.
Everyone except for Heero went out to the car. He walked down the stairs slowly, taking in his surroundings, for once. Silence. Heero paid no attention, continued down the stairs.
Maybe one day i'll be something more than a shadow on the wall...
Quatre: Heero, wake up, were here, were at the airport.
Heero: Airport, we left already?
Quatre: Yeah...We left a while ago....Are you okay?
Heero: I'm fine.
Duo: Oi, Quatre, Heero, get your asses over here!
Wufei and Trowa were checking the luggage. Quatre ran over to Duo.
Where do you think your going?
I'm on a mission.
Going to kill more? Why don't you stop?
I have orders, they are what I live for...
What you live for, you live to listen to someone boss you around? Your mind belongs to you, you can make your own choices.
I don't know how to make my own choices, unless in battle.
That's so sad, a man who can only live in battle, is not a man at all.
That's the way I learned how to live.
Sad, when people need to stop time to find themselves.
What do you mean?
Worker: Hey kid, look out!
Heero shook his head as if waking up from a dream.
A crash, Heero fell, the luggage piled on top of him....As if in slow motion...as if time slowed down...he could barely see Trowa and Wufei running towards him....All sound started to fade....slowly....His vision began to darken, he finally went unconscious....
Are you okay?
Yeah, i'm fine.
Oh, good, I thought you were hurt.
Heero opened his eyes, a small boy sat next to him.
What? Who are you? Where am I?
I'm sorry, I can't answer those questions.
Why not?
Only you can.
What are you talking about?
Trowa: Heero, Heero, can you hear me?
Duo: Hello? Hello!
Heero: Hn...
Wufei: Your ok, you had them all worried.
Heero *thought* He always has been an unsentimental bastard.
Quatre: If we hurry, we can still catch the flight, lets go!
Duo: Ai, Heero, don't space out again.
Heero ....
Flight assistant: Flight GP1 will now be departing, please keep your seat belts on.
Duo: Ugh, I feel woozy, I hate jets.
Wufei: So you can be in a gundam being blasted around but you cant handle being in a jet, I just don't get you sometimes.
Duo: Oi, Wuffie.
Trowa: Might as well rest up everyone, its going to be a very long flight.
Heero started to drift off. He shook out of it.
What's wrong with me? I'm afraid to go to sleep...
Of course you are, your nothing but a coward.
Shut up, you don't know anything about me, you cant understand.
Oh, Heero, I probably understand you better than you understand yourself, you have no idea how much I know about you Heero...As what you call yourself..
Call myself?
You don't even remember your name. So pathetic, your too weak to be a gundam pilot.
That may be true...But i'll keep on fighting...For the colonies..
Oh, the colonies? Is that your reason? Or is it your will to fight? Or maybe your out there to get Zechs.
I fight.....For the colonies...Yeah....The colonies.
Wake up!
What? Heero opened his eyes...
You again...Your that...Little boy..
Heero, don't let them get to you! Keep fighting for what you believe in.
Wufei: Heero...we've arrived.
Heero: What? Already?
Wufei: You slept a long time, its been 6 hours.
Heero: ...
Duo: Oi, Heero, you on drugs or somethin'?
Heero grabbed his luggage and walked out of the plane.
Wufei: Duo, maybe your right for once, something is wrong with Heero.
Duo: Yeah...FOR ONCE?!
Your losing it Heero, hn, am I too much for you? Perfect soldier? You've lost sense of your sight. Can you tell the difference between reality anymore?
I....I'm confused...Leave me alone....Stay away from me!
Leave you alone? Is that all you have to say to me?
No one understands my feelings.....So how would you know....How do you know how I feel!!!
You don't understand your own feelings. Why do you keep running? Show me your capabilities, I want to see what your made of, I didn't come here for nothing.
I hate it all, just leave me alone, I'll believe in what I know!!!
Quatre: Leave you alone? I'm trying to help you.
Heero: Quatre, where am I?
Quatre: You passed out again, were at our hideout, In brazil...
Duo in background: Maybe we should do something...Heero can become dangerous...
I am dangerous, i'm nothing but a threat to everyone....Including myself.
Quatre: Heero, don't say that.
Hn....Poor fool......You really are clueless...
******to be continued******