I've been thinking about writing a Fanfic for a while now and I finally decided to just do it, so this story is dedicated to my favorite couple of OHSHC, Hikaru and Kaoru. Enjoy! :P
Disclaimer: ~sigh~ Do I really need to say this...? Fine, I don't own Ouran High School Host Club or any of it's characters. T.T Stupid disclaimer always crushing my dreams...
Parings: HikaxKao
Rated: T just to be safe (I'm paranoid...)
Sincerely, Kaoru
Kaoru's P.O.V.
I waited patiently for Hikaru to fall asleep to the music from the headphones he put on every night before he went to sleep, then I quietly removed myself from our bed and grabbed my hidden journal from the secret drawer in my desk. I wrote everything in that journal, everything I couldn't tell Hikaru, everything I was too afraid to tell him. At least once every week I would go to my journal and pour my heart out onto the pages. Carefully opening the book, I pulled out my pen and began to jot down my feelings and problems.
I desperately wish I could tell you, tell you what you mean to me. How you make me feel, how I wish I could have you. I almost kissed you today, I wonder how much that would have surprised you. Would you have kissed back or pushed me away? Would you have called me disgusting and run away? I know the answer to that already though, which is why I didn't kiss you. I know you will run from me so I never kiss you, even when I want to so bad I feel like my heart's going to break into a million shards like a piece of glass. I don't know what to do Hikaru, I just don't know anymore. The one thing I do know is that things can't stay this way forever, they'll have to change at some point. However, I don't know if I'll be able to handle that when it happens. There's a pain in my chest like I've been stabbed and whenever you look at me during host club with those eyes that hold love and compassion that pain becomes sharper and more intense. I know those eyes are just part of the act made to convince our gullible customers, but I want them to be real so badly... I'm just writing again to let you know, I love you Hikaru.
Sincerely,
Kaoru
As I finished the letter (one of many other similar ones) I replaced the book in my desk drawer and lay back down next to Hikaru in our bed. I have no idea why I still signed the bottom of the page, it's not like I'm ever going to show him the letters anyway. For the millionth time I wondered what would happen if I did let him read my letters, pushing back the thought almost as quickly as it had popped up I pressed my chilled body against Hikaru's warm one and fell into a dreamless sleep.
Rae:Hey guys, sorry for any spelling errors and grammar errors and bad storytelling errors haha it's like 1:30 am and I can barely see my computer screen so I hope it isn't too bad... I'm also sorry that chapter's so short but it's just a short story anyway so short chapters are called for. :p Anyway this is my first fanfic EVER so please review for all the host's sake!
~holds a gun up to Hikaru~
Kaoru: WHAT ARE YOU DOING, ARE YOU CRAZY?
Rae:Now why on earth would you think that? ~grins~
Hikaru:Please!...Please just do what she says...
Rae:That's right all you readers out there, just read and review and no one will get hurt! :D
" We're all mad here."~Cheshire Cat